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Name: Xiao Mei
Country: United States
State: New York
Gender: Female
Interests: Being modey, asking questions, pretending, exploring, being cynical, being pessimestic, trying to be secretly optimistic, creating, using my hands, overwhelming myself, thinking excessively, deep sleeping, dreaming, being in the sun, changing into clean clothes, listening to my music playlists, shopping for things I can't afford, spending without a budget, arguing with my parents, being modest, traveling, getting lost, organizing, spending time alone, eating with friends, dancing in my room, trying to cook, cooking for others, planning, admiring people, getting the tingly feeling, drinking cold drinks, talking a lot, learning from others, being inspired, finding coincidences, singing, hoping, laughing, smiling...
Expertise: Complaining about stomach pains!
Occupation: Never being prepared.
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Member Since:
1/18/2003
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| Sometimes I feel like I'm getting too old for things. Sweet stuff is already making my teeth cringe. So...lately I have realized that I have being overly-concerned and overly-caring about things will just end up making me feel frustrated. I have been frustrated a lot lately and I don't need to stress myself out over things that will make me feel taken advantage of or unappreciated. Sadly to say, I really have to change my approach to things. I guess this mean I have to grow up and stop dwelling and start acting. Lately, I have trying really hard to get myself onto a healthier schedule and maybe I'll start to see my priorities in life. I was telling Lon last night....does anyone notice how in reality tv shows with competitions, there is alway some sleazy, ruthless, do anything to win contestant that manages to make it to the top 3??? Why is that? Somehow this tells the world that being sleazy will always get you to the top, however fortunately for everyone, the sleazy never wins. Usually the intelligent contestant that knows how to outbeat the sleazy ends up winning. So this means...in order to win and succeed you have to be sleazy and be willing to do anything to make it up to the top. And once you are at the top, you'll know how sleazy works and you'll just have to knock down any other sleazies out by being smart. Sad isn't it? The world is not ready for a honest, considerate, and caring person. Freaken bs.... | | |
| I wonder if anyone has had the experience of pulling out boxes of old clothes and finding that most of the clothes that you put in there about 3 years ago really does belong there. Then, you realize that there is one or two items in there that makes you begin to think that you might be able to wear again because it wasn't in style 3 years ago, but it totally rockable right now! Those tight leg pants and 70s vintage skirts that my mom try to force on me when I was younger are finally coming back. This time, my mother doesn't have to do any convincing cus I'll actually want to wear them. 
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| What you are meant forWell I think I'll start out with this crappy xanga site until I find out how to make my own site with a discussion forum.
I have been thinking for the past couple of weeks about life and what I want to do with my life. Thinking about coincidences, about fate, about choices, about decisions. I wonder if what we ultimately make as a career or do in life is really a matter of our personal choice. Interesting enough (or obviously enough), I feel like a great part of what we want to do in our life is affected by what our parents do for a living. Seriously.
I mean you hear of all these stories about how you have the surgeon fathers, the pediatrician mothers, and then the soon-to-be doctor sons. Or the musician fathers, the craftmaker mothers, and the wannabe artist daughters. You know what I mean. I wonder how much of what your parents do really affect what you decide to do.
Personally, I grew up in a family with trade/craft skills. My dad cooked and my mother sewed clothes for a living. Somehow I feel like a big part of why I don't want to be that lawyer or doctor as my parents hope for is because I am so ingrained into the craft-oriented mindset that I grew up learning from my own parents. I always imagined myself doing all the crafty things, like cooking, designing my own clothes, creating my own art. No matter what I try outside of this creative-skills range, I don't feel very happy doing it. I realized that my mind has been set to do something similar to what my parents has done. I'm not saying that this is a conscious choice but I have realized the relationship and it is something that I can't seem to ignore. Maybe its my genes or something.
I wonder if any of you have thought about the relationship between what your parents do and what you want to do.
I wonder if your parents have this strong of an effect on you as mine has on me. | | |
| LiftingI'm going to quit pessimism and force myself to keep smiling and laughing because it straightens my head and warms my heart. It's tough, but I'll have to remind myself.
Hey, I'm thinking of turning my xanga into a discussion forum. But I'm not sure if anyone still uses this site. It'll be interesting if I'll just post about random issues and see what other people have to say about them. I don't just mean just short comments, but actually have thoughtful opinions and shared experiences.
I'm tired of writing about all the useless bs in my life because I feel like its way to melodramatic sometimes and I need to get over myself. Instead, I would much rather hear about "your favorite movies", "how you feel about seasons changing", "what cellphone providers you use", "where you go for lunch", "who you are voting this november", "whether or not you think New York city is the best city in the world" or even "how much you hate the Bush administration (if you are into politics)....you know the everyday, common things that can be shared. I miss being in college and hearing opinions of students.
I wonder if anyone reading this will be interested. Well...post a comment if are actually reading this post. Say....."YUMMY GUMMY" just to tell me you're listening. 
If this doesn't work out, I'll think of another idea.
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| Birthday songsYou know looking back now, I had many obsessions over the years. Some of them being very hard to let go of. But whenever I have a music obsession, I've always loved it! I decided to make a list of all the music obsessions that I remember having over the years around the time of my birthday...so basically all my "birthday music albums" as I like to call them. I don't exactly know why I'm doing this, but somehow I guess its necessary for me to see what I've listen to in the past to see all the different phases I've been through in my youth because I'm feeling old already. Oddly enough, I think music has changed the way I wanted to see the world. I want to be able to have a record of who I was and what I was into. So here goes... 18th: Hmm...I guess that would be...gosh so long ago...Dido's first cd. Yeah I was such a sentimentalist back then. 
19th: Ahaa...I really don't remember. Oh wait. It was....Esthero's cd and oh and that car commercial song by Dirty Vegas.  
20th: For some reason I remember track 11 on an album, but don't remember the album. But I assume it was Angelina's Tommy Guerrero cd or I'll pretend it was until I remember. It could have been Muse's 3rd album or The Album Leaf.    21th: Oh last year...hahaa..I was playing all sorts of things at my party, but I have to say it was Franz Ferdinand's second album and Sigur Ros's newest album.  
22th: Even though its not my birthday yet, I completely satisfied my music obsession by FINALLY going to a show featuring one of my past obsessions! Sondre Lerche! I found him randomly sophomore year of college while I was browsing music online and I was pretty in love. He is one of the best young guitar players and he lives up to being a romantic song writer! I can't believe I saw him live tonight. So funny and adorable! It's the best birthday present ever. And thanks Lon for coming with me! Not to mention great photos with him! 
 Yeah lon had to bunny Sondre! Aiya...
From all of this I've learned...One...I want to have more music obsessions...hahaa. Two...I just realized that I create too many lists in my blogs. Three...I can never keep anything short. And why should I. I enjoy every minute of it. Four........I will always be "Forever 21" <- hahaa. (by heart that is.) Five........being 21 is totally not overrated. This is my favorite age to be so far. I just hope it gets even better. | | |
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