i havent updated in years, im anxious for summer

this weekend was good and bad together, theres alot on my mind right now, im gonna handle it for once though, instead of running away from it like usual. i guess maybe i just didnt really want anything that badly last time? lets hope im not in it alone.

happier things? my birthday is soon, 13 days actually, im pretty excited, 16 should be amazing :] uhm texas is pretty soon too, even though i still havent bought my plane tickets  im a procrastinator.

i dont know what else is new really? only 3 days of school this week :] im dying for summer.

everythings up and down right now, i want schoool to be out and get away from everyone and their bullshit because i honestly dont care anymore, you're all immature and i have no time to deal with that

so last night was the worst in a while, it just made me think. youre leaving so soon

i wanted to show today so bad, but i cant, because everythings fucking retarded. im somewhat depressed today. can you tell?

yeahh so, got my friend back lol.

things have been really really good lately, im happy.

minus school, i hate it, and all the drama. i can't wait to get out and i get to go to texas again, yesss.

uhm so theres this boy, he makes me smile  thats its lol.

tomorrow = half day, i dont know what the hell im doing after school but i dont have a ride home until 5, god my parents love me.

and this weekend my parents are in new york. its a good thing.

wow. so i just read something, im not sure if its at all directed towards me, but i get the feeling it could be maybe just a little bit. and its just like, idk i cant even like spit it out. it shouldnt be a big deal but im just a little shocked.

anyways, i wont say anything else about it in case im totally and completely wrong, cause thats a slight possibility.

so this nun thing today was freaking insane. at one point they started singing like india music with hand drums and danced around a cross, it was like tribal/cult worship. i almost cried i was laughing so hard,plus the lady in front of us had her shirt on inside out, and that wasnt helping me be serious. im mean sometimes.

last night was wonderful, but thats all you need to know about it

tomorrow = school which = dying, ughhh i need summer nowww