| Hello 2006. I really hope it's going to be a good year. It needs to make up for 2005. I wouldn't say 2005 was the worst year of my life, but it definitely wasn't the greatest. Too much happened that I wish I could make go away but I can't. But now I leave you with this (I really hope someone reads all of this)...
[Edited: Jan. 1, 2006]
I thought hard about my resolution. I didn't want to have one, because I never could do it, but I changed my mind. It's simply to be happy this year. Here's the thing, there's certain things that need to happen to make my resolution complete. I guess I'm totally kidding myself with some of these, but it doesn't hurt to have some hope. Anyway, the first thing is to say goodbye to the single life. My last relationship (dare I even call it one) ended a little over a year ago. Yes, I enjoyed not having the troubles of a boyfriend, but it's getting old. But, there's a problem with that. I'm kind of... Stubborn (if you will, though I wouldn't call it that) and will only go out with that one special boy (ps; there is actually one). No one other. For example, some really amazing boy asked me out, I would say no (most likely) because it's not him. Pretty pathetic, right? You guessed it, this is one of those impossible things that I was talking about earlier. Now, there's the second part of my resolution. I need to stop being so negative about things. You see, negativity gets a person nowhere. And being so negative all of the time, well... That is kind of the opposite of being happy (the reason of this whole thing). I've been told I was too negative before, but I didn't believe them. No I gained some intelligence and noticed that they were right. Oh. On to the third part. I'm so stubborn (we already accomplished that). People tell me that also. The worst part is, I seem to take pride in that. Horrible, I know. The fourth part is to be nicer to people. I'm pretty much a cold person and I'm always in the worst of moods. Maybe this is way I'm in constant fights with my friends and family. Fights with people= Well you know, unhappiness. Now that one, is going to be the challenge. I've tried to change, oh have I tried. But this year, it's all going to change. Now, with all of that said, I have a lot to work on. I believe I can do it. Well, most of it. I'm making it easier by connecting them all. First off, I'm going to lose all of my negative thoughts and gain some self-esteem. So maybe then instead of wasting my time doubting my chances with the poor kid, I can maybe spend my time annoying the hell out of him until he says yes (but only not... I couldn't think of any other way to put it). Then, maybe a boyfriend would cheer me up... And I wouldn't act like a had a cup of bitchy in the morning (or maybe not. But you never know). And then, the stubborn part, well, I can work on that by itself. Oh yeah, and how can I forgot the most important thing of them all... Finally finding a gift for Karen's really, really late birthday/Christmas present. Because we all know she is darn special.
So there you have it folks, my New Year's resolution. Now suck on it.
[Edited: Jan. 8, 2006]
ADD MY NEW XANGA. http://www.xanga.com/liebut___never. Sorry about moving agian, but I feel I had to.
ANDDDDDDD...
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