ugh i feel like crap...and i have no idea why
and it wouldnt be driving me insane if i only knew why i was so down..

i want to leave somewhere
go see the grand canyon...
hitch a ride to nowhere with no plans

just leave...

i hate this feeling....like you have no one...i want a shoulder to lean on.

why am i so scared
i torture myself so that no one else could ever hurt me

but its 1000x worse.

my head is throbbing. i feel like i have a lump in my throat. im such an idiot