I finally got the chance to go back online, with no one around.

I`m so totally fat. And I feel even fatter now that I`m on my big red dot.. A few weeks ago at the movie theatre I weighed myself -- 90 pounds still! But I had loads of clothes on, since it was raining.. and my friend she`s like.. 5`1 - 5`3 and weighs 88. And she complained she was fat in front of me! I`m fat. Well, what comes around goes around.. in this case it`s my pounds of fat.. So I better start getting to it! I must fast! Like how many times have I said that in the past? I`m such a loser. Whatever. I can do it, to prove I am no failure. Okay, so from now, 5:29 P.M. and on.. I will fast.

I`ve been able to manage avoiding certain foods these days, yay! My uncle just brought home fresh pizza, and I think I`m going to be able to avoid it too. Dude if I break it and just binge on pizza I`ll kill myself! The pizza looks so good, I peeked in it and it was fresh, cheesy, and it smelled so fresh and good! Fortunately -- I resisted! i RESiSTED! xD I`m so proud of myself. But I don`t know if my resistance will last.. hopefully yes. So intake for today was 1 coughdrop, 2 Jolly Rogers, uhh [ fuck! ] icecream, and 1 waffle. I think that`s it.. but of course, it`s going to be better tomorrow, right? Anyway altogether was probably 300 calories or more. But I won`t be eating for the rest of the night. I can`t wait for a scale! My mom`s probably getting one so she and my sister could keep track of their diet progress. And I could secretly do it! Muahahaha!

Stay strong, girls!

<3 tinyangel

P.S. Maybe I`ll get so thinspiration for you girls to get motivated! But that`s a maybe.