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Name: Evangelina
Country: United States
Birthday: 11/26/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: Eating, sleeping, playing mario kart... buffy... mario party 5... and eating and sleeping ooo yeah and demanding fruit juice
Expertise: Eating... sleeping... eating... playing mario kart... buffy... mario party 5... and eating... and sleeping
Occupation: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/30/2004
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| last night was awesome!Wow... never again will I get high and then drive... and never again will I get high and then go home to an empty house... I hallucinate when I get high... I definately thought there was someone in my house and they were gonna kill me. But for the little amount of sleep I got... I feel well rested. | | |
| HeyAnd ya'll I'm back
Things are returning to normal... not something I'm used to
I'm not so sure I like it, but I have to keep trying and give it a shot because the other life I fell in love with got torn all to hell.
Randi is in the army, Danielle moved out with the love of her life
Meghan and Dave are kaputt so I'm told,
Kyle moved in,
Kieth don't hang no more and I've not hear from Erol since the early days
Chris and Liz ain't really welcome
Cassy and Charles split
And I don't know whats up wit the others ain't heard from em'
not really sure they're alive.
Then I'm caught in the middle tryin to keep everything the way it was
And live my new/old life
So me and B are tight again
Chris called me I'm gonna go see up to delta to see him soon... hopefully if I have a job for the money
I'm back at home... cleaning my ass off because I have no job and I can't sit still...
I would drive but I've no gas money,
I gotta make more time for mark and amanda
I gotta hold Cici togetha'
I gotta hold my shit togetha' too... ain't workin' out too well. I miss havin' fun... But good news met a cute boy
I see them everywhere now. | | |
| Shity choicesToo bad I'm so fucking stubborn and I don't learn nor do I give up
It takes too much energy to give up than it does to keep fighting with inertia on my side.
And I finally heard it I knew it, but someone finally said it too me so I am taking a fairly large step I feel like hell really is on earth.
There went shity relationship number 2, although it was long gone I don't let things go very easily.
And I'm back at sqaure one
And I swear people lie when they say its okay only to spare their own pain from glancing at yours.
Everyone lies, everyone cheats... no one is loyal...
Lord prove me wrong... though I doubt it and that's okay
I'll still keep looking. | | |
| I really do hate everyoneI'm tired of being told: 1. What to do... When I can't
2. What's good for me... When it's not
3. "I love you/like you but..."... When you don't
4. "Trust me"... When I shouldn't
5. "Let down your guard"... When I shouldn't
6. "It's okay" When its not
7. "In a little while" When you won't I'm so tired of being told
I'm just so tired. | | |
| Worst day everSo wednesday was the worst day of my entire life, Jenni didn't get around to half of the things in the production book so Pam and I stressed ourselves trying to get out of there on time and do everything, the two didn't happen simultaneously. And my father was yelling at me for forgetting my check, I was already stressed because Ben and I weren't getting along at that point, and I didn't trust him so we had to end it, but I made the mistake of telling Mark who ran his mouth (suprise suprise not like he ever understood the meaning of confidant) to ben but it all worked out because ben talked to mark and mark told me so come to find out he was trying to get with another girl instead of getting the balls to just break up with me. So now he is right in line with all of the other crack smoking, wife beating, child molesting, pieces of shit men in my life What the hell did I do to be treated with so little resepect? Why do I keep getting screwed over? and most of these relationships aren't even mine but by default I pay the toll. It's not fair, he's a shallow ass he never really resepected me at all but he gets to go on with his pleasantville fucking life, Karma does not exist at all, because its me and my family that gets dumped in shits creek. I hate everyone, and I'm pist off as all hell, its like I'm constantly angry I'm angry because I'm never frikin' happy, I feel like there is something sitting on my chest all the time, like I'm mourning something that hasn't died yet, I'm constantly waiting for the other shoe to fall, but it feels like I'm grieving all the time. I give up I'm just so tired anymore | | |
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