2004's bin pretty much a bullshit year....

but besides that...what is everyone doing for valentines day this saturday?!?! hehe my parents are going outta town for the weekend..who wants to come over?! hehe.....=P

this christmas im not in the mood to do anything...i remember wen i used to be all happy a few days before christmas and i wud always love to go shopping for everyone! it used to be fun wen i went with my mom..now its juss like take care of ur brothers were gonna go shopping but instead they go shopping for themselves...i used to remember wen my mom was always in a good mood and probably only yelled at meeh wen i actually did something bad instead of yelling at meeh for every reason she cud find just to yell at meeh. it kinda sucked wen we were at the outlet and she got mad at meeh cuz she didnt like the shirt i was wearing..so i thawt to myself..."this christmas is it worth buying her a christmas present if all she duz is pms and bitch at meeh all the time?" i mean maybeeh she duz do sum nice things for meeh but half of the time shes always yelling...my mom seys she trusts meeh but why when i try to go out wit my friends she gives meeh 21 questions..but then wen my sister asks to go out she can and im always stuck at the house baby sitting...i kno half of it is my fault for my mom not to trust meeh..i admit i probably wudnt even trust myself but to meeh half of the problem is their "dad" hes almost never there for them...hes never home.. and half of the time my moms pist about hym not being there for his sons...i wish i cud be happy this christmas but it looks like things arent working out for the better...everything just seems to be getting worse and worse everyday..nothing makes meeh happier than talking to "hym" about everything and "hym" trying to comfort meeh and help meeh thru things..nothing makes meeh more happier than wen i see my best friend and my other friend...i miss alot of people and i especially miss those days wen meeh and my mom can go out and just have fun without her yelling at meeh for no reason.

[-there's nothing more in the world that i miss and want for christmas.. the only thing i want is for "hym" to come back and be here with meeh.-]

hMmm....soo not ready for christmas...=/

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
<3..aLLy

lets recap on the days i didnt blog...i went to the linus octoberfest wit sam...it was alriite got to see alot of people and yeah and then not to mention any names ::cough::cough:: joana..hehe well yeah she saw meeh there wit samantha and got all mad so she decided to start sumtin and call meeh a bitch! but wutevers...i didnt say nuttin to her cuz that wud just be a waste of time and shes prolly gonna see this too  cuz i kno all her friends are gonna tell her but i really dont kare and yeah..hehe but i mean yeah if you have sumtin to say to meeh say it to my face just cuz i turned my head an you have sum kind of problem wit meeh just tell meeh and dont get meeh wrong i do have a problem wit you only cuz you talk so much shit!!

 but other wise the octoberfest was helluh boring nd small!! hehe and yeah then i ended up getting in truble cuz of sum stoopid reason but yeah and my mom grounded meeh and i cudnt go to knotts wt lauren :( oh wellz next time ryte?!?! haha but yeah i kno you had fun ryte ren?!

but besides that i wasnt talking to my mother agen..hehe.. i kno i kno i sound like a lil snob to my mom but i dunno i just think she duznt treat meeh the same way she treats my sister..we get in alo more fytes and dont get meeh wrong i do luv wen my mom duz stuff fer meeh nd ish but i just dont kno if i luv her as much i used too?? :(

well yeah skewls been pretty gay!! its soo HOT! lol ive bin getting alot more homewurk but im making more frends!! hehe arent you proud of meeh?! i used to be just a loner hanging around ashlee!! hehe sssh! dont tell her that lol

 awwww..chelle i mist you wen you came down here on the 17th!! but awww...i didnt get to go out wit you!!!
 :( but i i hope you had fun chelle and maybeeh next time i'll get to see you! luv ya beb! *muahz*

well gotta go...english homewurk and then sum math project...aint that a bitch? hehe

i havent blogged in a helluh long tyme!! hehe

grrr...im not so very happie wit my mother ryte now! but yeah uMm...i was supposed to go to the bosco game last nite wit lauren and meet a certain *sumone* hehe...but NooOo..my mother sed she was gonna go out agen and turns out she stayed home and HER frends came over like around 11 and meeh and my sister were supposed to go out..but blah wutevers i aint even gonna trip that much cuz she sed i cud go out next week...anyone wanna come to the norwalk game wit meeh?! hehe i kno i kno kinduh ghetto but still kyoote guys! hehe jk jk..but yeah anyways...my weekend was kinduh gay..last nite i juss stayed home..practically was pist the whole nite and my english teacher gave meeh a "B" in his class! >.< [[hehe i kno that is a good grade...but i derserved an "A" in that class!!]]

