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| well hello.
Me= Rollar Coaster....... I am happy one minute and sad the next. I cried the other day at lunch. CRIED...for no reason?!?!?!? Oh well....I'm fine this minute...... ~ Summer is knocking on my window and sticking its tounge out at me and when I go to punch it in the face it gets farther and farther away.....uhhh....kind of. ~ Spring Break was a blast. I hung out with basically everyone I love who wasnt out of town. ~ My birthday is in 4 days? April 3rd..... party. ~ I feel like I am getting closer to the people I want to be getting closer to. And others.....breaks come unexpectedly...but they are nice. In the end they will probably be a phase....not even really a break.~ I love the nights that make me put my arms up in the air and smile...just because its so nice out. ~ For everytime I am blah or said....I am happy 4 times more than that...and thats good. I just have to remember that I have always smiled somewhere in time after any bad thing. And that is nice.....
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| I am in a surprisingly better mood.
*Friday night Katie and I watched RENT and ate pizza and I couldn't have planned out a better night<3
*This weekend I decided lots of things that will hopefully do something productive..but this time is different because I am hoping harder.
*Today I went with Katie and Sara Willis to the park and we sat on the swings and just talked and I loved it.
* I decided that going out of my way to be myself is not being myself at all.....so I am now participating in the...Gracie Stop Stressing Out So Much...plan.
*The best thing I could possibly think of doing at any time of the day.... is Laughing.
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| Im so tired of being vague with my feelings. I say whats on my mind but there are so few things I really can say that I truly feel. If I, my whole life have strived on being independent and being myself around anyone and everyone, why all of the sudden am I at a loss for what to say and what to think and what to feel. I just dont understand what is going on with me right now. One minute I feel like I have so much and the next I feel like I have nothing. I have the greatest friends. They are always there for me and they always care. But is me forcing my thoughts on people and just hoping with everything I have that they will actually listen, do they really care? Is that really what my friends are doing? caring? I am fearing the only logical explaination to what I know is true. I try so hard to believe that everyone cares about me the way I do about them, and that they want to listen to me and help me. But if this were the case would I even doubt for a second any of my friends? To describe the way I feel is impossible because I, myself, have no idea what I want. And the worst thing is that I have noone to turn to ask who I am. No one knows, not even me anymore. I have been blind to backs being turned, I have been deaf to the secrets and the lies, and I have been numb to stabs in my back.
The only thing I have left to do is smile. Thats all I know anymore, and it can be easily faked. I just hope with all my heart that very soon things will change and it will be real.
<3 Gracie |
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| Ooohhh.... its been a while.
I need new things. Like material and experience. Things are flat.
Well, lets see I went to Sadie and I had a lot of fun. The best parts were the things in between everything. Less chaotic.
Super Bowl was good.... we dressed up like hardcore football players.
I laughed ALOT this weekend...and I loved it.
So this song..... I dont know....I just love it... reminds me of summer
Random things are happening and some are good and some are bad....and most I just have no idea what to make of them.
Happy late birthdays to Steph, Ashley, and Katie....cuties.
Well I leave you with these...but you leave me with this: Lets try to make things simple.
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