OK...i def. need to stop abusing my xanga so much. I've been working out like a fuckin crazy person lately *yesterday jogged 9 fuckin miles and then roller bladed 12* I must say i'm proud of myself for that...BUT i've been binging n purging like a fuckin crazy person also. So not good and I feel totally bloated and disgusting bc i'm starting my period.

Got the best compliment from my dad EVER. He's the one thats always said i was fat n w/e and he looked at me the other day when i was walkikng by in my sports bra and hes like jesus you're getting skinny! ... i seriously started bawling my eyes out in my room i was so happy and i NEVER cry.

The my ex best friend that slept with my bf started telling everyone im "hardcore anorexic" i was like greaaaat. She's like "shes not even THAT skinny tho." grrr...ill show u u stupid bitch. Her schools homecoming is in a lil over a month and my date: her ex bf that she lost her virginity too :) .... biiiiiiiiiitch! haha.

Recent Pic....not really sure how much i am here, i've been waaay too scared to step near the scale lately:

Currently Listening Under My Skin By Avril Lavigne **He Wasn't** see related

CW: 116

Well I must say I'm in a  lot better mood than I was last week about whats-his-face. Yah so he's fuckin the girl we work with? So what....I'm so close to being perfect it doesnt matter. She doesn't have shit on me and she knows it. She's constantly trying to keep him away from me. Its ok though, I'm starting to get over him, i just like flirting with him n being a lil bitch to him bc he likes games, so we shall play sum fuckin games.

I've decided to fast until sunday. Just because....i can? IDK. I saw him making out with her and it just gave me a shitload of motivation. I feel like i should be mad jealous...but i'm not. I'm just like psh w/e I'll be skinnier, prettier, and nicer than her, and when you want me back .. i def. won't be there. Anyone else get like this about guys? IDK I'm done talking about him. Thanks for listening to me girls, you guys are all right: Guys ARE assholes & they don't deserve nice girls like us that kill themselves to be perfect for them.
New Goal: 110 by Sept. 12

Hope you all are doing well I'll comment when I get back from my run <3

Currently Listening Memory By Sugarcult see related

CW: 117.5

I HATE HIM! OMG! Sorry girls its just been a stressful day.. I'm 2 months late n i found out the guy i was with like all summer is datin sum hoe we work with. OMG i hate guys so much! I just wanna hit him in the face. What do I have to do to get him back? I'm fuckin fasting for the rest of the week. I'm so stressed out food is the last thing I want....110 here i come. Let's shoot for 2 weeks. Wish me luck girls. I'm going Ana hardcore style now <3

 Latest Pic @ 117.5 gettin closer....

Currently Listening Autobiography By Ashlee Simpson **Nothing New** see related

CW: 118

Wow...after binging i maintained? AMAZING. I did run a shit load tho but i was expecting to be about 120. PHEW i'm so relieved....so now i'm liquid fasting until i start school so i'll def. reach my goal by monday... i hope!

Got a job at hollister yesterday. Didn't even mean to which is the funny part. The guy hired me right on the spot...i didn't realize i was flirting with the store manager heh...score! My dad's going to be PISSED tho. He told me he only wants me working weekends when i start school but instead of cutting my hours i get a second job...whoops!

Hope ya'll are doin well. I made an Ana Myspace so check it out girlies! Look at the guy's profile on my friends list Reeve .... fuckin amazing ribs <3

Latest Pic At 118:

I'm happy that my ribs are starting to stick out but my fuckin lovehandles...i mean god damn. That's disgusting. Anyone have any tips on how to shrink those suckers? I'd appreciate it greatly!!

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I'm too scared to look at my weight right now. I won't go into details but lets just say too much stress n too much binging this weekend. Fasted all today. Prolly gonna liquid fast til the 22nd. I must be skinny. EVERY day i get some kinda "Wow you've lost A LOT of weight" remarks and i will not loose those dammnit!

But on the bright side i dont have cancer! I had a "dilated artery." Hurt like hell getting that removed but then again i'm pretty good at taking pain....as long as it means its gonna benifit me being prettier lol. And i def. don't want a dilated artery chillin on the tip on my nose the rest of my life lol.

Hope you girls are all doing well...sorry i havent commented back all weekend i'm gonna get on that right now! <3