gGrr...and then this one helluh ugglee guy asked meeh to homecoming ryte...this guy comes to my house and asks meeh to homecoming and it turns out that he only lives like 6 houses down from meeh ryte...so i tell his ass that "I'LL THINK ABOUT IT" so which means i never had sed yes ryte?! so this guy is telling everyone that im going to the dance wit hym.. so he comes to my house prolly like 1 week later and comes to my house to talk to meeh and he wants to come and chill and im not really feeling hym so i was like *sigh* wutevers so we were juss talkin and he invites meeh to the mall today...blah didnt wanna go wit his ass so yeah ended up not going...but yeah thats not really the point...so this guy leaves and then comes back 5 mins later! and im like wtf you kno you juss came here and so hes like well heres the papers fer the dance so you can sign it and ish and im like wtf?! i havent even sed yes so wut makes you think that im going wit you to the dance?! so im just like wutevers and i throw the papers sumwhere...so he leaves agen and comes back prolly like 10 min later and asks fer the paper and i was like you kno wut my mom is too bizy to sign them and ish and he was like alriite well imma come back later...so he comes back like 5 mins.."you got the papers" and im nooo! so he leaves agen and comes back.."you go the papers" and im like.."you kno wut i dont even kno if im going to the dance anymore!" [[cuz you kno i wanna go wit sum other guy]] and he was like Oooh... and so he had brought his cuzins over and like they were all hey do you wanna meet our mom and ish and then my sister had to go and say juss go and meet her so i was like well alriite i guess so i meet his mom and she was telling meeh all the plans that were happening on homecoming nite and im like well fukk if i had already met his mom that means i HAVE to go wit him ryte?!?! but i dunno...so i think about this ish the whoole nite..and im like well if i go do i have to stay wit hym the whole nite? cuz i mean i wanna go but just not wit hym...and plus our homecomings at queen mary and ish! and i dunno...but yeah hes helluh ugly!!!!!!!! >.< *covers eyes* blah wuteverz..hehe update you on my decision later...

but yeah on wit my weekend... ryte now im at my aunts house in the valley..earlier meeh..serena... ateh.. went down one street just going up and down the street looking fer sumtin to eat...we didnt kno wut we wanted to we ended up just going down one street fer a whole hour!! hehe.. but yeah so we ended up eating del taco then we came back we picked up stephanie decided to go out..but we didnt kno where sooO...we ended juss going to northridge mall..that was helluh boring...so then we decided to go to in and out got sum food came back and just baby sat agen..made sume cookies wit da cuzins and now were all just watching coyote ugly..blah im helluh bored!!! but yeah...okay well im helluh tired.. i'll blog agen in like 2 months? hehe

//*aLLy

heyyy!!! who i really havent blogged in a loong ass time huh?! hehe

but yeah okay uMm... just started skewl at norwhack high! hehe..its alriite..uMm cud barely even find any filipinos there haha..but its alriite..i have like noo frends there xcept fer like 3 pple! lol..im a loner! I HATE my 2nd and 3rd period!! my 2nd period teacher a bitch! and then fer 3rd period i have to walk across the street just to get to my class! blah..thats a bitch wen its helluh hot outside! but anyways...went to the sjog carnival last nite.. and supposedly i was gonna "get my ass kicked" by sum gurls but wutevers besides that ish..it was sooo BORING! everyone was getting on my nerves..hehe well not everyone..just mainly like 3 pple? hehe i dont kno but wutevers..that was helluh boring but i got to see chelle! awww... i mist you beb!! <3 then i got home..got in truble and then talked to kris on the fone and got in truble agen! see kris! look wut you did! you got meeh in truble! >.<

today i woke up to laurens text messege! she woke up all helluh early hehe but its alriite..talked to ren and christal fer a cuple of minutes...then christal called meeh back wit "HYM" huh?! lol..i didnt even kno you guys were on the fone..but blah..thanx guys! hehe...hes soo cute! hehe...so yeah i talked to hym fer a while i have to call his ass back later..lol..

but blah now im at my uncles house wit all my cuzins.. everyones going to the bosco dance today!! *sigh* have fun guys! hehe...