God, where are you?

It's not that I don't believe God's there, but I don't feel like I know what His plan is for me right now.

I was going to interview at a job and it would pay way better but I cancelled.  I don't know where I'm to go.  I just have to trust

Him I guess?

I want to do stuff in ministry, I don't know what that looks like.  Or where to start looking.

Yeah a lot of questions.

I'm gonna go now and stop asking question and take a hike/do photography.  Fall is always a lovely time for this

love ya friends

Alicia

Rest for the Weary

Today I called off work.

I need rest.  My ribs hurt something fierce and I'm just gonna rest and see my doc lata.

It's nice to not to have to run off somewhere. I'm finally gonna catch up on some of the new teachings I've received from friends at church on subjects of healing and anxiety, and also Hearing from the Lord.

I'm also just gonna soak, literally and spiritually.  Make use of some soothing bath salts, and some good soaking music.

Yeah, this is needed.  Especially because tomorrow it's back to the grind of things, working from 5am-5:30pm.  Uggg!!!  I don't do early and don't do 12 hr days well.

That will change as I've a new job offer, but I gotta meet with the person this week.  Praying I can get the hours I need.  But it will put me in the midst of coffee shop ministry. 

This weekend I will play keyboard with our worship team for the first time, a lil nervous.  And Friday at the Wave *our church Friday worship once a month* I will probably sing with the choir.  I prefer the singing over the playing believe it or not.  Maybe became  most people look at me as mainly a piano/keyboard player?

Anywho, I'm outtie, time to relax

love ya friends

This is your life, are you who you wanna be?

My life keeps changing, I keep changing.  It's been good, yet challenging.

I need a new job, I don't know where to start with that though?

I am blessed, God keeps opening doors of worship.  Seems all the messages I hear too revolve around that and Praise!  It's good stuff really.

Tonight we are doing worship at our house in Madison.  I'm nervous, there were many people last time and now there will be even more, from youth to worship leaders.  Wowsers!!!  The main intention tonight though is to pray for our nation and those who are still mourning losses from 9-11. 

Outside of worship God is giving me more of a heart for youth, so I'm beginning to mentor/disciple some.  Please pray that I do a good job of that and loving them as well.  I know when I was a teen I would've given anything to have a mentor, especially with the stuff I was going through.  So I hope to help them out. 

I'll keep this short and sweet, God Bless

Alicia

Higher Calling

I still don't know why I bother with the internet, when I actually have a second to be on here, I'd rather obtain info than communicate much.  I do want to reconnect with people via phone or whatever... it takes time though. 

I have been blessed with many new friendships at my new church and I thank God for what He is doing.

I know I have a higher calling on my life concerning music ministry, so much prayer is going into that.  Possibilities of going to Forerunner Music Academy, but that's just a thought, it needs backed up with prayer.

I have a new hunger for the Word of God, but not surface level, I want to get to the root, I want to learn the Greek and the meaning with in the Words. 

I know if I'm to write music inspired by the Lord it helps to have a clear understanding of His Word. 

I wish I could explain all that has been going on, but maybe sometimes you lack the wording to capture it all ?

It can't be captured by cliches like "the best time of my life" or a "rollercoaster", it is just something deeper.

Skimming the surface I can simply say change is here, and I am ready for it. 

Love you friends

R.I.P Gramps 8.10.07

My Birthday was less celebration and more tears than anything, because my grandpa passed away early in the morning.  He lived a good life, and I'm glad he's no longer suffering the effects of cancer and COPD, but it's hard to see how my gram is doing, and just plain difficult I guess.

In all this I've ended up sick with the flu, and got my first speeding ticket *I really didn't notice the change in speed*.  So yeah, what a weekend!  Im' still hoping for my lungs to cease the burning and whatnot.

In happier notes though Leah took me to the Lion King Musical for my bday on the 9th.  It was amazing!

On my actual birthday in the evening we went to the International House of Prayer in Meadville PA.  God taught me much about prophetic praise and worship there, if you want to know more just ask.  It takes some explanation.

I'm in a valley, but praise the Lord seems all the recent messages I've heard preached or taught on revolve around that.  So I'm gaining strength and comfort there.  I have been going to church revival meetings locally and watching the power of the Lord invade Northeastern Ohio like wildfire.  It's good stuff really.

God gave me a message to share with my sorority, so I plan on visiting Muskingum soon to share that.

I need a heart check, roomie where are ya for those?, lol.  The Lord has put a guy friend in my path that has this amazing heart for worship, a desire to be a minister, etc and loves the outdoors... yeah definitely what I'd like in a husband, lol. 

We are going hiking on a mountain in PA next weekend with my good friend Jessie.  Why you ask?  So we can be in God's lovely creation AND so we can worship on top of the mountain.  SWEET!  I'm looking forward to that for sure.  We'll see if it exceeds the worship time I spent on a waterfall.  God is good... even when circumstances look ugly.

I'm waiting for my creative miracle from the Lord for total healing in my body.

Well I'm headin on out, that's my random update.  Thanks for Bday wishes friends.  Please keep prayin.  God Bless you all.

Alicia

PS. If any of you want to get ahold of me, please call me.  It's the best way.