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Sunday, January 28, 2007

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 01:52:51 GMT

Sometimes I feel like I'm getting too old for things. Sweet stuff is already making my teeth cringe.

So...lately I have realized that I have being overly-concerned and overly-caring about things will just end up making me feel frustrated. I have been frustrated a lot lately and I don't need to stress myself out over things that will make me feel taken advantage of or unappreciated. Sadly to say, I really have to change my approach to things. I guess this mean I have to grow up and stop dwelling and start acting. Lately, I have trying really hard to get myself onto a healthier schedule and maybe I'll start to see my priorities in life.

I was telling Lon last night....does anyone notice how in reality tv shows with competitions, there is alway some sleazy, ruthless, do anything to win contestant that manages to make it to the top 3??? Why is that? Somehow this tells the world that being sleazy will always get you to the top, however fortunately for everyone, the sleazy never wins. Usually the intelligent contestant that knows how to outbeat the sleazy ends up winning. So this means...in order to win and succeed you have to be sleazy and be willing to do anything to make it up to the top. And once you are at the top, you'll know how sleazy works and you'll just have to knock down any other sleazies out by being smart.

Sad isn't it? The world is not ready for a honest, considerate, and caring person. Freaken bs....

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 03:21:13 GMT

I wonder if anyone has had the experience of pulling out boxes of old clothes and finding that most of the clothes that you put in there about 3 years ago really does belong there. Then, you realize that there is one or two items in there that makes you begin to think that you might be able to wear again because it wasn't in style 3 years ago, but it totally rockable right now! Those tight leg pants and 70s vintage skirts that my mom try to force on me when I was younger are finally coming back. This time, my mother doesn't have to do any convincing cus I'll actually want to wear them.

What you are meant for

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 16:04:32 GMT

Well I think I'll start out with this crappy xanga site until I find out how to make my own site with a discussion forum.

I have been thinking for the past couple of weeks about life and what I want to do with my life. Thinking about coincidences, about fate, about choices, about decisions. I wonder if what we ultimately make as a career or do in life is really a matter of our personal choice. Interesting enough (or obviously enough), I feel like a great part of what we want to do in our life is affected by what our parents do for a living. Seriously.

I mean you hear of all these stories about how you have the surgeon fathers, the pediatrician mothers, and then the soon-to-be doctor sons. Or the musician fathers, the craftmaker mothers, and the wannabe artist daughters. You know what I mean. I wonder how much of what your parents do really affect what you decide to do.

Personally, I grew up in a family with trade/craft skills. My dad cooked and my mother sewed clothes for a living. Somehow I feel like a big part of why I don't want to be that lawyer or doctor as my parents hope for is because I am so ingrained into the craft-oriented mindset that I grew up learning from my own parents. I always imagined myself doing all the crafty things, like cooking, designing my own clothes, creating my own art. No matter what I try outside of this creative-skills range, I don't feel very happy doing it. I realized that my mind has been set to do something similar to what my parents has done. I'm not saying that this is a conscious choice but I have realized the relationship and it is something that I can't seem to ignore. Maybe its my genes or something.

I wonder if any of you have thought about the relationship between what your parents do and what you want to do.
I wonder if your parents have this strong of an effect on you as mine has on me.

Lifting

Sat, 07 Oct 2006 03:48:13 GMT

I'm going to quit pessimism and force myself to keep smiling and laughing because it straightens my head and warms my heart. It's tough, but I'll have to remind myself.

Hey, I'm thinking of turning my xanga into a discussion forum. But I'm not sure if anyone still uses this site. It'll be interesting if I'll just post about random issues and see what other people have to say about them. I don't just mean just short comments, but actually have thoughtful opinions and shared experiences.

I'm tired of writing about all the useless bs in my life because I feel like its way to melodramatic sometimes and I need to get over myself. Instead, I would much rather hear about "your favorite movies", "how you feel about seasons changing", "what cellphone providers you use", "where you go for lunch", "who you are voting this november", "whether or not you think New York city is the best city in the world" or even "how much you hate the Bush administration (if you are into politics)....you know the everyday, common things that can be shared. I miss being in college and hearing opinions of students.

I wonder if anyone reading this will be interested. Well...post a comment if are actually reading this post. Say....."YUMMY GUMMY" just to tell me you're listening.

If this doesn't work out, I'll think of another idea.

