anyone have financial advise for student loans? my wallet and pockets are empty. i dont have money...so what do i need a wallet for....i should sell my wallet for cash. (yeah u can tell im not one of those LV purse girls, dont even ask me to go into materialism, my parents taught me better). hmm backup plan: become anorexic to start modeling. (so if i weigh 105lbs and im 5'3 or 5'4" how much weight do i have to lose until i become anorexic? prolly until i can find a second use of my ribs as a CD rack.

maybe i can minimize traffic rage if i get alot of ICE for the sportster.

Why do people get so into video games? I just dont have the attention span for them...with the exception of puzzle fighter. I discovered that puzzle fighter with the dancemat (my lil sis likes DDR) evens the playing field when i play the computer or other people. Yeah then there are those people that have cash to buy GT4 then buy a steering wheel just for the game. wow you're so cool cuz you race in a video game with an expensive steeringwheel. HA! I dont need that shit. I'd drift with a dancemat and use the money on a MOMO steering wheel for my real car. Anyone have a 10 year old miata i can buy?

updates: i lost my cell phone again...post me your numbers. my parents guilt tripped me into a family trip to hawaii. i hope being broke isnt gonna make hawaii bad. i dropped the summer school online course. why did i want to take business statistics for fun? what was i thinking?

dex bought Equilibrium and Requiem for a Dream for me last night. ^__^  Gary and I stayed up watching equilibrium while Dex slept. Why do kids overreact and dramatize with no control over their emotions? because its the first times they're experiencing such different emotions. But we are not kids now are we? So lets learn some self control. I've come so close so many times on solving the Rubik's cube. That damn thing! I'm not going to let that thing beat me. I miss dexter. but his day is so busy with school gym and work. guess thats my cue to see the doctor, go send transcripts, and do chores.

                          from Lisa's xanga

Boy: A girl and a guy are speeding over 100mph on the road on a motorcycle.
Girl: Slow down. I'm scared.
Guy:No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: i love you, but slow down.
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. *Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off &; put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day): ... A motorcycle crashed into a building last night because of brake failure. Two people were involved, a male and a female, but only 1 survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the 18 year old boy realized that his brakes had broke, but he didn't want to let his partner know. Instead, he made her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, and let her wear his helmet so that she would live, realizing he would be the one that would die. If there's anyone you love this much, re-post this

..............saturday morning   ...............   i'll post pics of the bruises from when the bike went out from under me sometime later ... i was goin a lil too fast and freaked out... my right hand squeezed too suddenly on the break....i should have hit the engine cut off switch... but i had the motorcycle helmet on so i only have nasty bruises on my legs from where the bike spun out in front of me ..... i shouldnt have freaked out like that and i shouldnt have started up that freakishly heavy kawasaki at 6am without sleeping for 3 days.

but that story is sad. when i was with Jay, i was actually scared of his R1. i saw his crazy thunderhill pictures, he has potential to race if sponsered, his bike is hella clean custom painted on slicks, in good shape 5'11" 180 lbs fast reflexes, hes been riding for a long time so stuntin is just a game to him, but honestly i never wanted to ride on any one else's bike cuz i didnt want to die. there are lame girls who date guys for their bikes and cars, which doesnt make sense to me. why would you put your life into someone else's hands like that? I dont care if its going to take me a long time to learn to ride well. I dont care if its gonna take alot of effort, patience, and experience. I dont care that new bikes and riding gear costs bank. I dont care if sexist males will try to talk shit to me for being female and riding.  I'd rather do things right, spend more money, and learn for myself for the sake of my life.

oh yeah...i lost my cell phone a while ago so i dont have everyone's numbers...im using my old phone so im missing a hundred of all your numbers...and i havent been shutting out phone calls cuz of finals. I finished the chemistry final today. Burns put in so much organic chemistry. Why do we need to know Ochem?

yay my pmsing has toned down alot! yesterday i hid the clocks, took off my watch, turned off my phone and studied. When i decided to call it quits it was already 5am. not bad since i started at 6pm a good 11 hours devoted to my chem final next wed. hella loud girls outside the dorm were annoying the hell out of me and i slammed the glass windows too hard and woke ppl up. amazing what hormones do to you. i swear my estrogen progesterone are more like steroids. it doesnt make me femine at all. earlier when i was studying some dude randomly gave me a red bull but i ended up not opening.

I got my progress grade for biology. its a B. i know a B isnt great, but halfways through the year I was getting all D's on midterms so i think i pulled my grade up a significant amount. But oh man...chem....i had a 30% halfway into the year thats worse than an F but i think i'll be gettin a C now as long as the teacher doesnt lose anymore of my work. I have boosted my grades so much cuz of the pills, but i still have alot more to go. And i get to go riding this weekend ^____^ and i gotta find something to wear to a graduation ceremony on sunday. Dex just got another daily beater today, its a 2000 mitsubishi mirage. MR2 is project only now. i still havent gotten a daily driver yet since my money was robbed fixing my car, but i'm gonna raise my car up a lil and remount a 4th set of tires on the gsr blades. not sure what tires tho...and repaint her. dexter moved back to frisco today. so sad. but shoot i gotta get back to studying or else i wont have time saturday and sunday to ride. The good thing about not shopping like most typical girls is that i can use shopping as an incentive to study harder. If i can succeed on my finals im gonna let myself buy this very hot jacket and perhaps maybe new gloves and helmet if i can score a couple 90% on the finals.

WOW I FEEL SO GREAT!!! I went to bed at 10pm friday night and it felt amazing!!! Damn! Its been such a long time that I've forgotten what a full night of sleep does for you. I woke up bright eyed at 6am this morning just 2 seconds before the alarm clock went off. I went to oakland with dex, borrowed his daily driver so now im at home just chillin and finally relaxing. wow this is so freakin great!

well there have been a few bad things...but im not letting them hold me down. I got a rejection from UCSD after they delayed their decision on me 3 times...and an english teacher at st. mary's is accusing dexter of plagarism on his final term paper on african buddhism because she said it was just too good and its not possible that he wrote it. And of course he wrote it, he has such an amazing gift and talent. That is so UNPROFESSIONAL!!! and it is ILLEGAL to make such false accusations and slander. Of course it is not possible for her to have proof since no proof exists for a false incongruous claim. How can such disgustingly ignorant deficient idiot be a teacher? She should be fired for that kind of misconduct. She should not be jealous, she instead should look at dexter's papers as something to aspire to. He had the best literature teachers at his boarding school. How can she call herself an english teacher? She needs to get fired! And if she is committing this offense because she is discriminating against Buddhists, we will make the religious discrimination known because it is illegal in the United States to discriminate a person by their religion. I have also heard many students suspect her of being racist toward minorities, but that is a whole separate offense. How can a school like St. Marys survive with teachers like these and all the publically known illegal history they have with spending? Don't even get me started on morals and ethics! omg i get very irritated when it comes to education. I believe education is a matter that should be taken seriously. This country needs to improve their education system.

well its reaching 8am so i gotta go school and study (motorcycle saftey education). since its saturday im out at 2:30. have a good weekend