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Birthday: 7/14/1984
Interests: music above all else :)
but books are pretty cool too...so're sleeping and bummin....can't forget WB tv nights!!
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
6/17/2003
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| Consider this the return of the xanga-driven procrastination circa April 2004  RE: 7 entries in one night...the night before I had to turn in a 15 page paper, in fact.
Anyways, I'm finally done with my poster for APA!! (I think.) I could've been done with it about two weeks ago, but as you all probably know by now, I'm a huge procrastinator. I got about halfway through it and was so proud of myself that I took a week and a half vacation...haha. And then I got almost to the end, and again was very proud of myself, so took another unnecessary break from working on it. Needless to say, it's finally in presentable condition; I just need to go get it printed some time this week.
Now on to my paper for Short-term....it actually shouldn't be that bad -- it's just the act of actually getting words on paper. I've actually got a pretty busy week ahead of me...lots of testing, a bit of family time, getting ready for Boston, and of course, Sagar's wedding!!!! I am super excited about the wedding! It should be a fun mix of people....AND I get to wear my new clothes 
Ok, I've been WAY too much of a bum these past few days...I'm gonna go for a swim before it gets too hot outside. Happy Sunday, all!
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| Several things:
Bill Cosby is hilarious. I love him. ::currently watching him on Jay Leno::
I am a huge proponent of pampering myself, even though I try not to be...if that makes any sense. It's mainly that I like doing nice things for myself from time to time, but I'm also very aware of the fact that money does not grow on trees. Well, it may very well grow on trees, but I don't have one...maybe I should look into getting one. Where does one get a money tree? Anyways, back to my original point, my conscience is very practical. Many times, however, I conveniently choose to ignore it. I rationalize to myself that, hey, I work hard (for the most part); I deserve some pampering every now and then. That's all well and good...or it would be if I were more careful with how I spend my money when I'm not pampering myself. I'm getting better about it, I think. But anyway...there's the practical part of me that says, birthday money should go in the bank, and there's the other part of me that says, that money was meant as a gift, so I should go get myself a gift. Clearly the latter part won out today
I was thinking about all the partying that's going on tonight with TH and how I'm missing out. And then I was noticing my things around my apartment, and I came to the somewhat startling realization that life in Austin is starting to feel more like home than life back at home-home. Don't get me wrong! I still love going home and hanging out with everyone there....but going home has almost become synonymous with taking a break/vacation. There's no routine there; I have nothing to do except vegetate on the couch and hang out with friends -- which is fun! But it's not life, right? I sort of feel like I'm hitting the pause button on my life whenever I go home. Okay, that sounds pretty dramatic....I guess I wouldn't go that far. I guess where I'm going is that this is the longest uninterrupted length of time since I started undergrad that I have lived in the same place (apartment, not city). The point I'm trying to make is this is the most moved in I've ever allowed myself to be since I moved out of my parents house. It's nice, because I spend most of my time here, and it really feels like home. But that also means it's gonna suck big time when it comes time to move -- even though I've got at least two more years here (I'm forever planning ahead).
I feel like I had something else to say, but I can't remember anymore. Mostly, this has been just one more attempt at putting off the things I've got piling up. Perhaps I'll procrastinate some more by going to sleep. Nighty-night!
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| Return of the Queen......of procrastination, that is. UGH. I so don't want to write this paper! It's hard to get motivated knowing that it's more of a completion grade than anything else, given this class is pass/fail. My time would be much better spent working on my poster for APA or reading for prospectus or something...Instead of doing any of these things, however, I'm whining on xanga.
You know what's really funny? Yesterday, Nitin commented that I never used to complain about work in high school or undergrad....I was really surprised by that, actually. I've always thought of myself as a major whiner who just always gets her shit done at the last minute. Apparently, though, I was getting my shit done without whining too much....until now, that is. It's a really interesting concept to me, the whole idea that I complain more now than I did back then. I always thought it was the opposite. I think maybe it seems that way because I talk to him so much less than I did in high school OR undergrad....that he just doesn't get to see the laid-back time waster I really am. Haha, anyways....enough procrastination for now. Back to the paper writing.
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| I think it's safe to say I've thought about writing in here at LEAST once or twice a week for the past month....probably more often than that now that I think about it. The problem is, I'm so damn lazy! I'll log in, look at my recent posts, and then move on to facebook or cnn or whatever requires considerably less energy than writing here. I think the problem is I've got SO much I want to talk about that I just don't know where to start. Even now that I've started the ball rolling, I still don't know what to say.
I guess more than anything, I've just been learning a lot about myself these past two weeks....probably more than I ever wanted to know. I'm taking this group counseling class, and most of the class is centered around an experiential/process group. In other words, it's like group therapy! I bet most people who are reading this are pretty skeptical....but it is AWESOME! Just seeing the process in action, I wonder why more people aren't in group vs. individual therapy. Given that this class is coming to a close soon....and the fact that it's not meant to be therapy (it's more of a training group that ends up being therapeutic), I'm seriously considering joining a group in the community. I've thought about this for awhile, and I really do believe that an important part of training is having been on the receiving end of therapy, but for whatever reason, I keep putting it off. I feel like knowing myself and knowing how others experience me will be so useful in helping me relate to my clients. That, and I've got a lot of shit on my plate that I can't always share with people around me. It's always nice to get objective input, right?
I must say, though, baring your soul is emotionally exhausting! And I didn't even completely bare my soul. I'm way more emotionally guarded than I realized....and now I know why. It's hard work having all your emotions just under the surface. It feels much safer to keep things superficial. BUT even as I write this, I'm realizing things about me that I didn't know even existed, or why they existed. It's definitely been an experience I won't forget.
Ok, sorry for the abrupt ending, but that's pretty much all I have to say about that.
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| Yay Barack Obama! too much wine...more on Obama being the presumptive democratic nominee at a later date | | |
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