everyone watches her in jealousy. the way she gets the best grades, has perfect hair, & the nicest clothes to wear. she wears a smile played by a skilled actress. they stare in awe & wonder "who could ever be so perfect?" the truth is, she does it so he could see her at her best, but it turns out, he doesn't even care. </3

I don't care about your past, All I wanna know is if there's a place for me in your future
* Sweet Home Alabama *

& all the best deceptions & the clever cover story awards go to you..

Tell me i'm amzaing & why..tickle me even if i say stop, you know i love it. hold my hand. tell me i'm beautiful. tell me i'm the most amazing girl you know. tell me stupid jokes, whatever it takes to make me laugh. let me wear your clothes. do things that make me smile. when i start yelling at you kiss me. kiss my forehead. kiss me in the rain. let me fall asleep in your arms. push me on swings & give me piggy back rides. call me. stay up with me all night on the phone. leave me unexpected notes saying how much i mean to you, & then we pinky promise that we'll be together forever, & i'm holding you to it.

I didn't lose my job. it's not like, 'whoops, where'd my job go?"
* American Beauty *

& so while this is completely against my beliefs, I'm going to let myself fall in love with you. Even though guys always seem to hurt me, I guess I have to take that chance. I mean if I didn't, I would probably just give up on love altogether & that has to be the saddest thing ever. So here I go again, I'm just praying this time, my heart won't end up breaking all over again. I'm all out of band-aids.

I hate the way you make me smile, the way even if its the worst day of my life, i look at you & it takes everything away, i hate how you say the stupidest things but i still fall in love with every word you say, i hate the way you dress, the way you act around your friends, the things you say to me, the way you treat me, i hate how beautiful you are. The thing i hate most of all is me, i hate me for loving you

people tell me you arent cute or hot & that your ugly &
they dont see why i like you & i could do better but baby
in my eyes your the only one for me

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
* Rob Thomas ; Ever The Same *

You forgive me for liking you too much
I'll forgive you for not liking me enough
you forgive me for the loud racing of my heart
I'll forgive you for not hearing it
you forgive me for finding you so attractive
I'll forgive you for not noticing
you forgive me for wanting to be with you
I'll forgive you for avoiding me
you forgive me for being so pathetic
I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it
you forgive me for not being able to let go
& I'll forgive you for never having latched on

I can't tell him to his face
I'm afraid of what he'll do
So now I've decided to write it
To my small piece of heaven, this is for you.. <3

You've always been my perfect match
it seemed it was made to be that way
you've always been my favorite to cuddle with
I'll never forget those perfect days

 look into your eyes & couldnt tell you what i see..
cus there's no explanation for what you do to me
I wanna hold your hand, & see the smile on your face,
It's not just your body, but your love I need to embrace..

She wanted to meet the right guy first.
Someone who inspired her,
the kind of guy she would be proud to call her man.
* True Believer ; Nicholas Sparks *

She wanted a man who was both sensative & kind, but at the same time could sweep her off her feet after a long day at work, but also challenge her intellectually. Someone romantic, of course, & the kind of guy who would buy her flowers for no reason at all.
* True Believer ; Nicholas Sparks *

Missing someone feels like the earth crumbles beneath you ;
you are falling with nothing to grab, & it comes when you
don't expect it, & it never stops coming.

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up & biting us on the ass. & when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired. We are scared. Denying it doesn't change the truth. Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial & face the world, head on, guns blazing. Denial. It’s not just a river in Egypt. It's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?
*Grey's Anatomy *

The girl cried out to God & asked, "Why did i loose him?"
God replied, "You didnt loose him, you let him go.."

Somewhere out there i know someones watching over me..
someone out there loves me & someone out there wants me..
just wish i knew who that someone was </3

Monica: Chandler, for so long I..I wondered if I would ever find my prince, my soul mate. Then three years ago, at another wedding I turned to a friend for comfort. & instead, I found everything that I’d ever been looking for my whole life. & now..here we are..with our future before us..& I only want to spend it with you, my prince, my soul mate, my best friend.
Chandler: Monica, I thought this was going to be the most difficult thing I ever had to do. But when I saw you walking down that aisle I realized how simple it was. I love you. Any surprises that come our way, it's okay, cus I will always love you. You are the person I was meant to spend the rest of my life with.
* Friends *

You can show up at my house, completely unannounced.
We'll have that movie kiss we talked about.