Birthday songs

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 07:03:29 GMT

You know looking back now, I had many obsessions over the years. Some of them being very hard to let go of. But whenever I have a music obsession, I've always loved it!

I decided to make a list of all the music obsessions that I remember having over the years around the time of my birthday...so basically all my "birthday music albums" as I like to call them. I don't exactly know why I'm doing this, but somehow I guess its necessary for me to see what I've listen to in the past to see all the different phases I've been through in my youth because I'm feeling old already. Oddly enough, I think music has changed the way I wanted to see the world. I want to be able to have a record of who I was and what I was into. So here goes...

18th: Hmm...I guess that would be...gosh so long ago...Dido's first cd. Yeah I was such a sentimentalist back then.

19th: Ahaa...I really don't remember. Oh wait. It was....Esthero's cd and oh and that car commercial song by Dirty Vegas.

20th: For some reason I remember track 11 on an album, but don't remember the album. But I assume it was Angelina's Tommy Guerrero cd or I'll pretend it was until I remember. It could have been Muse's 3rd album or The Album Leaf.

21th: Oh last year...hahaa..I was playing all sorts of things at my party, but I have to say it was Franz Ferdinand's second album and Sigur Ros's newest album.

22th: Even though its not my birthday yet, I completely satisfied my music obsession by FINALLY going to a show featuring one of my past obsessions! Sondre Lerche!

I found him randomly sophomore year of college while I was browsing music online and I was pretty in love. He is one of the best young guitar players and he lives up to being a romantic song writer! I can't believe I saw him live tonight. So funny and adorable! It's the best birthday present ever. And thanks Lon for coming with me! Not to mention great photos with him!

Yeah lon had to bunny Sondre! Aiya...

From all of this I've learned...One...I want to have more music obsessions...hahaa.

Two...I just realized that I create too many lists in my blogs.

Three...I can never keep anything short. And why should I. I enjoy every minute of it.

Four........I will always be "Forever 21" <- hahaa. (by heart that is.)

Five........being 21 is totally not overrated. This is my favorite age to be so far. I just hope it gets even better.

Lessons of Life

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 05:10:26 GMT

I don't think I'll ever learn how to be an optimistic person...but I think that it really pays off to be a pessimist and a cynic. I'm so sick of the reality of lies, pretention, and stupidity! These things just contradict the things we try to live for....aka love, happiness, and hope (if they even exist).

Gosh, it worries me how ignorant some people are. I know I'm a college graduate and all...I'm not saying I'm better or smarter than anyone, but there are some things that most people...or things that I assume most people should know. These are a couple of lessons in life that I would strongly advocate for...being that I'm pessimistic and cynical!

1) Even if you are not capable of doing something, don't act like you are stupid, dumb, or pitiful! You will be easily targeted!

2) If you don't know something, ask questions or go find out for yourself! Do some research!

3) If you are an impatient or impulsive person, take an extra second to rethink things before acting!

4) If you need help, don't be afraid to ask for it! But then, don't ever think that you can get help without a price! Be prepared to pay the price because everything comes with a price.

5) No matter where you are in this world there will always be bad occurrences, so NEVER EVER TRUST ANYONE 100%! When you are not careful, you will get screwed over! YOU WILL BE FLAMING AND CRYING YOUR ASS OFF!

6) Ultimately, nobody can really help you but yourself!

Ok...there is going to be sun this week, so maybe it will overcome this overcast of grayness that I've been experiencing!

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 03:00:58 GMT

oh...gosh...I'm feeling so sentimental these days...my world (well the world I knew as a kid) is changing...

I found this article from last year...but its still relevant: http://villagevoice.com/nyclife/0509,bpress,61613,15.html

I kind of wish I was a teenager during the 80's...and see this all happen...all that graffiti and that grungy dirt. But then again, I guess I would be also messed up. Hhaaa.

This is a pretty cool site that Angie sent to me like 4 months again but I didn't get a chance to appreciate it until now...check it out: http://www.forgotten-ny.com

Reminisce on all that old school stuff!

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 03:19:02 GMT

Haven't written a self-reflective entry in a while. So...I have realized recently that...

