Dear Journal,

Wow its been a weird few days.

Friday I got suspended from work for 3 days. Im sooo bad. I was smoking in a non smoking area. Whats this world coming to? I should be beaten.

Ive never understood where the punishment comes in when someone get suspended. I get three days off and they have to cover my schedule. 

Anyways now Im definately on the shit list. I guess laughing was'nt the best move I made as I was signing my suspention paper. I've not been happy there for a while so this really is a good thing. Gives me the motivation I need to get off my ass and find something new.

I took my time-out today and put it to good use. I updated my resume' and Im ready to rock n roll.

They gave me mon-tues and friday off. I think just for shits and giggles, Im calling in wed and thurs.  Im already off all next week for vacation. Might as well make it 2.

:)

Dear Journal,

  Ive been running alot of red lights lately. Not red exactly but yellow. Yellow lights. Yeah, I get to them and they turn yellow and I actually have plenty of time to stop but I choose to zoom on through. Does that make me extra brave or just crazy? I havent actually ran  the redlight yet but its only a matter of time, correct? Is that bad? I know its dangerous but I dont plan on doing it, it just happens. Like I have no control until after its done then I feel no regrets. Will I regret it if I run the redlight? That remains to be seen.

Dear Journal,

    I called Mama yesterday to wish her a Happy Mothers Day and she was a total bitch. I know I shouldve sent a stupid card but I simply forgot until it was too late. Im so not good with remembering things like that.

After talking to Cindy today I realized that its evidently hereditary because she didnt send Mama one either and neither did Jodi. I guess it wouldve been bad enough if one daughter forgot but all three. WOW no wonder she had a reaction. We all called her but it just wasnt enough.

Its funny really that we all didnt do it together. Not planned that way , just happened that way. Goes to show that three different states and three different lives and still the bond is strong. That may not seem like a good thing but to us it is.

All of our lives she played us against each other and all she did was create a sisterly bond that she cant even put a dent in. I wonder if hallmark makes a card for that? Ill have to look.

No matter what she does or how she behaves, we all do love her dearly. Too bad she is too busy being bitter to realize that.

I tried a new idea this past week. I figured no matter what was thrown at me I would be positive about it. Positive thinking isnt a new concept but it isnt an easy task when things arent going well.

Monday really was a good day so that was easy. Tuesday - thursday wasnt so great but I managed to keep up my positive attitude. Friday sucked and I hate to say that I lost it with some rude chick at burger king.

Im not sure what I set out to accomplish or if anything was accomplished by this idea but I thought Id share it with you anyway.

Tomorrow is a new day and we will just go with the flow this week and see how that goes.