im definitely enjoying summer.  it's just exactly how i expected it to be - fun, laidback, and lots of sleeptime!  =)  sometime this week, i'll be going to six flags/hurricane harbor with the cousins.  On july 4th, ill be going to the beach with sonia and my family.  maybe.  and then europe!  gosh, im so excited.   

since its incredibly hard for me to use transitions from paragraph to paragraph (cause they're all so random) ill just label them like hanna does. 

piano performance: hmm so i have this piano performance tomorrow.  it's for a charity thing.  im scared.  my articulation is horrible and its not smooth.  i mean, yeah, its a yann tiersen song, so it'll sound good no matter what.  but those who play music will definitely be able to tell that im not... good at the piece.    on the bright side, its not a competition or test.  so it wouldn't affect me if i were to make a mistake or just blank out during the performance.

summer english class:  i got enrolled by my parents into this summer english class called "The Learning Adventure".  it prepares you for the SAT and all that.  i had this preconcieved notion (hahah SMART WORD!) that this class would be similar to the ACI/SMA classes.  i mean, look at the name.  Learning Adventure.  Usually, it turns out to be the opposite, you know?  boy, was i wrong!  i looveee the teacher.  she's just so outspoken and funny!  and the students are friendly.  quiet, but nice.  i have so much fun in this class.  we learn so much vocabulary and we do speed reading.  i think it'll be quite a "learning adventure"! Hahahahha

cars: wowwwww.  everyone around me is starting to drive now.  melody, ben, and sabina are talking about their licenses and the cars that they want.  i see jack with his new lexus.  tim and his car.  eva and her red van or camry?  i've heard from kenny that he's going to drive.  i'd be lying if i said i wasn't envious.  cars! driving! i want to drive too!  but i can't.  not until i go to college or something, because my parents don't want me to go "crazy."  as in they don't want me going anywhere whenver i want, cause then i'll be a "crazy" kid.  get it?  yeahhh.  it sucks, but i guess i can live with that.  getting a car is not top on my priority list.  still, i want to learn to drive. 

parents and expectations: things have been not so good with my parents.  they've been pissing me off lately.  just a little.  they expect so much out of me and it really stresses me out.  99% of the time, i don't reach their expectations.  and when i don't, i get criticized.  which makes me feel like a failure.  they are supportive, considering the time and money they spend on me.  driving me everyday to here, to there.  but they're not like... the soccer moms/dads or anything.  they don't go to my games, they don't go to my swimmeets.  they don't encourage me.  i wish they did.  but anyway, im should be appreciating them for all that they've done and sacraficed for me.   they're great parents, just a little too demanding at times. 

activities?: come to think of it, i've never really achieved anything...great.  in all the activities/sports that i do, there isn't one where im very very very good at it.  i do so much, but i'm just mediocre in all of them.  maybe it's just how you view this.  both are pretty much equal, but i prefer being the best in just one sport.  i guess i am at drawing, but i don't count that. 

rop dance: dance has been nothing but fun.  the people there are great.  they all have their own styles and it's nice to have that.  Mrs. Weber, our dance teacher, puts a lot of emphasis on technicality.  and i think that's good.  because technique is REALLY important.  we do ballet and all these stretches.  which i like, because im always too lazy to stretch at home.  umm for ballet, we learn very basic things like plie, shase, leaps and turns.  nothing difficult.  it's a fun and relaxing class.  the only thing i don't like, though, is the choreography that she made for us.  we dance to the hokey pokey.  -_-   is there no better choice?   it's not anything interesting.  just up and down in lines.  maybe i expected too much.  hahah i hoped for something like orchesis!  but with a class that isn't strong in technique, you can only go so far with the choreography.  yeahh, still, its a class that i enjoy.  and im thinking of staying in the class for the full month. 

relationships: duddeeeee people are hooking up like crazy! love is definitely in the air! it's just so wierd.  everyone of my friends have that "significant other."  im beginning to feel just a little wierd being the odd one out amongst a group of pairs.  i miss that feeling of liking someone.  the excitement.  the happiness that you get.  hahahaha x]  i've been really out of it lately.  just confused about my feelings.  i like him but i dont.  i'd like to get some answers to my questions, but that's not going to happen any time soon.  life is just complicated like that, isn't it?
 
