so....reading some entries of my friends livejournal, I've decided that maybe I should start writing stuff too, I dunno, maybe to vent stuff, a kind of therapy. I tell myself I'm not gonna try and sound smart, because I can't and because it would probably be embarassing, because I'm gonna keep in mind that these entries will be public.

My grandfather used to keep a diary of his daily life, up till the point that he died. Sometimes I wish I could have known him better. He seemed like a good guy, supported his wife and 10 children.... What's fucked up I think though is that after he died, all of his possessions were burned, including the diary and his Kendo equipment was thrown away. I think the way he died was pretty dramatic...or not, maybe beautiful...or not... He woke up, just as he did everyday, always the first one to wake up, shower, eat etc...and first thing does is sit in his chair, and there is where his life ended, in that chair. The chair was burned when he died. At his funeral, it is tradition to have possessions made of paper so they can be burned and technically those object will be in his hands when he is in heaven. Amongst the usual possesions he had and you would think he would like to have in heaven, a paper Mercedez-Benz was made. He never owned a Mercedez-Benz, but his children say that he always would have wanted one.

Now I'm in studio, I had a pretty bad day, I was to the point of just blowing up in frustration, I could feel the temples in my head burning... . I am grateful for this ability to just suppress things or realize that things can't be all that bad. A lot of things are in my mind. I regret being open to say and do what I want because it has resulted in assumptions about me which are annoying. Worst is when people make assumptions about you, and then rub it in your face. I try not to care anymore, and try and smile and laugh it off. But I am the type of person who does care what people think about me or else I wouldn't be so frustrated. I hate having to be careful in the stuff I say, or question what I say, especially if it was just a joke, but people take things too seriously or in the wrong way. It's not their fault I suppose, no matter what I say I feel like I am being judged, I don't get that feeling when i'm with friends who understand.

HEY QING..I'VE BEEN TRYING TO REACH YOU FOR A YEAR NOW, SINCE YOUR PHONE NUMBER DOESNT WORK AND I RARELY GO ON AIM? WELL I RARELY GO ON TOO SO I GUESS DIS IS THA BEST WAY..SOOO...SEND ME YOUR CONTACT INFO YOUR CELLPHONE NUMBER UR DADS CELLPHONE NUMBER...ETC... PLEASEE!! THANKS

L

im home (sigh of relief...)

Taipei, Taiwan

(NOT THAILAND...) hahaha..for tha americans who don't know any better...

and an entry wouldnt b complete unless of course....

(for jen ha..since i dunno ur email address and cant comment u... staying here till like july 1st then hk...so dont come to asia unless im where u are at dat time!!! late)

People try dis... if u want me to do one for you just tell me.... i jus chose some people i knew randomly...

Leave a comment &...
1. I'll respond with a song that reminds me of you, if not a song, a phrase of some sort.
2. I'll tell you what first came to mind when I met you
3. I'll tell you something I like about you
4. I'll tell you a word that makes me think of you
5. & Finally, my favorite memory with you

Sarah Chung

1. len - if you steal my sunshine

2. she looks sort of like...a fish...ahem..cough..cough...just kidding...

3. how u like to show everyone your sunburns... when your suppose to be waitressing..

4. sunburn..

5. drinking at mok hwa and then goign to ktv afterward...even though it was shitty cuz i couldnt sing cuz i had a cough...

Chung Liu

1. "how does this pertain to the subject matter" and "can you shut tha fuck up before i castrate you?"

2. wow..im sure he makes up for lack of hair w/ personality...haha..

3. articulate in terms of speaking, and sarcastic in terms of telling people to fuck off lol..

4. masochistic/intricate+anal when it comes to art/ak-47/bbguns

5. JV Volleyball....warming the benches...bitching bout linzel...cracking up whenever jon tse served da ball...and then proceeded to imitate him for kicks...team spirit mahhhhassss...getting to know you better...we understood each other..it was kool

Michelle Chestler

1. Any song we sang in choir in middle school...

2. wow....shes pale...

3. how i sometimes make jokes which aren't that funny and i can always count on you to laugh to the point that u sound like an idiot hahaha and maybe you'll snort if im lucky... oh dont even try and deny it...you snort.

