been sick for the past few days. cough, sneeze, knee pain, headache --> common cold. 1st time of the year and i hate the feeling of not been able to function properly. claimed 2 shift sick leave after struggling for so long. have to thanks a lot of ppl who helped me, though some ppl may think i intentionally take it, well, i am not born to please everyone. i know what i need and what i deserve in the end, hopefully, i will recover soon and function again.

supportive workplace, topic of the day. i wonder what's the meaning of supportive. numerous paper work, admin work and also have to keep helping teammates explaining all sort of things in written format. what's the point of explaining? it seems a form of punishment, not to the teammate but to their team leader. every time, when i opened the secure lock and team tray, have to gather enough courage b4 accepting anything new and also the reality. it seems a form of sustaining/ funcitoning via providing enough workload to ST, admin and also to all officers.

not to mention, the discouragement inflicted on teammates!! today, i wrote such note to my teammate: XXX, pls write an explanatory memo to me on/or before XXX and i will do the followings (of course, not to mention what i gonna do, cos i have no idea how to make it nice and decent). YYY.  dont feel like writing more, i am afraid that the more i write, the more disappointed he is.

feel like writing something, but dont know what to write.

in the last 2 weeks, i was struggling which mobile should i choose, either samsung F488 or HTC touch diamond, i tried HTC for 3 times, but failed to buy one in the end. when i hold the phone, there wasnt a sense of excitement. so i reckon that's probably not the best choice. then i decided not to pay for it and give myself some more time and think twice b4 i act. now, sort of decided. i will go for the lower-tech one. i am not a high tech person, so maybe it's easier for me to buy a nice looking, with less function mobile.

concerning working, everything was going fine. though everything seems troublesome, spent so much time in doing something real stupid, trivial and tedious........i am not a detail-minded person, always overlook something which turns up rather important (in other ppl sense). i am that sort of person, still couldnt realise anything wrong, even it was wrong, i didnt dare looking at it. the reason was i didnt think that's important in the first place, even it was wrong, what's the matter? (i think i realise it, but dare not putting a tiny bit of effort to do something about it). while ppl think that's the end of the world, i was like : hum..... it wont do much harm, will it? that's probably, w/o a sense of crisis. the world is perfect, everything is fine, although it's not, but it will soon ok, it will fix itself, maybe.

zealous

zealous......... nvm seen this word b4 i work in this field. 

 'zeal': a feeling of strong eagerness

 the pronociation  of zeal coincides with the chinese word '燒'.

 燒': 燃燒, 發熱, 發光

exploring

'the case has already investigating by ......' what's the problem of the sentence? my boss asked.

oh....... it should be 'the case has already investigatED' by.......' i was wondering perhaps i wanna say 'the case has been investigating by '........ he, the boss, who pushes me to be quick and give all answers, he, questions everything sort of person. i tried to figure out an approach to deal with him these days. he wasnt too bad afterall, he is experienced and have to admit that his writing is clear and precise. i wonder, those are the parts i can learn from him...... and of course, forget those troublesome character. not many ppl willing to help him in the end. i dont feel like helping him but if he asked, i may help him, that's a job anyway.

just start realising there are so much waiting me to learn. have been real lazy for the last 2 months, and didnt learn anything apart from those that require me to function at work.

after reading some more news and of course, start wondering what's happening in hk and also the world. it seems that i am sort of isolated from the outside these days. i was living in my own world, having fun, spend money and live my own life w/o exploring the world. should have some change and i need a change.