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Friday, April 06, 2007

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 14:54:15 GMT

Hey girls, sorry for the lack of update yesterday but i wasn't feeling well.
my mother took me to the supermarket today to pick out "my" candy for tomorrow. haha, it was so much fun. Mom was like; chocolate? but i just took some nonsugar and nonfat candy and a couple of chocolates so she wont worry.

intake
breakfast - nothing
lunch - a cup of hot chocolate and a small bowl of homemade müsli. / 300 cals
dinner - tba
snacks - none
total= 300 calories

Burned;
1 hour walk / -134 calories
Cleaning my room / -167 calories
total = -301 calories

so i'm basically up one calorie. haha lol, that's not sucess in my eyes. I'm going out for a long walk now and maybe have a smoke. I'm starting to get hungry and we're not having dinner until later tonight and i don't wanna snack! So i'm grabbing my mp3 and i'm right out the door.

comment! i will answer everyone.
stay strong <3

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 09:24:57 GMT

Godmorning!

i hope you all are doing okay. i just woke up and i'm going to take a shower any minute now. I haven't ate anything so far, just a glass of non fat milk and i'm not planning to eat anything until dinner and then i'm not eating much. Tomorrow the big easter holiday starts and i couldn't be less excited. it's just a holiday of food and more food. eugh and i told my mother i didn't want any candy and now she's probably buying the whole candystore. She's a pain.

And i'm going out for a run today i think. It's good weather, not too cold and not to warm. It's great, and i have to clean my room before my parents get a anerysm. It's nooot clean. haha
i'll update later with a intake list and stuff!

comment!
love <3

Thursday

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 22:02:47 GMT

Hey girls, it's been quite awhile, but let's not dwell in the past.
lol. i'm back and big, so let's diet eh?
I've decided to get thin, again. I always get back to fatso weight and
now i wanna be thin. I'm changing diet sodas to water, candy to apples
and chewing gum til smokes AND EXERCISE people. i'm going to exercise my ass off.
No eating after 6 o'clock, no night eating. No mcdonalds.

you know what?
i'm back.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 16:33:19 GMT

today is a "eat normal" day. I'm boosting my metabolism. Hopefully it will work cuz i can't eat like this. Too much food in to little time. aargh!

Intake
B - Cereal / 200 cals
L - School Lunch / 100 cals
D - Mac & Cheese / 200 cals
Snacks: 5 crackers / 100 cals
all and all: 600 cals.

that's alot for being me.

Todays quote:
"Sometimes you feel tired,feel weak. When you feel weak, you feel like you wanna just give up. But you gotta search within you,find that inner strengh,and just pull that shit out of you, and get that motivation to not give up, and not be a quitter, no matter how bad you wanna just fall flat on your face." -- Eminem, "Till I Collapse"

Join my blogring: & i will always love Mary kate

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 12:49:28 GMT

bad. so bad. Yesterday, i ate half a pizza! HALF A PIZZA!
ARGH! UH. I can't take it, must have been over 500 cals just in that pizza- so.. it was with my boyfriend. We were at his house, watching Madagascar. love that movie =) i like to move it, move it. i like to, MOVE IT.

I just filled my mp3 with some dance and techno music. I'm going out for a 5 kilometer walk =) weej. Hopefully i will make it more.

Bye girls

Monday, January 02, 2006

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 16:39:04 GMT

My fast broke

my boyfriend made me eat after a dizzy spell at his house. ugh! i was going so strong! My fast had been going for 4 fucking days!
I'm planning on a new fast, but i wanna give it a day or two. But in 2 days or something i'm gonna start me a new one :) i love fasts. anyone wanna join me?

eww.. just heard Kevin Federlines new singel. let me just say ew. *shudders*

Thinsporation is Jack Osbourne
i know he's a guy, but look at him go.