4. Eurasian... cuz u are one.. duhhh

5. when i asked u to marry me!? i forget why i even did that....ohhhhhh rite...cuz u kept asking me to go out with you....so i thinking of ways to get back at you and asking you to marry me seemed like da only suitable way to beat you at ur own game....obviously...

Jason Chung

1. dat techno song dat goes "the blue pill...the red pill..the blue pill....."

2. pshhh...what a raver wannabe... i hope he doesnt dink he can start hangin out wit us... (a few weeks later) Fuck...he's hangin out wit us now...

3. u are always doin crazzy sheit wit ur artt

4. candykid...

5. art class...when i would imitate esther's british accent "Hello, my name is Esther and I'm from Hong Kong" and dat would crack you up like hella...to tha point that you would sit in ur room alone...suddenly think about me imitating her and crack up (your cracking up now...arent u...)

Chan Mi

1. most trance/hiphop/dance songs...when im listenin to dem i like to picture my friends (who dance) dancin wit me on tha dancefloor and u are usually one of them....

2. Wow...shes soo friendly (not necessarily a good thing in my opinion hahaha...) and talks a lot?

3. how you are good at making awkward situations unawkward and treat me as if i've been there all along..even though i havent exactly been... =S like how everytime i see u...its like a reunion of something good and that makes the day better

4. sorority...haha

5. that day it was reaally late and i was helpin u wit da time arts project recordin all dese random songs n comin up wit crazyass ideas...haha...and i hate these really gross korean snack things ha.

Nina Huang

1. elva - ni shi wo de zhu da ge ...cuz u...or jen? sang dat at ktv when i first went wit u in Taipei...

2. meeting someone in person beats talking online wit dem any day

3. how you cared sincerely and we could trust each other

4. long-distance haha?

5. sophomore year summer...chillin' in Taipei...talkin on tha phone tha nite before i was leaving...if u even remember dat? i suck at keeping in touch.. sorry...

Jen Ha

1. That song dat kept playing on da radio while we were driving around in Boston (u kno it...)

2. Mainlander!?!?! lol...

3. ur jokes that arent really jokes cuz they aren't funny and just make you end up sounding like an idiot and ur a psycho which is kool..and how ur always thinking of others...

4. anal...retarded...just kidding bout da retarded...

5. watchin movies at studio when we should have be working..and boston bowl... haha..ur bowling technique...

Tory Kam

1. any korean song... and i listen to korean music VERY OFTEN...get da picture?? haha not... jinusean - a-yo lol..rememebr dat shit!? (when we sort of performed it in front of the student body to promote...skool pryde!?!....cough..cough...)

2. asians sure do look wierd here at SAS

3. those looks u give me after i've just dissed you or korea and when u quietly/dicreetly threaten to kick my ass when ur tipsy at pegasus... and how you are very disciplined in ur goals/paths in life

4. lingerie (haha u kno why..)

5. those student council days... and that last day before u were leaving for korea... and we sat at da benches behind starbucks in gu bei with our different flavored japanese sodas (which didnt taste very good but were hella expensive) getting bit by mosquitos..

Reika Mineta

1. "let go" (japanese song by wasureta kai wanai deta nihombashi san featuring akiko denwa) and dat song by stacie orrico u sing at ktv and complicated by avril lavigne

2. JAPANESEEE PERSONNN!!!! (MUST. SEEK. TARGET.)

3. nothing.... haha... well.. the fact dat ur japanese cuz i just LOVE JAPAN AND JAPANESE PEOPLE ESPECIALLY THOSE FROM TOKYO...BUT..WAIT A MINUTE..ARENT U FROM NAGASAKI!?!?! pshhh.....

4. any japanese word like...niigata or hello kitty...haha

5. that nite we went to mint...and i paid for everything... wait...thats like every nite....is tha BANK OF TOKYO OPEN YET!?!

Jansen Moon

1. Jack's Mannequin - Mixed tape

2. haa shit! its dat loser whose xanga i stubbled upon and had a picture of yohei/jieyin in one of his pics!?!

3. ur cheap haircut...haha.... u are a sincerely nice person...always willing to be there...hope i can b dere for you

4. FAT....KIDDDING...haha...i was fat too u knooo.... haha neway.... existentionalism (after dat convo we had...) and staten island..i dunno anyone else who fucking lives dere...

5. ...my birthday...driving in circles..waiting for da song to end...thanks a lot man...