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Name: Bonnie
Country: United States
State: Michigan
Metro: Ann Arbor
Birthday: 12/21/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: playing on my computer, talking to friends, Making new friends, people watching, sleeping, looking at the sky, having intelligent conversations, I don't really know.
Expertise: Talking to people, being loyal, having people count on me.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  xCwBoNNiEwCx
MSN: azngrl21_@hotmail.com
Member Since:
10/17/2003
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| 惠俐:
Build me a niece , O Lord, who will be strong enough to know when she is weak,
and brave enough to face herself when she is afraid; one who will be proud and
unbending in honest defeat, and humble and gentle in victory.
Build me a niece whose wishbone will not be where her backbone should be; a
niece who will know Thee- and that to know herself is the foundation stone of
knowledge. Lead her, I pray, not in the path of ease and comfort, but under
the stress and spur of difficulties and challenge. Here let her learn to stand
up in the storm; here let her learn compassion for those who fail.
Build me a niece whose heart will be clear, whose goal will be high; a niece who
will master herself before she seeks to master other men; one who will learn
to laugh, yet never forget how to weep; one who will reach into the future, yet
never forget the past. And after all these things are her, add, I pray, enough
of a sense of humor, so that she may always be serious, yet never forget not to take
herself too seriously.
Give her humility, so that she may always remember the simplicity of true
greatness, the open mind of true wisdom, the meekness of true strength
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| so it's my fault that things are like this between us. I don't suppose it would be right for me, at this point, to say that I had warned you in hopes that you would stay away from me these couple of weeks. Did I not say that I would be easily irritated? Easily bothered?... Yes. I believe I did, countless times.
So it's my fault that you are hurt.
I apologized for hurting you, did I not? I never mean to get irritated or easily annoyed or yell at you. I know that you mean well and you are only caring for me... even still I cannot control my anger. I guess the only way for me to explain my anger is to compare it to a volcano that has exploded, can you stop it from exploding?
So it's my fault that you doubt me.
Did I not say on countless occasions how much you actually meant to me? To be able to surpass my barriers and get close, to claim a spot that is very important to me... that is quite the accomplishment I suppose I should applaud you for your achievement. Why do you doubt me? speaking of a particular "spoiled one", you think I hold her in higher esteem than you. I obviously would lie to you and tell the truth to everyone else. Right.
So it's my fault that it's my poor character that enables you to think that I use you.
I just want to clarify... I don't fuckin used ANYONE. I don't NEED anyone, thus, making everyone slightly useless to me I suppose. I would never use anybody, especially those I consider my friends.
I don't know what else I can do, I have apologized. I have warned. I have given plenty of time and space. I have even pulled myself back so that I do not explode my anger on you. I don't know why I get angry, but I do. This is me, if you don't want to deal with it... then don't be my friend.
If my tear ducts weren't so stubborn, I think they would function right about now.
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| Leave it to me to fuck things up again... ugh.
I don't know why it bothers me so much, but it does, I can't help it. I hate being suspected, I hate having this feeling. I hate not knowing and I hope that I'm never suspected again.
i just want to get away from it all. If it takes me wearing a skirt to change some aspects people have of me... fine. I'll do it, I'll fuckin do anything to get people to stop theorizing. I'm so sick of it.
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| so an interesting question came up today... am I? I didn't think so but recently I need to question this a lot more. Maybe it's just coming out more... ugh need more cigarettes.
我想我是不可能跟你在一起， 想到會有點傷心， 雖然是不能改變的事實．．．
我需要離開自己的夢想， 去接受Reality
我們生存在不同的世界， 不同的想法．．．
只能遠遠地看著你，希望你過美好快樂的生活。
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| 姨丈的媽媽昨天去世了．．．
想到這件事情就會讓我覺得自己的阿公阿媽也年紀大了．．．
不可思議， 無法想像那種下場．．．
只好逃避， 不能面對。
躲在煙裡， 讓大家不要看到我的心情。
其實我很．．．
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