Currently Reading Keeping the Moon (reissue) By Sarah Dessen see related

Hola to anyone who may be reading this!!

Sophomore year was definately bittersweet. I made so many new  friends, and in a way, lost a lot of others. Not "lost" as in, "OMG we are sooo totally not friends anymore!" but lost like we don't speak hardly ever. I do my own thing and they do theirs. Things change. You change. The people around you either change, or you think maybe you didn't know them as well as you thought? It's all a part of getting older. You're familiar with the whole "Growing-up-in-High-School" speech, I'm sure. I'm not saying I don't miss getting along with everyone, and everyone being friends. Duh. Of course I'd do. I'd give anything for the whole crew to come over again for a gathering, or just take walks with people reaaaaally late or reaaaaallly early during a sleepover. Or sit outfront and talk and laugh and be loud till midnight. Urgh. So, in a nutshell... I do miss every single one of you. No matter who you are, what you do with your life now, who you're with, what color your hair is, whatever. I miss actually being with people, and being included.

A gathering is much needed. Followed by a game of manhunt.

This summer I know is going to be a good one. I mean, let's be serious. TWO Harry Potter events in the same month?!?! Oh yeahh. It's like a dream come true. (( Yes, I realize how much of a dork I am. There's no need to point it out. )) Hoping for some type of job, too. And concerts. I am feeling maaaaaaaaajor amounts of shows this summer. And Open Mics and everything. Oh man, I am very very excited. Well, I do know that I have never ever been so happy in my entire life, and I am so ready for summer, and whatever it may hold. Whether it be happiness, or sadness, bring it on. It's going to be a-mazing.

So, to everyone still alive in this xanga world, here's to you. And here's to your summer.

Happy are those *
who dream dreams
and are ready / /
TO PAY THE PRiCE
---» to make them
come true

Its hard to pretend you love
someone when you don’t.
But its harder to pretend
that you don’t love someone
when you really do.

Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left here asking
Where has all the time gone now?
I'm left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don't want to believe it's over

Well, don't stop texting,
keep your fingers on those buttons.
'til they go numb, 'til 3 a.m.
You're the reason I love losing sleep.

Well... haven't been on this thing in forever. I doubt anyone will even read this.

Oh well.

There has been so much on my mind lately. And I hate the fact that instead of turning to a living, breathing, human being, I turn to an out-dated, xanga blog, which is widely used when people feel the need to brag about how wonderful their lives are, or how hopelessly pathetic they are.  So I won't be complaining, I'll just vent a little.

Since it's apparently the "holiday season" and everything, I'll start with the whole "This Year I've..." deal.

This year, I've gained a lot. I've gained quite a few amazing, wonderful friends that I know I will never forget. I experianced "Joseph" with a cast/crew of the best people I would ever meet in my entire life. I miss it so much. And I miss how close everyone used to be.

I think I've changed in the past year, too. Hopefully in good ways, maybe some bad. But I am trying to fix it. I wish I wasn't so lazy in school... sure everyone is at times, but I just let everything breeze by me. I am not motivated at all.

I lost more than I thought I would over the past few months. Friends who I thought would always be around, aren't. Family who I thought would always be around, aren't. This high school, growing up thing really sucks. Of course I'll have the many memories when I look back on everything, but I know I'll think more of the stupid things that should have never happened. And I'm sorry.

I miss spending time with my friends. All of my friends. Things really aren't how they used to be anymore. And I know everyone says it, but how many people are actually feeling the empty spaces?

It's just something to think about.

Do you take the non believers?
Cause I'm a non believer.

SweetHrt851: do wat u feel

HEYYYY THERE!

Well, summer is sadly almost over. And it feels like I didn't accomplish anything I wanted to this year. I guess for the most part, I enjoyed my summer. Maybe. It def. had it's ups and downs. I lost friends, gained friends. Didn't once have a game of manhunt. You know, exacly one year ago tonight, we played manhunt for the first time? That's pretty crazy.

Basically, summer was summer. Just not as good as last summer. But that's life.

School starts in about two weeks, and I'm really, really, excited. Especially to see my friends I haven't seen all summer, and the football games! Which is one of the highlights of my year. I really think this year is going to be a good one, at least I hope it will.

"Ida Scott Taylor once wrote: Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering."
                                                                                    - One Tree Hill

a l l u r e x17: yeah, we can just come in when its called for. like when they need help getting their clothing off and stuff.

Currently Watching One Tree Hill - The Complete Seasons 1 & 2 By Chad Michael Murray, James Lafferty, Hilarie Burton, Bethany Joy Lenz, Paul Johansson, Sophia Bush, Barbara Alyn Woods, Lee Norris, Barry Corbin, Craig Sheffer, Moira Kelly see related

Yep. I def. miss these suckers.

Ya can't let out any emotion on myspace. These help me to gather my thoughts. lol

Pool for like a gajillion hours today, felt greaaaaaaaat.

But I'm taking a break for about a week or so. A much needed break I think.

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Currently Watching Edward Scissorhands (Widescreen Anniversary Edition) By Johnny Depp, Winona Ryder, Dianne Wiest, Anthony Michael Hall, Kathy Baker, Robert Oliveri, Conchata Ferrell, Caroline Aaron, Dick Anthony Williams, O-Lan Jones, Vincent Price, Alan Arkin, Susan Blommaert, Linda Perri, John Davidson (II), Biff Yeager, Marti Greenberg, Bryan Larkin, John McMahon, Victoria Price see related

So guess what guys?

I AM UPDATING my XANGA. And I bet Connor will be the only one to notice!!  

Went to the ridiculously retarded moonlight swim tonight. I don't even know why I bother to socialize anymore lol.

So basically summer has been gay, I cannnnnnot wait to get back to school, and for the football games to start!! I miss my friends who I haven't seen all summer.

Well, other than that nothing is really new.

If you are ever in Michigan, make sure you stop by BD's Mongolian BBQ on Main Street. You won't regret it.

"In that moment when you think you've finally found him, all you can do is hope he won't prove you wrong."
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