new xanga... this one is beat.

GO TO MY NEW SITE!

www.xanga.com/she_loves_withoutholdingback

yes. go there. and comment.

"Dear Eva,

I cant stand how you talk on your xanga, its not an acurate portrayal of you at all.  Im deleting my subscription, because this Eva is not my best friend. talking all this stuff like "i hate this" "i hate that",  swearing left and right. I mean, if you really do have all this hate inside why dont you ask God for strenghth and, ya know, im always here for you too. 

::kind of disgusted and kind of confused::

Love,
Mandi"

well im sorry mand. i usually post on here when im angry or frusterated. i hope you dont take it personally, but yea sometimes its ok to swear. i mean its not like i was swearing at someone. and i dont swear normally. an dif you look through my posts, i hardly swear. and if i do, i am probably very angry. i dont want you to think that im turning bad cause im not. im the same. its me.and the songs, i just listen to them cause they are good music, not necsisarily the lyrics but the songs are good. and when i say "i hate" i dont mean actual Hate. and you know that. this is just my way of getting my sparatical emotions out. i really am not angry all the time. thats just when i post on here.

wow.... i miss my legos, and my tinker toys.
 
yesterday i went antique shopping,
 i got a really big cardboard Coca-cola bottle.
 its the shit. and you know it.
 
oh man, i wish we all wouldn't have grown up,
 but im glad we did cause we all are gonna
turn out great,....
 
well not All of us...
 
Keep quiet.
Nothing comes as easy as you.
Can I lay in your bed all day?
I'll be your best kept secret 
And your biggest mistake.
The hand behind this pen relives a failure every day.
 
So wear me like a locket around your throat.
I'll weigh you down. 
I'll watch you choke.
You look so good in blue.
You look so good in blue.
 
 
This conversation's been dead on arrival,,....

yea, so get this. my mother who didnt let me order Dubbya stuff off online, waited to long and now i can't order anything and get it by Tuesday!!!

that is such bullshit.

ew. i hate how sunday isnt a mailing day.thats another thing on the list of things that i hate.

the last one on the previous list stands firm.

this is side one
flip me over
i know i'm not your favorite record....

i hate flys, and african beetles.

i hate VEE HIX DOT COM! i hate them

i hate what liberal activists do

i hate how the October Surprise happend over 1 year ago and the gay liberals only released it now, as a pathetic attempt to change the election.

i hate not being wiht janet.

i hate knowing that there are 5o some days left until im with janet.

i hate my father at times, becuase i realize how alike we really are.

i hate how that scares me.

i hate not knowing what is wrong with me.

i hate the french.

i hate john kerry's intentions

i hate knowing that being with jannie will make it harder to leave her again.....

i hate how i live away from everyone.

i hate being lazy

i hate being fat.

i think i hate xanga.

most of all though... i hate knowing i still love you.