Finals week was definitely interesting (to say the least). I realized a lot in that week...particularly things about myself. It's funny how 1 week can contain so many different events and situations to cause me to...really think about them.  

First off, I'm not someone that you can take advantage of and play with. This caused a lot of confusion on my end and made me feel like I was being used for this particular persons' pure enjoyment (which I'm pretty sure I was). I don't think I've ever felt so low in my entire life. I'm not being melodramatic either. Just seeing the smile on this particular persons' face when it was all said and done...made me realize that I'm glad I have the ability to be reserved when I need to be. I thought that maybe I was reading the situation all wrong....maybe there was something there. But no. I was right in the beginning. So, to conclude this particular realization: I'm going to find someone that treats me better than I can ever imagine being treated. I will not be played with. Pure and simple. Because...I'm not that kind of girl.

#2: I refuse to step on my friends and family when it comes to "following my dreams." For some reason, I couldn't get that point across in a certain discussion. I can tell myself that I'm going to live in another state after graduation, and you know....it might not happen. Maybe something important is going to hold me here in Oklahoma, such as something dealing with my family or friends. That's fine with me. I look at it as God telling me that it wasn't meant for me to live anywhere else. Just as long as I'm happy...that's all that matters to me.

#3: Something's gotta change next semester. And that something is my study habits! I can't coast through college anymore...this past semesters' finals told me that loud and clear.

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Life is amazing. I mean, I have no regrets about anything, it seems to only be getting better and better, and...I have the greatest family and friends in the whole world. I won't let the trivial aspects of life bring me down. There's really no need for any of that.

I feel that this summer is going to bring wonderful things my way.
I hope it does for you too.

So, have a great summer! No more xanga updates for quite a while.

Love, Audra 

HIST 3430: Topics In US History
HIST 1113: Medieval Europe
HIST 1723: East Asia to 1600
HIST 1923: World Civilizations 1600-Present
PHIL 1013: Intro to Philosophy

Is it weird that I'm already looking forward to next semester?!

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A&W Root Beer gives me the hiccups.

Pointless Xanga entry number 53.

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Currently Listening Swiss Army Romance By Dashboard Confessional A Plain Morning see related

So one night a couple of weeks ago, I went to bed thinking, "Gah, I wish I could find my blue flip flops." My bedroom was a complete mess, and no matter how hard I looked for them in the previous days, I couldn't find them. When I awoke the next morning, my blue flip flops were neatly placed in the middle of my bedroom floor. A pair of my pjs was hanging on my opened bedroom door and my window was opened...blinds pulled up.

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Last weekend, I went to visit my parents for the first time in a month. At about 2am in the morning, I started dreaming about being in a dark enclosed space, with a staircase leading up. I started feeling around for an escape, and my hand fell on a doorknob. I opened it and stepped into a hallway. I looked to my left and saw darkness. I looked to my right and saw a dimly lit office. At that time, my brother Adam yelled at me and I woke up, standing in the hallway, completely freaked out because I didn't know how I had gotten there. Adam told me that I had woke him up by violently hitting my bedroom wall, so he stepped out into the hallway to watch me open my door and look around.

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Yeah, I need to unwind at the end of the day before I go to sleep! Because...I do some weird things when I sleepwalk...

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Well, it's off to church... Good luck to everyone on their finals! Wish me luck, 'cause...I need everything I can get! ;)

Love.

Currently Listening Flyleaf By Flyleaf All Around Me see related

Ready to put this semester behind me...

Today was the last day of classes....next week is finals, and then...that's the finale of Sophomore year. It's been a very interesting semester...

I'm extremely excited about the fall. I'm actually taking more classes for my major than gen ed requirements, so that's always nice. I'm more behind than I was before (due to changing my major near the end of this semester), but at least I have it all worked out now. I'm happy with my decision, and...I'm ready to move forward.  

Life is pretty good despite my financial situation. I honestly can't complain much. I guess I could complain about being tired, but aren't we all tired? So, I'll just say that although some things are confusing...at least I'm able to smile through it all.

Love.

Audra