Three Years.

For Now.

For now... things are kind of ok. Things have cooled off... But I know it won't be that way for long.

School is over in 2 weeks, which means I need to work my ass off.

Prom is this Saturday, and my AP test is tomorrow.

I need to do well on that test.

I stayed home today to study for it... and I'm just taking a break because I don't think I can read too much more of it without getting a headache.

Faris might be leaving for Montenegro soon so he can vote for their independence of Serbia... so I support him, and his decision to go... even if he will miss our three year, I know it's important to him, which is why I don't want to make a big deal of him going. Even if I will miss him insanely.

I just texted Melissa, I'm going to call her after school today to see how things are... So...yeah... hum.

I wonder how Ilma's doing... we haven't talked in a while... last time we did she was studying for her test... I think that was last week... I hope she did well... well... no... I'm SURE she did well.

I was talking to John a day or two ago... he's my Career Consultant... we found that it's going to cost $58,000 to go thru a PA program at Emory... that's IF I can even get in...

I think things are ok with Dev and me now, I think the whole project just kinda stressed the both of us out... but thank God it's done, and we both got grades over a 100. Prom should be fun, we finally got everything together and on a super low buget too...

I saw Sushi yesterday morning @ 3AM he took me to walmart to get some stuff for the project... hah... he's coming over again today with some stuff printed for me for psych... idk where I'd be without that kid... he's so great and he's always there... even if he is a psycho that starts xanga wars lol

I have soccer practice today but I'm not going cause I need to study for my test... but I'll definitely be going Thursday... I think maybe soccer has kind of gotten my life back in order... it's a way for me to get out of the house, unstress a little, and get into shape all in one... even if there are no girls there to talk with or gossip with or whatever... it's kind of cool playing with the guys... even if I can't keep up all the time and some of them scare me lol. I'm glad me and Michael are friends... he's pretty cool for getting me into this again... plus he's mad funny and not too bad of a driver ;)

Anyway so I'm trying to get everything completely back to normal with everyone before summer starts... God knows I need summer to just unwind.

MANY MANY MANY Thanks to everyone who's had to put up with me for the last year. I seriously don't mean to be a cold hearted bitch... I just stress easily and anger is my release... I'm definitely working on it...

Wow, Wow, Wow.

Hum. I have so much on my plate right now.

I guess I wish my mouth was bigger. Hah, just kidding.

Anyway... things have been getting a LITTLE bit better but not really I just like to think they are.

Things are cool with me and Ilma... we talked the other day.

I'm afraid to talk to Melissa because she's the one mad at me... so shortly I'm just going to give up on that friendship I guess. I can't deal with that bothering me as much as it does. And I don't think she really wants to do too much to fix it. Even though it wasn't really broken... it was just put on hold. Sorry I had stuff going on.

So anyway. Through all of this it's interesting to see who I can really depend on. Even if they can't depend on me all of the time. And I know I'm sorry for that. Even if they don't care.

So history has been pretty boring but Dev and I have a hippie project coming up that we've got a lot of great ideas for. I'm so far behind in math it's unbelieveable. But as soon as I actually START to catch up it should be no problem. Physics is cool... Mrs. McLane is being really nice about everything. Art. Seriously it makes me want to jump out a window. English I have two projects coming up, one includes reading a book and another is like 3 stories... and then I STILL have yet to actually get my paper COMPLETELY finished. Ugh. Psych is cool I have a project in there next week with Devika and Emily... it'll be fun.

So anyway... I called my dad yesterday and he never called me back. Figures.

Today is a lazy day and I think I might go get some more sleep.

I'm supposed to be going to Laura's party but I don't think I'll go... I don't have any $ to get her anything and it'll be a bunch of people I just don't know.

Patrick said he'd call me after he got home from work around 6... so I'll probably go on a walk with him.

and that's pretty much it. I'm getting together with Devika Sunday for the psych project... and dev tomorrow prob.

Spring Break...

has done nothing but give me a headache.

I've been making up work from the school I've missed from being in court and then at the funeral.

My great grandmother died. which is the funeral I attended in CT.

The wake totally creeped me out.

The funeral part was really short.

And the guy who was watching my dogs lost my dogs on MONDAY and didn't call or anything and we found out WEDNESDAY when someone called my mom.

The lady eventually found my moms dog.

We went to get her, after I had driven us back down from CT to GA (we also got lost in NY for 2 hours)

THEN my moms dog jumped up while I was driving and I got in an accident. I killed the left bumper, light, and I moved the hood.

Yeah.

My dad got served divorce papers yesterday and called this morning to tell us to start packing. (assuming we're not going to get to keep the house.)

And so I've spent my break being a total wreck with stress, school, and cleaning.

And I think Lindsay is coming today because her spring break is next week. So THAT should be interesting.

Ilma is mad at me because I didn't call her back, even though I found out that I was only a second thought because someone else ditched her. Not like I've had time to hang out with anyone anyway.

And I'm sure Melissa is mad at me for not remembering/attending her performance. And I haven't talked to her in FOREVER. ugh.

SO.

That's my life right now, and I suppose I'm going to go back upstairs and continue cleaning. woo hoo.

Happy St. Patrick's Day

This week would have totally sucked if I didn't get to see Faris every day of it.

And thank God for him coming Wednesday night. I love him so much.