Ehmm starting on xanga AGAIN for like the 5th time

Well so I told you about that fitness program i did ryte?  I did NOT lose any pounds..i was hella pissed off but my muscles were real toned and u can see distinct lines i guess thats why i didnt loose any ^_^'  BUT from goin to hip hop dance classes and pratices i lost FIVE! let me say that one more time FIVE as in 5!!! POUNDS!!! WOW amazing meaning i couldve just kept dancing instead of working out with other stupid routines hella happy! 5lbs is considered alot to me cuz im sick of ppl calling me fat.  anyways junior year....meaning now, i noticed that im trying HELLA hard to study and crap like that i never studied more than once in the past two years but i dunno wuts with the determination in me ryte now to start doing better i guess im just mad at myself for not trying at all the past two years and feeling useless all the time.  hmmm wut else can i talk about....oh!  the more u say i cant do sumthing or doing sumthing wrong i will try even more hard to prove it to u that i can do it cuz these past days some bitches be bitching at me for doing things not correctly when their the ones that is not >=O PISS NGO OFF! hm hm hmmmmmmmm dont u girls feel sad when u like sumone but the person likes another girl instead of u?? i wonder if my mysterious guy in white is like that.....*Sigghhhhhh* ANYWAYS i aint trippin. i guess.  im just saying wutever that comes in my mind ryte now...omg! an ant on my table KILLLLLL anyways.  i wonder why im scared to meet new guys....>=O gimme some tips girls -.-  im not a flirter so give me some easy to do tipssssssss oh yeah i like one of my free mods ^_^!!! cuz uh yeah i get to see my dude in white ^_^''''' anyways i heard that some folks tryna to be little 18 year old girls to scope out pedophiles like ages 45+ that digs on them so they can arrest them for felony har har har i laugh at them stupiders thats wut they get pwahahahahaha anyways did u ask wut i did today? ok! ill tell u

wakeup, skoo, chill at thai and had some negativity goin on, got home, do my homework, taste my mucus, typing this crap out, and yeah still typing and so on. keke

OMG this dude in my class called me a freshman >=O i remember when i was a freshmen errone thought i was a sophomore/junior and now that im a junior they think im a freshman, what a bitch. dodododododoooo im so hyper ryte now full of energy! im asking tiffany to entertain me but shes not realli entertaining me >=\ uhm yeah payce out!

Kay, time to start a new blog again.  Sure has been a long ass time, don't even know what to talk about since so much things had happened to me...

Sometimes I feel so dumb it pisses me off and makes me go to an emotional state.  I admit I am a pity sometimes.  People act like I'm really dumb too, but sometimes I'm really not.  I guess anger is the only thing that makes me go into emotional state. Talking about being emotional...I keep thinking why people have friends, maybe for the benefits.  Everything a person does with a friend is all benefits if you think more about it.  I just have to say, when some friends get mad at you for little shit... just don't be their friend.  It is better off that way, less drama...truthfully.  Damn... none of you people don't even know how much I go through.  All of you think my life is so goddam easy saying I'm rich and spoiled when I'm not  all of you have to stop assuming shit like that to me I'm sick of it.  I go through this bullshit every single night that it hurts to continue on.  Yes, I may look suicidal..thats because I am.  What's stopping me is the thought of friends,family, and life, but wait...its them that makes my life miserable.  I'm just stuck in between.  These things....are causing me to have nightmares.  I never had them when I was in a good mood..and trust me my nightmares are worst than what you see in the scary movies.

Kay...enough of my FEELINGS..let's go to what I've been doing.

I started out my fitness program for summer

• Eat a Special K cereal
• Do ab lounge and stick sit-ups every morning(get my other 4 packs)
• 500 jump roping
• 2 skip up Visitacion Valley's stairs and repeat at least 10+(tones ur legs)
• Hike up the Mclaren park the hard way(steep hill no sidewalks)
• Play badmington and tennis up there with my left hand so I can make it the same size as my right hand
• Play basketball
• Hike back down the hill to my house
• Lift weights on left hand (once my left hand is big enough I'm going to start toning out both arms) I really want slight muscle lines on my arms
• Then, eat Keloggs healthy snack bar
• Clean half of my house and eat another Special K cereal for lunch
• Finish cleaning (cleaning your house can loose calories)
• Do a calorie loosing dance rountine daily.  Work up a sweat.
• Then eat dinner 4 hours BEFORE you sleep, that will deifinitely help u loose weight because you are not suppose to eat before you sleep thats how you GAIN weight which is really bad...

Let me tell you guys something about the Keloggs cereal:

The Special K Diet

• Eat a serving of Kellogg's® Special K®, Special K® Red Berries, Special K® Vanilla Almond, Special K® Fruit & Yogurt or Special K® Low Carb Lifestyle Protein Plus cereal with 2/3 cup skim milk and fruit for two meals a day.
• Eat your third meal as you normally do.
• For snacks, choose from fresh fruits and vegetables or a Special K® Bar.
• Consume beverages as you normally do and eat fruits as snacks.

The Claim
"Lose 6 Pounds in 2 Weeks"

The Interpretation
"If you currently have a poor diet, but substitute it with our cereal - you may lose 4.4 pounds over the first two weeks. You will be probably feel very hungry while restricting your calories, and will may find eating cereal for dinner or lunch to be untenable after a while. Boredom could well set in. History shows that a low-fat, higher-carb diet can work, but in the long run it may backfire".

That said - you could do a lot worse than eating cereal, skim milk, and fruit - it's a lot healthier than the average American meal...

I will definitely let all of you know if this works or not because I want you guys to be fit too  and to not turn into a obese person which most Californians are about to become.