The change. wow

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 14:34:50 GMT

i spent the night at my boyfriend cuz my parents and his parents were on a party in another city. so the are coming home tomorrow. but when we were lying in bed and making out, he on top of me, he was like running his hands along my sides and he was like: i can count your ribs. i was like: okay ? So he got of me, disappeared from the room and got back with a SCALE! A SCALE PEOPLE! :@ And he was like: get on!
so after a small fight, i got on. and it said 108. and i already knew that and i was happy. But my boyfriend had a smaller break down. "you'r losing weight again, why?" and i couldn't well tell him that i was into ana again so i was standing there thinking up an excuse, when he suddenly takes me in his arms and starts to apologize and he started saying things like: sorry, i'm so sorry. i know that you don't do that ana crap any more. i was just worried. i don't want you losing weight again. can't you see that?

and i felt so much shame. never in my hole life have i been more ashamed. i don't want to lie to him! not to the only light in my life. not him.. i don't wanna lose him. i couldn't stand it. i love him more than i deserve. i don't deserve that beautiful guy. he should have someone better.

EDIT>

I'm gonna start a fast. with only negative food. i'm starting tonight at 19.00. so i'm 7 minutes into the fast :P lol

Negative calorie food

vegetables
Asparagus
Fennel
Aubergine
Gourd
Broccoli
Leek
Cabbage
Lettuce
Carrots
Marrow
Cauliflower
Peppers
Celery
Radish
Chicory
Spinach
Cress
Tomato
Cucumber
Turnip

Negative calorie list for fruits
Apple
Apricot
Mandarin
Orange
Mango
Peach
Pineapple
Blackberry
Strawberry
Raspberry
Cranberry
Melon
Canteloupe
Blackcurrant
Peaches
Clementines
Plums
Damsons
Grapefruit
Rhubarb
Guava
Honeydew
Tangerine
Lemon
Watermelon

AND NO FOOD AFTER 19.00 This may sound like a panty ass fast. but i'm starting out slow.

xxoooxxx Mico beck<33

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 19:31:17 GMT

Heya girls! pretty good day today, didn't eat anything just drank water. So i'm feeling wonderfully light.

My point system i'm gonna start using again!

Calories

0-200: 10 points

201-350: 8 points

351-500= 5 points

501-600= 3 points

601-750= 1 point

750+ = 0 points

Exercise

None= 0 Points

15-30 Minutes = 1 Point

31-45 Minutes = 3 Points

46- 1 Hour = 4 Points

1 1/2 Hour = 6 Points

2 Hours = 8 Points

2 1/2 Hours = 9 Points

3+ Hours = 10 Points

Water

0 Glasses= 0 Points

1 Glasses= 1 Point

2 Glasses= 2 Points

3 Glasses= 3 Points

4 Glasses= 4 Points

5 Glasses= 6 Points

6 Glasses= 7 Points

7 Glasses= 8 Points

8 Glasses= 9 Points

9 Glasses= 10 Points

Sleep

8 + Hours = 10 Points

7 Hours= 8 Points

6 Hours= 7 Points

5 Hours= 5 Points

4 Hours= 4 Points

3 Hours= 2 Points

2 Hours or less = 0 Points

Bonus Points

Updating your Xanga daily= 3 Points

No binging= 2 Points

No purging= 2 Points

Encourgeing fellow anas= 3 Points

Posting thinspo and/or tips= 2 Points

So... my points for today are:
10 for intake
3 for exercise
4 for water
10 for sleep
4 for no b/p today
3 for Encourgeing (sent 20 comments)
2 for thinspo

all adds up to...
36 points :) weeeej!

Thinsporation

Love you girls. Beck forever in my heart<3

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 19:26:54 GMT

had an awful b/p yesterday. feel like shit.

comment beautifuls <33

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 07:30:11 GMT

gawd- i love Mischa Barton.
kan you be more perfect?

dumdumdum, just 29 to go :)

so i was in school today and the boy i like he came up to me and gave me a hug and asked me how i was feeling. i was like: gugfuhjod.
I didn't make any sense :P i promise

Today
5 bottles of water
100 grams of pasta (100 cals)
1 orange (45 cals)
All and all: 145 calories.
But i am expecting to eat some dinner cause my grandparents are coming to dinner so i have to eat infront of grandma. but that's okay because i'm getting my exercise done today, finally .hehe, i plan on burning at least 500 cals, preferably 1000. that would be great (:

Thinsporation