...hadn't written in a while.Saturday was good
performance seemed pretty good
but my life is going down hill.
Im still drowning.
Im in love with the girl of my dreams
and i want to give her the world.
She doesnt know how much she means to me.
this is the first time i have ever felt like this before.
sure, there have been other girls, but none of which i have loved.
I have never been in love before
I'm scared.
Im terrified.
I can do magic
My life is so confusing right now.
I dont know where its going or where it is right now.
Its like im being lead into a dark room carrying other peoples baggage in hopes that i might find the RIGHT door to open.
Im scared i will find the wrong door.
if it wasnt for bad luck, i wouldnt have luck at all
You dont drown by being thrown in water
you drown by staying there.
but i cant get out!
She wants to help, but i dont want her to get wet.
make sense?
i have to get out some how before i drown
its litertally killing me inside.
i cry, yeah, i know
i cry alot.
nobody really knows.
i get emotional
I just want to be normal.
I want to be able to talk to her.
I want that so bad!
but i cant. i dont know why,
its hard for me to do
but i love her nonetheless
I am making progress
but very little
someday, somehow, i will be better
but for right now, i still sit in my corner
i still splash in the water
and i need her so much!
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