I love you. Everything that I've been through with you had been worth the tears. I love the way you make me feel. When you're here ; nothing else in the world exists, nothing else matters, & I need that. I need you. You're my one reason for happiness. & every time we go through moments like this, it reminds me of how thankful I am that someone like you loves me too. You don't have to be perfect for me, I don't want perfect. All I need is you ; just as you are. As long as you love me.

No matter how you put it, you're gonna fall, & it's scary as hell,
except if theres an upside to free falling,
it's the chance you give your friends to catch you
* Grey's Anatomy *

It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
Here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is it real or am I dreaming
* Dave Matthews *

I know it's hard for us to be together
but I do understand it's harder to live without
one another. I just want to let you
know that even though we can't be together
we will never ever be apart cus the
love that I have for you will always grow
stronger, as long as I live.

We can chill all day & still end up talking on the phone all night.
You never see one of us without the other.
Wear a cute outfit she'll smile & call you a slut.
I pick up a cookie & she tells me to put it down & look at my butt.
We can laugh until we cry even if it’s not that funny.
We're best friends forever & always together. 

We have dumbass moments, get mad over stupid shit,
make fun of the craziest things, & in the end you're still my best,
a sister like none of the rest, fresh to death.

It has gotten to the point where if I had to choose between falling in love
& reading a book about falling in love..I'd choose the book. * Nikos Kazananski *

As I lay on the floor & wonder why
The question lingers why did you die
I thank God for you & the memories
But I still wish you were here with me..

Growing up happens in a heartbeat.
One day you're in diapers ; next day you're gone.
But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul.

Growing up happens in a heartbeat.
One day you're in diapers ; next day you're gone.
But the memories of childhood stay with you for the long haul.

Sometimes i wish i could just be a little kid again, so when life gets tough you can just play pretend..I wanna go back to when santa did exist..when your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed..When disney world was the best place to be..When the only movies you could see were rated G..When your biggest problem was learning to write your name..& people didnt change..& your friends were the same..& everytime you were sad or you had a bad day you could just run to mommy & it would all be okay..I wanna go back to no hurt..& no pain..just laughter..when everyone always lives happily every after

I love being with you. I don't have to work hard to impress anyone..you know all my faults. I can cry in front of you, & you'll just hold me until I stop..or I can laugh so hard I cry..& you'll laugh with me until we're both crying. & it's perfect. How sometimes we don't have to say anything. Just being together is enough. Even though we know everything about each other, we still never run out of things to talk about. Your always there for me, either to hold me or laugh with me. you've been with me through everything & I can't imagine not having you in my life. I love having you in my life <3

I'm in love with you..everthing about you, & it's very new to me. I thought I was in love once, but nothing compares to you, everyone says you have one first love. I didn't believe them, honestly I didn't believe that love could happen to me, & then..I met you..

When i'm away from you ; i'm still with you
When my eyes are closed ; i still see you
When i'm awake ; i still dream of you
When i have everything ; i still need you
& no matter what ; i'll always love you.

From the day i saw you, I thought it couldn't be true.
How could i fall for someone i hardly even knew?

You know what the worst feeling in the world is?
When someone you have been crushing on forever,
when someone you love with all your heart,
when someone gives you butterflies when he walks by,
when someone you dream about everyday,
& someone you would give absolutley anything to..
feels the same way ; just not about you

The thing i love most about you is
how you can make me laugh when nothings funny..

I just want so many things in life..but baby your
always gunna be the first thing i want..

It's amazing how you feel about him whenever your around him. Nothing else matters. How your heart stops & your left breathless & no matter how many times he breaks your heart he always seems to put the pieces back together..</3