dude xanga's kinda cool now
too bad NO ONE uses it anymore...

I don't wanna see you anymore, I'm just not that strong.
I love it when you're here, but I'm better when you're gone.
I'm certain that I've given, and i've seen how you can take.
There's no use in you looking, there's nothing left for you to break.
please release me. Let my heart rest, in pieces.



this is for the girls who don't always win,
who stay up all night listening to music that inspires them
the girls that laugh, smile, cry and think all on a daily basis
the girls who like, learn, and regret the girls who may never have it easy
the girls who learn the hard way and live to tell about it the real girls


Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your life
that you expect it to always be there.
Because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't.
But then one day you feel something else.
Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamiliar.
And in that moment, you realize you're happy.


he shines in a world of ugliness;
he matters when everything else is meaningless.


She feels like somehow someone always
finds a way to bring her down,
like she's never good enough for
everyone & they all just see
right through her.


it's not just a crush anymore.
it's not the ohh-but-he's-sooo-cute sorta thing
it's the oh geez, he's so amazing
and i think i just may love him kinda thing


She has 8 smiles:
one when she's out with family
one when she's hanging with friends
one when she is just being polite
one when she thinks something is genuinely funny
one when she's not suppose to think somthing's funny
one for when she's nervous
one for when she's sad and
one when she's with him


I have 3 smiles:
One when I'm thinking of you,
one when I'm looking at you, and
one when you look back.


She sits on her porch alone
with her headphones on,
listening to depressing music as she
looks up at the stars & wishes upon
every one of them that someday
he would love her as much as she loved him.


I can't even begin to explain this feeling.
It's that can't-breathe feeling I get whenver I talk to you.
It's that can't-stop-smiling feeling I get
whenever someone says your name.
It's that can't-stop-talking-about-you feeling
I get when I tell my friends about you.
It's that can't-stop-staring feeling I get
when I look into those beautiful brown eyes of yours.
It's that little flutter in the bottom of my stomach
that I get while I'm writing this about you.


 

yeah it's been a long time

 
What's so cool about teasing?
What's so cool about cheating?
What's so cool about fighting?
What's so cool about rumors?
What's so cool about drugs?
What's so cool about drinking?
Every night someone cries cause they were teased.
Every night someone cries cause their bf/gf is cheating on them.
Every night someone cries cause they're in a fight.
Every night someone cries cause they had a rumor spread about them.
Every night someone cries cause their friend died of drug overdose.
Every night someone cries cause their little brother was killed by a drunk driver.
1/2 of those people will look to suicide for an answer.
Do you wanna be the reason?


but sometimes, no matter how much you love
someone, they just can't love you back in the same
way. & believe me, loving someone who
can't love you back is way lonelier
than being alone.
 
"someone out there is meant to be the love of your life. your best friend, your soulmate. the one you can tell your dreams to. he'll smile at you when you tell him, but he'll never laugh at your heart. he'll brush the hair out of your eyes & send you flowers when you  least expect it. he'll call you to tell you goodnight before you get into bed or just because he's thinking about you. he'll be bursting to talk to you each morning, just to hear the sound of your voice. he'll look into your eyes & tell you you're the most beautiful girl he's ever seen & for the first time in your life, you'll believe it."
- dawson's creek

he shines in a world of ugliness;
he matters when everything else is meaningless.
 
no one was there to help me,
no one was there to say,
"hey, i want to understand."


how'd you end up oh so jaded?
cynical and so sedated;
can't live in this world you created
day after day after day
  
It's that 'lock your-self in your bedroom, bring a pillow to your face and scream your lungs out' kind of feeling.


So say what you want, but to me i wouldn't have it any other way.  I love this kid. & that i tell you will never change.
 
real integrity is doing the right thing,
knowing that nobody's going to know
whether you did it or not.
++Oprah Winfrey


did you ever notice that there is always that
particular line in that certain song that always
stands out in that certain way & reminds you
of that [ o n e p e r s o n . ]
 
i'm always my happiest when
i'm singing in the shower,
laughing out loud with my girls,
or just thinking of you <3


Smile like nothing's wrong,
laugh like everyone cares,
& act like you're worth looking at.
 
So I'm a little left of center, I'm a little out of tune.
Some say I'm paranormal, so I just bend their spoon.
Who wants to be ordinary, in a crazy mixed up world?
I don't care what they're sayin, as long as I'm your girl


&& after awhile
you realize that you can't make
everyone happy && you have
to decide what you truly want
[ && m a k e i t h a p p e n ]
  
the definition of "just friends" is
"I dont just want you to mourn the loss.
I want to remind you of it everyday.
I want you to suffer, I want you to envy,
I want you to die slowly, a bit at a time...
and I want you to smile and thank me for it."


I hate your expression, the one that sings:
"You're not good enough to be with me"
 
I love you... in a really, really big... pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me. Choose me. Love me.


If I could, I'd only want to make you smile
 


there you are

been busy with crew

& yikes i like 3 guys right now x )
so hopefully i can like work that out


  <3
i try to keep my cool around him.
but im just dying to tell him that.
he's all i ever think about.
&& i love him more than words can describe.


i've realized, i've finally realized
that you were never meant for me.
 
I wish you would step back from that ledge, my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in.
And if you do not want to see me again, I would understand.
I would understand.


yeah all those silly quotes are about you.
what can i say?
you are my everything. <3
 

Every girl wants to feel like the person

she is is enough. Thank you for making

me feel like that. You've seen all my moods

you know how I am. You laugh at all my

stupid jokes and sympathize with all

my problems, no matter how petty they

may be. You let me be whoever I want

to be and you like me anyway. That

really does mean the world to me.


A woman is often measured by the things she cannot control. She is measured by the way her body curves or doesn't curve, by where she is flat or straight or round. She is measured by 36-24-36 and inches, ages and numbers, by all the outside things that don't ever add up to who she is on the inside. And so if a women is to be measured, let her be measured by the things she can control; by who she is and who she is trying to become. Because as every women knows, measurements are only statistics and statistics lie.
  <3
i like this boy,
and just when i think
there is no way in the world he likes me
i catch him staring at me
with a smile on his face
it makes me wonder


You told me that I was just another face in the crowd..So I told you that you were just another jerk up the street. Maybe it was my fault to interrupt your words, because while you were walking away, I heard you murmur, "Another face in the crowd...that managed to take my breath away.." While I found myself saying, "Another jerk up the street, that I'd die to live next to..."
 
"Sometimes pain becomes such a big part of your life that you expect it to always be there. Because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day you feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamilar. And in that moment, you realize you're happy."
- One Tree Hill


When you're sleeping with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.
 
I think I'm at the point where I've liked you for so long that it's just an automatic reaction for me. I don't know if I really still do, but whenever someone says your name, my heart beats faster. I still get jealous and you still have the power to ruin my entire day; but I have a feeling that's just the way it's gonna be for awhile. I know I need to move on, I just don't know if I can. I'm not strong enough to move away from the one amazing person that's been on my mind forever. So do you think you could please make this easy and just love me back?


Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life
But I'd rather be the moon.
So I can shine on you during your darkest hour
When your sun isn't around.
  
And he had this sort of accidental smile that always found its way across his lips before he could worry about looking uncool.


And every time I see you,
I crave more.
 
I usually hate when people show off,
but when you do it for me,
I absolutely love it.


He's the kind of guy that you'd do
anything for, regardless of how
he feels about you.
 
don't look at me like that.
i don't feel like falling for you all over again
i can't afford the heartbreak.


do you ever wonder what your life
looks like from someone else's eyes?