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He will always be my hearts

strongest weakness...

Like my favorite record, you're a

little overplayed. And like my favorite

summer, you'll never fade away.

And I'm not throwing you a rope

unless it goes around your neck.

I kiss myself to catch any taste of you left upon me.
I hold the empty air believing only for you.
I drown in these tears and every sentence runs through
over and over to become deadly comfortable.

Because I'm so in love with what we were...

If you play dumb, then I'll play tragic

and you can break me like a bad habit.

It's open heart surgery,

and I'm under your knife.

One wrong move,

and baby, you'd take my life.

I know I'm made of mistakes,

disappointments, and failures, but I promise

you there's a part of me worth keeping.

But me, I'm just the covers on top of

your bed. I keep you warm and won't

ask you where you've been.

The deepest feelings always

show themselves in silence...

You choice is black and white, not a shade of gray,

because in love, there's no such thing as halfway.

Devotion can't be swayed, emotions can't be torn,

I'd rather be hot or cold, instead of lukewarm.

Once when you have something you want,

that's when you have something to lose.

Love is when you tell a guy

that you like this shirt and he

wears that shirt everyday...

We'd burn like the morning, then break

like your heart. Fall in love without

warning, just to fall back apart.

Being in love is amazingly, frighteningly beautiful.

I never said it would be easy, just worth it.

<3 Nikki

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I don't want to waste another moment

of my life without you in it...<3

I'd have to walk a thousand miles just

to find the ground deserving of your feet.

I told him I was afraid of falling and

he whispered, " I have wings... "

I haven't taken a breath since the last time we touched,

and let me tell you, suffocating has never felt this good.

Just to stay like this, in the give of your lips, in

the dim of the half-lit dawn, pinned below your

undertow, when you meant everything again.

Something about you makes my heart stop.

So let's go back again, we can pretend. I'll pretend

that I'm happy, and you can pretend you always cared.

Your such an inspiration for the

ways I will never choose to be.

Still looking for that dare to be a great situation...

This won't mean a thing tomorrow,

and that's exactly how I'll make it seem.

I wait for the days where I will forget who

you are. When the taste of your name sounds

old and worn. I wait for the days when I

won't remember why I needed you so bad...

If three words could heal you,

I would only speak two. <|3

So let's play Romeo and Juliet

and fall in love...just to die.

All you are is a heartbreak

wrapped up with a nice smile.

SOME TV/MOVIE QUOTES:

Sometimes you love someone so much you

become numb to it, because if you didn't become

numb, such a strong emotion would kill you.

-Riding In Car With Boys

Good men don't just happen, they

have to be created by us women.

-Roseanne

You know what!? No, get out. I'm tired of

hearing how everything in your life is never

good enough...including me.

-Shark Tale

You make me happier than I ever thought I could

be and if you let me I will spend the rest of my

life trying to make you feel the same way.

-Friends

You know I could've held you in my arms forever,

and it still wouldn't have been long enough.

-One Tree Hill

Just so you know, the only thing I really want is to see

him laugh again. You know, hear him sing off-key. Watch

him roll his eyes at me when I steal French fries off this

plate. I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm crazy for him.

-One Tree Hill

I'm not scared of being with you.

-A Walk To Remember

I'm not the girl who cries and falls apart. I'm not the

girl who calls her ex-boyfriend to come and save her.

-Gilmore Girls

Anyhow, I'm fine. I mean not that I'm over it, but

little by little it's getting easier to pretend it's easier,

which means easier might be right around the corner.

-Gilmore Girls

Why do people think it's okay for them to do horrible

things to other people as long as they apologize after?

-Beverly Hills 90210

It's not that we didn't love each other, it's just love wasn't

enough. So I think I have to let go, we have to let go.

-Charmed

I've been something I'm not for soo long and I'm

scared you won't like what's underneath. But here

I am, just flesh, blood and weakness.

-Phonebooth

I guess I thought you'd be here forever. Another illusion

I chose to create. Don't know what you've got until

it's gone. And I found out just a little too late.

-Chicago

I live to like you and I can't like you anymore. So when you

get your heart splattered all over hell and you're feeling really

low and dirty, don't run to me to help you back up because,

maybe, for the first time in your life I won't be there.

-Pretty In Pink

<3 Nikki

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Oh I will be your accident, if you will be my ambulance. I will be your

screech and crash if you will be my crutch and cast. I will be your

one more time if you will be my one last chance [[so fall for me]]

I'm finding that you, and only you, can break my fall.

It happens in an instant.  Ill be sitting or standing,

or walking or talking.  I'll be thinking about something,

anything, nothing at all.  But then, there you will be.

racing through my mind, making my heart race.

the very thought of you,  in an instant, makes me glow.

The way you tasted, just like a movie star. The way the

windshield reflected the sunrise. The way the light tattooed

your thighs. You're the most beautiful boy in the whole wide world.

Summer;;

when all the days run into each other,

the nights belong to lust and lovers,

and everyday is Saturday night.

Getting over you made me realize

how much I actually missed you.

So lie to me because innocence

is bliss. And baby, we're nothing more

than a kindergarten romance.

You leave me desperate, devastated,

but you tease me one more time.

'Cuz I'd just love to get to know you,

and breathe in all your lies.

I miss you. Not enough to want you

back, just enough for it to hurt.

There is always going to be that one awkward

moment when you walk by that one person

and remember all that you once had.

Today is one of those days I spend an hour

looking at the photo on my nightstand of us...

standing there...together. It's one of those days,

I'm ready to run cross country just to be by your

side. One of those days where anything reminds

me of you...of us. One of those days. I don't

know if my tears are happy because I had you...

or sad because I miss you more than anything.

Can you grant me one last wish?

Play Russian Roulette as we kiss.

I'll be your cheap novelty;

blow your brains out on me.

And I hope the next town you run to

has a girl that looks a bit like me,

with the same bright eyes and smile.

But she won't have the touch I have,

she won't have the love I had. You think

just anyone can send chills up your spine?

Because your lips are burning

like the end of a cigarette...

but I won't inhale your lies.

Standing on the edge of morning. Scent

of sex and New Found Glory playing.

As she's pulling back her hair, she

drives away. She's feeling worthless;

used again, but nothing's different. She'd stay

the night but she knows he doesn't care...