threesome: eva, christine and the swim group went to the mall today!  i wasn't there, but i talked to them on the phone for a bit.  =)  we got a green hollister jacket.  we, as in christine, eva, and me.  we, meaning that we're going to share this jacket.  how awesome is that?  it's almost like the sisterhood of traveling pants.  except its the sisterhood of traveling jacket.   get it?  =D

sophomore year: this year was just amazing.  i got a 4.0 which is something i haven't been able to do in a long time.  we had our usual fun movie outings and all that.  how many times did we go to the cove? it's become a tradition, almost! swim was wonderful; it led me to the greatest people ever.   and we became this big family - sofie, eva, christine, tina, nicole, kelsey, sonia.  wow.  there are just too many moments to list out. then there were the school events.  they were very interesting.  nevertheless FUN! hopefully, junior year will be just as exciting and enjoyable as sophomore year was.  i can't believe it!  we're upperclassmen!  time flies by too fast. 

school's almost over.  i'm ecstatic.  this year has been stressful.  i still have two more projects to go.  so after this week, things will pretty much start slowing down.  im thankful for that.  i can't wait for the summer.  i'm going to europe and i might just take that professional dance class for rop.

so my dance performance was last saturday.  and despite all the stress and long hours we had to go through, i think it was pretty well worth it.  it was extremely thrilling performing on stage.  it's such a great feeling.  i really like the whole excitement and the anxiety you get right before you go out and perform.  i'd forgotten how fun it was.  i love everything about it!  now, i realize why i've remained so persistent in dance.  cause i lovelovelovelove it and i enjoy it.  =)  yea, im probably not gonna be a professional dancer when i grow up, but i think i'm going to keep on doing this.   for YEARS to come. 



and the COOLEST part though, was when my chinese teacher called me the next day and told me how great i did.  she said i was totally the opposite from how i acted in class.  wee.  =)  yea, and my friends came, which made it even uberer than it already was.   

today, i was lectured by dr jang though, just a little.  aiyyy.  my team called me up an hour before performance to go and hit a ball or something at washington.  that was practically impossible.  i mean, i was going up on stage in an hour.  akdmfwr.  goshdarnit.  that's just unreasonable and a little too much to ask, given the situation that i was in.  where were all the other players?  dr. jang made it seem as if the blame rested entirely on me.  WUEROWEIj.   -_-  got me pretty pissed off, because it was a pretty big performance.  but im not gonna argue with him, cause i have AP bio with him next year.  =T

league prelims was today!  it was really really fun. i spent most of the time hiding under a pack of parkas though.  oh man, it was so comfortable.  i could've stayed there forever.  hahaha.  and shave day was yesterday! it was just a hilarious sight.  guys were walking around in boxers, jammers, with shaving cream all over their legs... and body (CARLOS). hahaha.  bunches of girls crowded around one guy and they were helping him shave.  i helped shave for jimmy!  i did quite well, until i got a little careless and flicked it at his knee.  then it started bleeding.  ONLY A LITTLE.  but eva and sonia got more cuts that i did, so i consider myself pretty good.  =)  CIF is next week.  tuesday and thursday.  though i wont be swimming, i'll still go because im an alternate.  im REALLY excited.  it's basically a free day at the beach, watching people swim.  it'll be an opportunity for us to use my uber PICKUPLINES!  

this last sunday, i spent the whole morning at Lucy's Bridal and Photography or something like that, taking pictures for our upcoming dance performance.  it was so fun, cause im just a camera whore.  the guy was nice enough to let me retake my portrait three times and choose.  of course, my face STILL came out chinky.  but oh well.  then i took more with costumes and all that.  i tried on my friend's toeshoes, grishko 2007s, and boy, i fell in love with them!  now that i tried her grishkos, i realize how a piece of crap my Blochs were.  her shanks were much more flexible than mine were.  maybe that's why ive been having so much trouble with pointe.  partially due to my dumb rigid shank.  i think the pictures i took came out pretty well.  can't wait!

this whole week, i've been researching up on toeshoes, so i could decide on which ones to buy.  there are SO MANY options, its so confusing.  everytime someone says grishko is good, somebody else contradicts it!  im currently leaning towards Grishko 2007s or possible Gaynor Midens, where they have this flexible already broken in shank.  I'm planning to go to a dance store though instead of purchasing it online, so that i could have a fitter help me.  that'd make life so much easier.

dance is currently occupying a big portion of my schedule.  im still a bit behind in the dance i joined, but hopefully, i'll be able to catch up by the performance.

speaking of performances, i went to watch my friend, who's part of Arcadia's Orchesis.  they were absolutely AMAZING.  im so impressed.  wowwww.  really, how come WE don't have that?  not that kind of dance team.  ugh.  i think the reason why we have Urban Step and not ... like a dance company, is because students at our school probably won't appreciate or know how to enjoy that...?  maybe.  Urban Step just isn't my thing.  i want modern dance.  i can't shake my ass.  =T  rock wid it, lean wid it... hahaha