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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 02:58:45 GMT

wow I just found this after almost a year, man. now I'm one Livejournal at Chenresig if you want to read me

peace out homie G

Thursday, February 19, 2004

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 23:32:53 GMT

sooo
to heck with people who dont appreciate me right?
easier said than done...
della was wicked awesome about it (the boy situation):

he should and if he doesnt then hes a fool for missing out on a great friend (and possibly more) like you

and she told me I should move on to someone more deserving of me if he doesnt wise up
heh
wicked sweet.
I'm just ready for change...in that respect of my life...and I'm having trouble finding it.
ah well
we'll see what saturday brings...
I hope tyler's alright...he better get better..

Monday, February 09, 2004

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 01:56:16 GMT

You're Mexico!
While some people think you're poor and maybe a little corrupt, you know where it's at, enjoying good food and nice beaches. You like to take things a little slower than those around you, and you really wish the air were cleaner, but sometimes compromises must be made. For some reason, Chevrolet keeps trying to sell you Novas as well, even though they don't really go.

take the country quiz at http://bluepyramid.org/ia/cquiz.htm

personally, I'm going to take it again, I'll let you know what happens

Monday, February 09, 2004

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 01:47:05 GMT

sooo...

there's this boy... :)
i dont know him well at all. I just see him maybe twice a week at most. but, he's adorable. and from what I hear a nice guy. I also believe he's freshman. and even though I tried to care.... i just couldnt. I dont care what age he is.
I talked to jackie about it. I just want a companion. Someone who i can do stuff with. chill. talk..other...stuff...ahem.
I just miss that sort of closeness. and I'm not looking for like a husband or anyhthing...just, something fun.
I had a broad range of possibilities for a while....but now, it's getting narrowed down.
I want to get out of Hiram. Meet people I can be with. not too long...not too long...
help?
signing off...

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 21:28:05 GMT

I know its been a freakin long time since I've written, but that just reflects what I've been going through here...

NOTHING

I'm sick of there being nothing....I cant WAIT to get out of Hiram. I'm going to miss my friends like crazy, but i'm just going nuts here...
I feel like none of my classes are acomplishing ANYTHING

i'm sick of school, hiram, people, stuff....
I'm going to be a hermit.
I want to go to california!
bah.
Maybe I can take a year off, then apply for grad school?
I'm just not ready for more schooling like that...
Well, that's in the future.
quote of the evening: "but it looks like she's figuring out that walking backwards has a lot less hangups when you wear a lampshade"
words of wisdom courtesy of sean
Anyone have any advice on what I can do?
I'm fishing for ANYTHING
that's the word of the night...
well...
Signing off....

Sunday, January 25, 2004

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 01:48:54 GMT

second best quote of the evening:
MAPmotorbreath: if i didnt drink religiously, i would have to drink more

Sunday, January 25, 2004

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 01:42:00 GMT

Quote of the Evening:

LostInTheWoods05: she's not an analyst, she's OCD
thanks lisa...

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 17:26:02 GMT

so
it sure has been a while
There isnt really much to say...
My classes are: Asian Religions, Modern Jewish History and Yiddish Drama...good classes.
things are pretty much back to being normal. Taco Bell runs, staying up late watching movies, chatting, being sick of Hiram...
Well, what else is new.
The vermont trip was cancelled, so I'm extreemly bummed about that. It was my final year to go, and the guy that's the president of the club is the most inept person ever. He waited too long, and screwed us all over. He messed up the other trip he had to plan too, and that was cancelled as well.
I guess I'll go skiing this weekend on my own...
I got a new sword, its a persian scimitar. It's awesome.
on ebay...it's my first.
I really just want to get out of here...i feel suffocated again. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything. I need to move forward, and I'm not doing that right now...
I dont know what I want. I'm very confused, and I wish there was something I could do about it, someone I could talk to....but there isnt anyone. It sucks.

I'll write more when there's actually something to write.
Signing off.

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 02:49:58 GMT

ya know, I just realized how few real guys there are in my aquaintence.
I know many many guys that will ditch anything to do something with a girl.
If they can hook up with one, they leave everything else behind to do it. If they have a girlfriend, they ditch friends to be with her. So many guys I know I dont hear from when they're with someone, and then once they're single again, suddenly I get emails and phone calls...then they hook up with a girl, and I get ditched again.
Why?
Is there something I missed?
Oh wait, i forgot, they're assholes. heh, silly me.
but....then there's the good eggs...like mark!
Mark always seems to bring me out of a funk! hehe, our convos are fun, esp when he admits to being egg like...

Mark: i'll still give you a big hug in spirit
Mark: HUG
Mark: see, a big hug
me: aww
me: thanks friend
me: you're a good egg
Mark: thats me
Mark: its what i do
me: be egg like?
Mark: well, i was thinking more to the point of being a nice guy
Mark: but i guess i do have a certain likeness to eggs....
me: lol
me: you do?
Mark: well, i am round....
me: uh...and filled with the unfertilized egg of a chicken?
MAPmotorbreath: no, not currently

lol, now that's a convo I live for. Unfortunately, he's not a fan of kung pow...not the food, the movie.
It's is totally a classic!
Oh well, maybe if I bug him enough....heh
AND coheed and cambria is so freakin awesome!!! they thanked ash and the army of darkness in their credits!!!
AHHHH!!! thats how i feel about that!
Ok...signing off for real now.

ta.

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 00:09:51 GMT

SO! Nathan finally got back to me! He told me who I need to get in contact with, but from the sound of his email, it doesnt sound like I'm gonna find anything with the afsc. I will find something before graduation! I am so freakin scared of getting stuck here! I wont! I refuse to! I would really love to get a job abroad for a while. Maybe not forever, but I'd like to find something. Maybe for a year or so. I should look in to that. And I'm going to send letters and resumes to just about everywhere I can think of. If I dont find anything I'll prolly go into the peace corps or americorp like I was thinking of. I just wish I had some plan. Some idea of what I want to do.
On a happier note, I'm really freakin excited to go to Bhutan! I looked up info on it last night, and man does it sound awesome! I am so lucky that I have the chance to go. They only allow about 5000 people in their country a year. amazing.
I hope tom gets back to me about tomorrow night. He mentioned a party...but I havent heard from him :\
I cant wait to find my own place. The place where I belong...where I can fit in and be myself...have fun the way I want to!
Oh well. Maybe someday right? Hopefully...
I'm gonna sign off for now...