I feel like a brat. Whenever I'm not in NYC, I talk about how great NYC is. I defended my city by heart. But when I'm back here, I hate the everything again. I guess I'm never happy where I end up. That is why I can't settle. I'm always looking for the next thing before I accomplish the things that came before. I have yet to live the fabulous NYC life and I just can't wait to move elsewhere. I don't know whats wrong with me. I need to settle. I need to fulfill and be self-sufficient in something before moving onto all these other things. That is why I'm always in a mess. I'm always a mess.

Everything is starting to annoy me these days, nothing is interesting enough for me. I pretend like I am too good for the world. I pass off everything like "I've been there and done that" even though I have no idea what anything is really like. Yeah, basically I've become a snob. I think it might be a European thing....I might I have picked it up in Europe. I don't know. I'm forgetting about the wonderful things that I use to find interest in. I have yet to appreciate all the simplier things in life.

I guess I'm just denying this new stage of life called "growing up". Gosh...I see all these people up in my neighborhood strolling down the street with their drunk ass in the middle of the night, singing and tripping all over the place. These are freaken working adults acting up. I don't know if this is what it means to be "grown up". My neighborhood somehow resembles college these days. Fun. The month I graduated, I wonder how I will survive without the sweet college life, but I guess I'm in luck. College life is just around the corner.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 03:27:50 GMT

Tagged by Sandi: I'm so out of the xanga loop that it took me a while to understand this tagging business...but I guess I've been TAGGED? Hehee. Ok so I must do this now.

"Once you are tagged you MUST write an entry about 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names."

#1 Weird-Habit Prone: If you know me...or if you really know me I would have to say that this weird habit listing is not really that rare for me because I usually blab about my weird habits all the time despite whether or not people what to know. So...I guess my first weird habit is that I like to tell people all my weird habits.

#2 Can't Seem to Shut Up: I can never keep anything short. I always explain myself to death and the worst part is that people still don't get me after I do all my explaining...thats if my explaining ever ends. I know I'm soooo annoying sometimes. : P

#3 Hot-Sipping?: I CAN'T drink hot liquids or it'll give me an instant stomachache or a tougue burn. I can only drink stuff if its semi-cooled. So I like my coffee, soups, teas lukewarm. And even weirder, I can't drink much liquids (it takes me probably a day and half to finish a whole bottle of 8oz poland spring). However, I CAN finish a huge thing of ice smoothie in less than 10 minutes. Oh...on that note, I crave for ice drinks like nothing else (Starbucks, Bubble Tea, Jamba Juice has become my summer addictions).

#4 Pillow Turning: I have this thing where if I slept one side of my pillow and I wake up and that days goes real well, I start to think that that side of the pillow is my lucky spot. I'll think that if I sleep on the same side again, I will have another great day. But if the day goes terribly, then I will flip the pillow to the other side and hope that the next day will be better. Sometimes I start believing that its that same case with different pairs of underwear. I know...I'm slightly psychotic.

#5 Nail Picking: Err...I guess nail picking is just a bad habit...but its not only a bad habit...its an obsession for me because I tend to start doing it unconsciously and then when I realize that I'm doing it, almost half an hour has passed. Somehow picking my nails allows me to go deep into my own little world of thoughts.

#6 OCD: My worst habit is the slight symptoms of OCD when I'm planning anything. I tend to be real anal about every little detail and become real stressed out and frustrated when details don't work out as planned. If I plan an event, I'll make elaborate phone calls and emails in order for things to run smoothly. Usually, the events that I plan are not fully planned out and I get really nervous about the outcome. But it usually works out in the end. Phew...or else I might have a heart-attack. On that note...I think that I might make a good caterer or event planner...don't you think?! Hahaaa..no really...I'm considering it.

now...my turn to tag: lon, dun, lei master, ann man, fmt, and "me myself and I" (just cus I got more weird habits to share. But I'm going to save them for when you really really get to know me : P).

Monday, July 10, 2006

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 15:54:37 GMT

Haven't updated in months...but all I can say is...Arrrgghhhhh!

I'm so pissed over the World Cup results! I wanted France to win and they should have won! But what happened....

Sorry, but watching the Italians play was nothing compared to the French. In the end, the French were made to look so bad. I'm telling you the Italians probably faked something or paid Zidane to headbutt that guy. WTH...Zidane came out to be the best player in the world tornament...the facts don't match up! Gosh...its such a sad, sad lost! I thought the World Cup was suppose to be something that strengthened nations, but now that all seems to be is a joke!

I'm so cynical.