I've returned from the dead!

Actually not from the dead, just from Facebook! It sucked my life away for about three months. Forgive me, Xanga. But I've discovered, sadly enough, that Xanga took the place of catharsis in my life - vomit up all my emotions onto Xanga into the worldwide web for any passerby to read, and suddenly I feel lighter. It's sad because why can't I do that face to face with a human being? I suppose I can, but the computer just seems so much more empathetic.

Well I suppose that I should bring you up to speed on where my life is right now. Still in Khartoum. Still working at the same hospital. We're actually implementing some of the project goals right now, so it's at an interesting stage of trying to actually make change happen, which can be a very slow, frustrating process, no matter where you're at. I turned 20 years old last month. Feels strange to really be an adult, and no longer a teenager, though honestly being a teenager wasn't exactly a pleasant experience, and I haven't felt like one for a long time now. I have 10 weeks til I go home - fly home May 15. Ten weeks. Can't wait til they drop down to the single digits. I have to be honest and say that I have a bipolar relationship with this country, and right now it's rather in the depressive stage. But eventually I'll come out of it. Maybe I just need to go wash some dishes or something.

surprise.....

Um, so guess what........

I FLEW HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And I'm here til 29 December. 

So yeah. I'm pretty happy right now, back home with the fam. :D

Currently Listening X&Y By Coldplay see related

Ok, ok, ok...........

So I'm giving into the pressure....I've never done one of these before so it should be interesting.....because that's what my music is...interesting....;P

Whitney's Life....The Movie

Opening Credits - Symphony No. 1 in C Minor Op. 68 "Un poco Allegretto e grazioso"

Waking Up - This Is Your Life - Switchfoot

First Day At School - Track 3 from my Hindi dancing music CD!!!

Falling in Love - Blame It On My Youth - Sammy Davis Jr. (haha, how appropriate...)

Fight Song - Yea Kiya Kiya (another Hindi dance song)

Breaking Up - Train Wreck - Mat Kearney (lol...)

Prom - Mayday - Subseven (probly would be saying that if i went to prom...)

Life's OK - Beginnings by Chicago

Mental Breakdown - You're Not Alone by Chicago

Driving - Track 4 (another Hindi dance song.....do I like Hindi dance songs??? ;))

Flashback - Too Lost in You by Sugababes

Getting Back Together - Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds by the Black Crowes

Wedding - Jealousy (Will Get You) by White Hassle (oo, not too good...)

Birth of Child - Silver Streak by Henry Mancini

Final Battle - Be My Escape by Relient K

Death Scene - Another Rainy Day in New York City by Chicago

Funeral Song - When You Say You Love Me by Josh Groban (shouldn't that go somewhere above???0

End Credits - Life Less Ordinary by Carbon Leaf (that's right!!!!)

How am I feeling today? - I Don't Wanna Live Without Your Love by Chicago (haha)

Will I get far in life? - Give Me Your Names from Schindler's List (oo, that's scary...)

How do my friends see me? - Trainwreck by Mat Kearney (haha...)

Where will I get married? - Chem 6a by Switchfoot (ooo, maybe that means I'll meet my future husband in Chem 101!!!)

What is my best friend's theme song? - Really Something by Aaron Sprinkle (tha'ts right!!!)

What is the story of my life? - Universe & U by KT Tunstall (yeah, cause it's all about me in the universe...;P)

What was highschool like? - Caruso by Josh Groban

How can I get ahead in life? - Only Superstition by Coldplay (lol, that oughta really help me along!)

What is the best thing about me? - There Cannot Be A Close Second by Copeland (haha, just the best!)

How is today going to be? - Blood by Kacy Crowley (ew)

What is in store for this weekend? - All'improvviso Amore by Josh Groban

What song describes my parents? - Mehnki Laga Ke Rakhna from Hindi dance music (yeah!!!!)

My grandparents? - See My Savior by Detour 180 (oh, I hope that doesn't mean they ARE soon..)

How is my life going? - Headed by Downhere (i guess i'm headed somewhere...)

What song will they play at my funeral? - Open Skies by David Crowder Band

How does the world see me? - My Romance by Sammy Davis Jr. (hahaha...)

Will I have a happy life? - Don't Panic by Coldplay (ok, thanks for that reassurance!)

What do my friends really think of me? - Little Thoughts by Bloc Party (ooookay....)

What should I do with my life? - Hallelujah by Detour 180

What is some good advice? - Prelude No. 2 in C Minor Op. 28 "Largo" (that was helpful...)

What is my signature dance song? - Sparks Fly by David Crowder Band (that's right, cause this momma is hot!!! hahaha...)

What is my current theme song? - Everything's Not Lost by Coldplay (thanks, that's reassuring!!!)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is? - Nothing to Lose by Henry Mancini (confirmation!!!!)

ok i'm done.....

Currently Listening Catching Tales By Jamie Cullum see related

Happy 3 Month Anniversary...........

So my 3 month anniversary of arriving in the Sudan is almost here. It's really hard to believe that I've been here 3 months already. The time has just flown by, and then again, it feels like I've been here forever. Yet I can still close my eyes and remember in minute detail every aspect of my room at home, my mother's face, a friend's laugh, the Christmas lights hanging in the Fire Escape. Now, I have been overseas longer than any other time in my life. Things in Sudan seem so normal to me, that the thought of doing certain things how I did them in America seems completely strange.

Work at the hospital is going well. We're transitioning into the planning phase of the education we want to do with the pediatric nurses. I need a lot of resources from the US, that's for sure - too bad I can't come home for Christmas and bring them back myself!!! ;)

I love Fridays.......I go to church in the mornings, and then just stay in the house all day and just relax. Today we (me and my flatmates, Hannah and Michelle) had one of our Sudanese friends over, and I think we managed to make an American meal that she actually liked. If only Hannah hadn't choked on the meat.....hehehe.......

Anyways! So I have about.....5 & 1/2 months left here. And sooo much to do, sooo much I want to see happen. But all in His timing. And then I go back to the States. I've been praying a lot, and especially after all my work at the hospital, and realizing how little I really know, I think God may be leading me to move to KC and get my BSN, maybe apply to work at Children's Mercy (which would be a dream come true!!!). But 5 & 1/2 months is a long time from now. So we'll see - who knows what will happen by then?!?

Ok.....love y'all. ;)

Currently Listening Myself When I Am Real By Bebo Norman see related

Well obviously my last post was too depressing so I'll try to make it more chipper this time!

So I was wanting something mindless to entertain myself with one night in the flat, and so I wanted to know what kind of personality eHarmony said I had. I took the test, and the dang thing took 10-15 minutes. And I get to the end, and this is what they tell me.....

"

eHarmony is based upon a complex matching system developed through extensive research with married couples. One of the requirements for successful matching is that participants fall within certain defined profiles. If we find that we will not be able to match a user using these profiles, we feel it is only fair to inform them early in the process. We are so convinced of the importance of creating compatible matches to help people establish happy, lasting relationships that we sometimes choose not to provide service rather than risk an uncertain match. Unfortunately, we are not able to make our profiles work for you. Our matching model could not accurately predict with whom you would be best matched. This occurs for about 20% of potential users, so 1 in 5 people simply will not benefit from our service. We hope that you understand, and we regret our inability to provide service for you at this time. You can still receive your free Personality Profile by clicking here. " Haha....how many people do YOU know who have been rejected by eHarmony???? I thought it was hilarious....no wonder I'm still single.....;)