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| Just when I thought my real friends were my real friends, the tables turn up .. as usual.
I don't know who they are anymore.
Is it okay to think that someone is your best friend and for them not to think of you that way?
Maybe I'm just over reacting.
WHHAAATEVER.
When I'm on the finish line, I'll know for sure who they are. | | |
| New hair cut. I was bored with my hair, so I did it myself. I didn't feel like paying a few dollars. HAH! Since I last blogged, nothing much has changed. Just the hairstyle. That's about it. Time went by so fast. It's already March! Oh wait, that reminds me! Crystal, when does Dom come back? I know you'll read this eventually!  Can't wait 'til summer comes. I'm looking forward to these upcoming dates, but I don't want to get overly excited 'cause I don't want to get dissappointed.
MARCH:
10- school starts
18- Angel's birthday
MAY:
10- April's debut
15- 4 years!
JUNE:
7- Darryl's birthday
20- EL SHADDAI YOUTH'S 3RD ANNUAL PRAISEFEST
23- Joyce's stinky face birthday 
AUGUST:
5- Rhen's birthday
6- kuya's birthday
8- my birrrthday
I'll stop from my birthday. Maybe there'll be more upcoming things in between these dates that I'll end up looking forward to as well. Gosh I HOPE SO! | | |
| It's 12:18 A.M. I can't sleep 'cause Darryl slept early. I don't want to sleep yet. I'm so used to sleeping around 2 in the morning and waking up at 12 in the afternoon. My mom actually has to wake me up or else I'd be sleeping the whole day! Geeeeez. I'm such a lazy bum! I was looking at old pictures, wondering what the hell happened to my body! Yikes! Anyway, nothing new has really happened to me. Two more weeks of freedom and then I'm going to prison. Bwahahah. Not really, but it'll sure feel like it. I'm going to miss out on so many things this year! I don't even want to think about it 'cause it'll just make me sad. I need to learn how to keep my mouth shut from now on. I get into sooo much trouble with my big mouth. From now on, if you hear me gossiping, seriously, stop me. I'm just tired of all the drama in my life, I CAN'T DEAL WITH ANY MORE. No matter what I do, I still get into so much situations. I don't want to go too much into detail 'cause I'm trying to get over it and move on. I haven't fully forgiven those people yet, but I'll realize I have eventually. Sooooo yeah. I need to go to confession. That always makes me feel better. Someone remind me to wear flats this Saturday or Sunday so I can walk to the confession room from the choir place. I hate having people to look at me just because I'm walking from the front! I don't like getting the attention. Seriously. Blah. I'm going to be rambling on soon, so I'll stop here. | | |
| I'm home too much. I'm sorta loving the bum status, but everytime I go out I get tired quickly now. It's like I want to get out of the house, but once I do, I start wishing I'm home. BLEHCK. February's going by way too fast! Everyone's saying it's a good thing, but I don 't think so! Next thing I know, it's SCRC already. YIKES!
Lent's here early this year. On Ash Wednesday, I didn't get to go to church 'cause I had a major headache, which was a bummer 'cause I love going to church during Ash Wednesday getting my ash and all. So I gave up practically the same things I did last year. I gave up cussing and red meat. Last year, it felt like a nightmare when I gave those things up! It felt like forever 'til Lent was over! This year, I feel like Lent's already ending and I haven't suffered enough! What's wrong with me? I was thinking of giving up the internet, television and rice, but then I'd be bored out of my mind and living in a clean ash house! Dang, I should've done it. Oh well, there's always next year.
This year doesn't feel the same. For one thing, concert and Lent are early! Concert things haven't been stressing anyone 'cause nothing's really been set in stone yet, which scares the bejeberrs out of me! It's already February and we have little practice time left! Second thing, my birthday is a really big deal for me this year and for some reason, no one seems to care that I'm turning 20 on 080808. I guess it doesn't matter for me now 'cause no one made a big deal about my birthday last year. Seriously, no one even came to visit on my birthday except Darryl. This year, I don't care if no one makes a big deal, but I know I will. It lands on a Friday so perfect timing to party like there's no tomorrow!  People are getting older. It's weird! People are leaving, it's scary.
It's almost Valentine's Day and this year I can't go out. Why? 'Cause school can't be an excuse anymore. Hah.
Times have changed. Time to grow up some more.  | | |
| I need new friends. Don't get me wrong, I love the ones who actually give a damn about me. But it feels like I'm burdening them too much. I guess I don't really need a friend, but more like a physciatrist or however you spell it. I know there are people who have problems far worse than me, but damn, just because my problems aren't that important, doesn't mean that I still can't complain. I want someone who can just listen. I don't need that person to talk, to give me advice. I just need someone to vent to. I don't want to explode from just keeping everything in. Blah. I'm just in a crappy mood. Whatever. | | |
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