Hey guys, its been a while I know but heres one huge update its long but bare with me its worth it.

2005

I have to say 2005 has been an amazing year but now it its time to say goodbye to 2005 and hello to 2006. For me 2005 was a year of finding myself, sort of an exploration of the inner me. I found out where I am, where I want to be and pretty much where I’m going. I conquered many of my inhibitions, healed reopened wounds, and mended many relationships. I have rid my life with many negatives and gained many positive relationships. In 2005 I tied up the loose ends that started the process of the changing me and learned soo much. It was a year of learning and embracing for me. I think I learned more about life through experiences and relationships about life in the last three years than I have in all my life and I have learned more about thinks in life in 2005 than in any grade since elementary school. 2005 was definitely the rocky road year I’ve had highs and lows possibly as low as I have ever been.  Some of the highlights include the events leading up to the Boston trip, a whole bunch of sweet sixteen’s, some vacations, gaining some new friends and keeping some old, and fixing relationships internally and externally. My social and mental develp[ment along with my electives led me to a new philosophy towards life. The quote summing up 2005 is

Mary J. Blidge

Lets pay respect to he ones we lost in 2005 and use it as a way to push us towards the future instead of setting us back. Especially Luther Vandross as we should follow his teachings and act as if “This world was mine” I light a candle for them and lets move on to 2006.

2006

Lets see 2006 shall be the year of making changes for me. At first I wanted to move out for the new years but now I don’t care. People continue to bother me and get on my nerves and then I realized that’s not exactly the answer. I figured since I couldn’t move out, it was time to bring the outside or the apartment to my house. I realized what was in my circle of control and what wasn’t. I want to build a peaceful resort to get away from theses crazy psychos in here. You surround yourself with all of one type eventually you become one of them so I need something to call my own. So I want to make my room feel like a home. I have overly optimistic goals for 2006 but my new policy is “The only goal unconquerable is the goal unthought-of”

All before I was thinking about other people no matter how disguised it may seem I have jumped through hoops for other people in my life and I feel as if it’s my time now.

As you all know me I have a lot of clothes but if you have ever been in my room you will realized that I have very little storage. In my closet so that’s the starting point. It’s the reign of my new policies. Don’t do nothing for me if you want me to do something or wanna touch or move or alter my life or stuff tell me if im not here put a post it on it telling me what you want don’t enter my space without permission. It crazy to wannna give a care when you feel like it.

So lets see I wanna start my little private resort with my closet.

Similar to this one but in a different tone and possibly with custom configurations.  I fell in love with the color of the wood around the window treatments. But I really need space for my shoes and clothes, its a pain putting stuff in others space or having them in a bag just thrown around. This should set me back about $300 or so. More than anything to set the mood in my room I want french doors similar to these

But I want it again in the color of the wood around the window treatment. and instead of the grid in black I want mine in silver or gold with frosted glass in the window. If anyone has been in my room you would realize that my closet isn't that big so its a bit of a construction project, I'll have to knock out a little wall. I expect the doors to cost about 200 but its worth it. In my room the whole side near the closet is bare so to spice it up a little I want to put something in the corner. I thought for a while to figure out what and then as I was going through the temperature issues in this house w/ the up and down with the heat I figured out what I wanted  Its a gel burning fireplace so I'll be needing some  God forbid I shall run up any bills in this house another way or start a fire together this should cost about $300 maybe $350 with the gel.

I had the tv in my room since I was about 6 or so and I brought it for myself then so I figure I should get a new tv. I would love to have a plasma but I'm being realistic and I know I can't afford it at all so I want just a regular 32" which should cost about $350, I really wanted a 36" but I haven't seen one affordably priced. I want to cut out an inset in the wall to hold the tv to give the illusion that this is a flat screen it should cost about 100 and then I know yall got on my a while ago for being "selfish" when I got my sister an entertainment center so I need one of my own now to complete my space, it should cost no more than$250 so these are pretty much want I'm thinking of getting

I was thinking over the tv mounted on the ceiling I would put a light in order to dim and reflect light with my mood maybe something with colored lights that I can change like this  $30

My room is blan you wouldn't think it by my personality but all it has in it is s bed and an entertainment center. So I want some shelves for storage to add a little character to my rooms similar to these

I initially wanted the real light color wood in my room but I fell in love with the wood on the thing with the window treatment.  I also want some crown moldings but I wouldn't be totally disappointed if I couldn't get it.  As We move about the room to the other corner which has two windows I want to get some window treatments like this

And I want that color wood throughout my room because I loooovvvve it.

 I want the haamper to match the bamboo in the window treatment/

Since I won't have curtains the area beneath will be empty and I want cut and insert out building a cube going inwards in the wall not large just taking up the corner below the window and I want to make it my musician corner. AS you all know I love music I want to put a drumset like this  for about 400 which must be silver to work with the other silver accents or possibly gold since the handle on the closet door and the grid might be gold. In the insert instead of plain wall I will put tiles of inspirational leaders and musicians that I can always go and look at when I need inspiration. In front of the drum set I will have my instruments and alto, a tenor and a soprano sax definently on their stands. I have a soprano but I want a YSS-475 which is almost 2 gs the only thing I want anyone to help me get, the tenor is like 800 i can manage and I  know 2 people with altos they don't use so I can convince them to give it away. 

My baby my horn the YSS_475

As for my room I need a new comforter preferable burgandy and tan this one is cool but not my favorite at all. And a new bedframe for the bed I brought last year or so to match the wood in the rest of the room like the window treatment. TO me these are basics of the room. I want people to come over and I know they need chairs of some sort but I haven't figured that out. I want too splurges for myself

A JLO watch and a video ipod 300 and about another 100 but these are my gifts to myself for the new year.

Lets go outside. Anyone who knew me for a while would know that I love to be outside and  I love my patio. It sued to be better but some dump people jack things up leaving the cooler out of the store house, parking a car in the grass, leaving the cushioned chairs out in the rain, smoking in the gazebo bringing a whole through it amongst other idiotic things so I want to move the store house to enlarge the patio and add these

as you know its decent now but I want it to be a place where I can chill with my friends on a regular like before. Anyone who has been  there knows its a cool place and they never want to leave so this is coming soon Summer 2006.

This is my major goal for the year but I also want to learn to play Kenny G songbird perfectly which is hard because I can't even finger all the notes perfectly but I'll have it. I also want to get at least an 1850 on my sat which is possible based on my PSAT scores. I want to before the end of the year decided exactly what college I want to go to and what I want to major in. I also want to have a steady job making some decent money to help out .

AS a poet I am going to reveal  my name now I shall be known as

 Safia Chuioke Sanjo

Meaning pure or wise talented one who appreciates her past

I will be posting a poem at least once a week from now on as a way of ensuring the development of my talents.

 I got a new look sort of with the hair and the changing look will continue for 2006. There will be a lot of camisoles and button downs, half shirt thingies, diesels, nine west, constantly changing hair, possibly designer glasses amongst other things so keep your eyes pealed.

Lets set the mood for 2006 heres some quotes:

Life's a journey, not a destination, and I just can't tell what tomorrow brings. ... ---Sean Combs (Aka: Puff Daddy

"Sometimes by losing a battle you find a new way to win the war."  Donald Trump

"If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous, he will not bite you. This is the principal difference between a dog and a man." "The fact that man knows right from wrong proves his intellectual superiority to other creatures; but the fact that he can do wrong proves his moral inferiority to any creature that cannot."
Mark Twain

Life is not a game, Only the fittest and most aggressive will survive. Sleeping is forbidden. A second cannot be wasted. Once seconds are lost, you lose. And losing is for losers."