okay update.

new boyfriend.... the amazing tim jackson. :)

and by the way. that last entry is still true, but we're slowly becoming friends.

i dont think anyone has ever hurt me this bad. not that anyone even reads these anymore... oh well. i promised myself i didnt need someone to make me happy.. i know i dont. it was just so much easier. the smiles came faster. everything was better, but everythings better in your head i guess. from where i'm standing..this whole thing was in my head. i made everything up..every chance of it working out that is. the tears however, those were real. those hurt like hell. i've never cried this much over anyone. i just hope he knows everything is ruined..and not to expect friendship anytime soon.

on the brighter side...i got flowers in the mail today from andrew. :) he made me feel so much better. thanks kid. :)

so i have no idea why i have one of these anymore.

see ya.

Rest in peace Matt Jennings.

well hm. lets see lets see. its been forever i know. sorry kids. schools out...thank goodness. well i dont really have anything to say...so heres a buttload of pictures..

and i dont have any pictures of me and my boo..sorry kids. maybe later. :)