well sorry about the break up i guess. hey i have this saturday off from work. we should hand out and dance on the old rainbow. hey do you know what brittneys xanga is? i have it written down some were since she left but i dont know were it is. 

you know what jackie?  your fuckin g right.  I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU ANYMORE OK????  you are a different person that i dont eve know anymore!!!!!!!  im helping brandon because hes hurt.  we talked.  and were talking ok.  hes a person too you know.  i dont wanna fucking loose the sisterhood we have had but you know what?  what the hell... its already gone anyway.  we arent sisters.  we are nothing alike.  we know nothing about eachother anymore.  while i have been here in argyle the same person i have been.  you have been changing.  non stop.   i dont even know who the hell you are anymore.  everything you do, it scares me. it scares me to think that the little girl i used to stay up with at night playing with barbies, cutting there hair, then eventually cutting their heads off is now.... something or someone i should say that i have no fucking clue about.  i dont know you jackie.  you know your name is jaclyn and i bet some of ur friends in denton dont even know that.  u have this amazing eeyye color.  this soft brown hair.  a beautiful face.  no one sees what i used to.. you hide yourself behind everything you are now from what or who u used to be.  if i saw u now, i honestly dont think i could be myself because i would be scared of rejection, scared of not being that perfect model of your best friend, your soul sister, your flat out sister.  i dont know what i am thinking right now.  and after hearing about u snaking out and doing whatever with stu at stus.  i dont care.  actaully i do.  i am not going to sit here and let you fuck up everything good in you life.  your friends in denton might not care [besides brandon] but i do.  i mean common..... smoking, drinking, sneaking out, cutting... whatever.  you dont need that shit.  you are a bettter person than that.  they may not see it but i do.  you know the people that tell you these things are the people that freaking care the most.  like me, and brandon.  you are shutting out the only true people that are ever going to mean anything.  and im telling you.  were not going to be here forever.  so dont let go of something you may never get back, because in turn, you never know when they might never come back...

i love you jackie and i always will

<3 nikkie aka nicole renee carlson