Anyways I started on making up dance moves and picking out songs for next year's talent show...I have to admit we were booboo this year.  If I start earlier then we will be better!  Since we did only get 2 weeks to practice T_T.  I'm also researching alot about haunted places.  I believe in ghosts sometimes, but if it  sounds unreasonable then its fake.

OKAY! What I did today...

Woke up at 7am went to the washing place at Leland to wash my big blanket with my mom.  Then I met up with Tiffany at the Rutland bus stop getting ready to rollerblade to Sheryl's house..
FLASHBACK:(not the exact words)
Tiffany:  I'm gonna roll down the hills!
Me: No, don't its too dangerous and steep, you can't rollerblade on steep hills
Tiffany: Yes, I can!
Me: Don't do it...it's too dangerous...
Tiffany: Yes, I can!  Just watch me roll down the hill and you will see me ah!!!!
Me:  Okay.
*woosh ok back to the present*
Tiffany called me and told me she was too scared to go down the hill and said it's too scary.  Then she came down and met up with me at the bus stop and told me she crashed into one of the garbage cans while rolling ahahah! What did I say Tiffany!?!?! Laugh out loud.  So we switched to our rollerblades and start blading to Sheryl's house and saw Shirley on the way, hope she doing good.  We made it to Sheryl's house quickly and safely.  Chilled at her house, ate some gummy bears and had Shing pick us up to go to Presidio.  We got there and played DDR,CRAZY, and this jewel thing Tiffany played haha. We watched all the BDT and GDT guys (i wasn't really interested but oh well)  saw some dudes crying when the results aren't even out yet o.O.  I have to say I knew LoBDT guys would win first place definitely no need to be emotional .  LoGDT did good too very sharper than other schools, I think they should've got 1st place for being sharper than others.  They PROBABLY didn't get it because too little people.  Well, congrats to both teams and DP.  After that, we went down to the lake near Golden Gate and ate .  Walked back up to Presidio to catch 29 bus and OH MY GOD the ride from Presidio to Home was one hour in a half...oh my god... when we got out of that bus our faces were all like dead and tired.  Felt like I just got back from China on the plane jeez what a long ass ride..woo. Got home and shit is happening again..I have to say, home is not that sweet...it's more like hell. I swear, people these days got to stop budging in my room like some angry bitch!  It's getting hella fucking annoying.

Well, that's all....go download the song Rihanna-We ride it's really nice
PEACE OUT *hits chest twice, kiss fist, pops the peace sign out*

I felt someone watching me, but don't know who.  Me, Sheryl, Melvin, Steven, Bright went to hang out at the Bungalows.  I saw a guy from one of the opposing bungalow through a window looking at us.  When I turn back my head to Sheryl I saw her sitting alone in front of a fence and above her was green and yellow signs saying she's next.  The paint started to flow down the fence and I screamed.  We all ran except for Sheryl, she was saying she HAVE to stay.  So we left without her.  Suddenly I couldn't walk at all, I couldn't move my legs.  I asked Steven to give me a piggyback ride, but as usual him being a lazy ass didn't give me one.  So I asked Melvin, same with him...he didn't want to give me a piggyback ride.  So I asked Bright, he was kind enough to give me one. We all ran to the bart station.  When we got onto the bart,  we saw VincentC.  The intercom went in...the voice of Micheal Myers came in and said, "This bart will not stop, the doors will not open, there is no chance in getting out."  I was so scared, I didn't know what to do.  Suddenly we reached Visitacion Valley, the doors suddenly opened.  Me, Steven, Melvin, and VincentC ran out the open doors.  Bright stayed on so he can get home.  I asked VincentC, "Can I stay at your house for awhile?  I don't want to be home alone."  VincentC said, "Sorry I can't, me and my mom have to go out somewhere." Melvin left already, so I asked Steven, "Steven let me stay at your house please." and he said ok.  We went to his house and we found an envelope full of pictures...of me...and behind the curtains on the outside of the windows I saw Micheal Myers looking at me and he left.  I got so scared I thought he was coming in Steven's house.  So I ran out and ran to my house.  When I got in my house and closed the gate behind me, I saw a old man running up the hill of my street screaming..and there was a clear tube stuck behind his neck with fluid coming out. I ran up my stairs, called 911 and told the police,"There's a person trying to kill me! Please come NOW ARLETA AVENUE HURRY PLEASE!"  Then,  Michael Myers rang the doorbell and put his arms onto the gate.  Sushi, my dog ran down as usual when she hears the bell. I tried to hold her back and kept calling her to come back up, but she wouldn't listen.  Somehow Michael Myers got in my house, holding Sushi and he came up to me.  I sobbed and said, "Give her back to me NOW!!!!"  He pulled out his knife and start knifing Sushi on the back of her neck.  I kept screaming, "No! No! Please!!! Don't!"  I kept crying and fell to my knees feeling useless and just wanted to give up there.

I woke up crying and trembling...looked around...noticing that it was all just a DREAM...a HORRIBLE dream...it was 5:30 AM.. and still felt the presence of Michael Myers in my room.  So tired, trembling, tearing, I was too scared to go back to sleep, but I couldn't help but to keep falling back to sleep, I stuffed my head into the bunch of stuffed animals next to me...and fell asleep.  And I got back into the SAME dream....

I stood up and went up to him trying to get back Sushi.  He slashed me on my left arm a couple of times and I asked him.."Why me?! Tell me! *sniff* WHYYY!!!!!!!!!!!"

And I woke up again...couldn't believe that I fell asleep and went back to the same dream it was 5:45 AM. I turned on the T.V.  Watched disney channel just to try and make myself feel better.  I fell asleep again, but this time I didn't dream of anything or maybe I couldn't remember.  At 8:00 AM my mom woke me up.

*Sigh my scaryass dreams are killing me.