for the simple fact that i have no life.
and i'm sick of crying.
kkkkkkkk.

ABOUT YOU.
Name?: carli.
Age?: eighteen.
Height?: 5'7 ish.



ABOUT HIM.
Name?: josh.
Age?: eighteen.
Height?: 5'7 ish.
Birthday?: 3.26
Religion?: christian ..i think.
Eye Color?: baby blue.
Hair Color?: brown.
Best physical feature?: pretty much everything, he sucks.

HOW iT ALL STARTED.
When did you meet?: december 18th.
Did you know one another before you started dating?: we talked foreeeeeever. i talked to his boy for the absolute longest, and i got introduced to josh and he swept me off my feet. haha. but we talked for, 3 months before we were official.
Did you like each other right off the bat or did it take time?: we both knew it.
Who made the first move?: i did.
Where was your first date?: we never really go anywhere official.
Did your parents approve of him?: for sure.
Did his parents approve of you?: yes.

HAVE YOU EVER.
Met each other's families?: yeah.
Held hands in public?: yeah.
Hugged?: yeah.
Kissed?: yeah.
Fooled Around?: yeah.
Had sex?: i'm a virgin
Said: I love you? everyday.
If so, who said it first?: i did, because he's gay.
Did/do you mean it?: every single time.

DOES HE.
Play with your hair?: oh yeah.
Kiss your neck?: yeah.
Kiss your tummy?: yea.
Kiss your forehead?: mhm.
Nuzzle you?: what the fuck.
Cuddle with you?: yeah.
Hold you when you're scared?: yeah.
Protect you?: yeah.
Yell at you?: we love yelling.
Start fights?: we used to all the time, no more.
Get mad and storm out?: nah. got mad at turned my back for two seconds until he turned around and tickled me til i cried ..ya.
Try to talk things out?: we've gotten better.
Trust you?: yeah.

DO YOU.
Let him know how you feel?: he always knows.
Trust him?: yeah.
Yell at him?: it's a bad habit sometimes.
Start fights?: not anymore.
Try to talk things out?: yeah.
Comfort him when he's upset?: of course.
Cook for him?: i will one of these days, i swear.
Snuggle up to him?: yeah.

LOVE.
Is this true love?: think so.
How do you know?: it's unexplainable, really.
Have you ever been in love before him?: fucks that, i thought i was. i was terribly wrong.
Why is this different?: he showed me what love is supposted to be.
Does his touch still give you goosebumps?:yes.

THE FUTURE.
Can you see a future together?: we talk about it all the time.
Do you want to get married?: <3.
Does he?: <3.
Do you want to have kids together?: prolly.
Does he?: yes.
Do you two live together?: noooo.
Has he ever asked you to marry him?: haha

THE BAD STUFF.
What does he do that you hate?: clank his teeth together, sleep in too late, and text when we're on the phone.
What do you do that he hates?: i say dumb stuff when we fight that i'll prolly regret ten minutes after i say it, but it drives him nuts. and when i text, or drink. ha.
To your knowledge, has he ever cheated on you?: nah.
If so, why did you stay with him?:
Have you ever cheated on him?: no.
If so, does he know about it?
If he ever did cheat, would you be able to forgive him?: i wouldn't be able to look past it.
Have you ever broken up before?: many of times.
Over what?: dumb shit.
Has it all been worth it in the end?: everything we go through has been worth it.

THE GOOD STUFF.
What's the most romantic thing he's ever done for you?: he says the cutest stuff, and steals cars to come get me.
What's the most romantic thing you've ever done for him?: i draw things for him and we trade shoes + i steal all his clothes. i spray my purfume on his bed so when i leave he always reminds me how his bed smells like me & he misses me.
Is he more of a Frog or a Prince Charming?: prince charming.
Do you play around with each other?: yeah.
Do you wrestle?: yes, he tickles me so bad i have to cut his balls off from time to time.
Do you tickle each other?: yes, he does it better.
Do you tease each other (in a fun way)?: yeah.

THE FUNNY STUFF.
Have you ever been caught making out? By who?: i don't care who sees that shit.
Have you ever been caught fooling around? By who?: nah.
Was it embarassing, or did everyone just laugh it off?:
Has he ever made you laugh so hard that something came out of your nose?: no, ha.
How about peed your pants?: no.

EVERYTHiNG HAS A HiSTORY.
How long have the two of you been dating?: four months tomorrow.
Was it a good beginning or a rocky one?: good.
Do you have a history with any of his friends?: hahaha.
Does he have a history with any of yours?: kinda.
Do either of you have a history that keeps coming back up?: nope.
Did the: ?
Is this the longest relationship you've ever been in?: nope, it will be.
If not, what was?: brandon.

RANDOM QUESTiONS.
Say something that only the two of you would understand?: bunny.
Do you like the way he dresses?: yeah.
Are you still as attracted to him physically as you were in the beginning?: yes.
Would you still love him if he gained twenty pounds? yes.
How about fifty?: you know.
Do you know where he is right now?: he's workin
Are you two best friends?: we sure are.
What would you do if he called you right now and broke up with you?: crying wouldn't be enough to explain it.
Would you trust him with all of your money?: yeah.
How about your car?: yeah.
How about your life?: yeah.
Is he a good kisser?: yeah.
Does he tell you that you're beautiful?: yeah.
Do you think he's shallow?: no chance.
Would he stick around if you got pregnant?: absolutely.

FiNALS.
Does he make you happy?: more than he'd ever know.
Do you make him happy?: & so much more.
Do you think he's: everything.
Finally, after thinking all of this through, do you love him?: mhm.

i'm in the worst mood i've been in ....in months.
i feel like everyone around me is disappearing or something. let's start off with my brother. where the hell have you been in my life ? it's nice to know that you can't call me or even text me to congradulate me on being accepted to college. i haven't talked to you since graduation. that's pretty cool. considering you talk to some people who let you down the most on the daily. not just girls, but guys too. you disappoint me so bad. but most of all i'm hurt by it. it's pretty sick how i'm scared to text or call you, because we haven't talked in so long. i left notes on your jeep and even parked next to it once. cool ? glad to see your my big brother.

secondly, why do girls feel the need to depart from their best friends when they find a boyfriend ? i don't want to talk to you about this just for the simple fact that i don't want to lose you, or have things be akward. i love you to pieces. i really do. but i have been with you every day for the past two years, especially in the summer. we're known for being around each other. but ever since you started going steady with him, i was never in the picture. i hardly talk to you anymore. i always feel like i'm interrupting something or another. ever since we got home from vacation i haven't hung out with you. i feel left out. like you just pushed me out of your life. i know you were upset about brit for the past couple of weeks, but i wish you'd just have the time to sit down and think of what your doing to me. sucks, i feel like i lost you.

third of all, karma's the biggest bitch of them all. i got caught. and i know it was wrong, but your still there for me. i don't know what i'd do without my boyfriend. he means the world to me. (four months strong)<3. nobody has been there for me except for him. if it wasn't for him, i'd be all alone. i'm pretty sure. i don't know why he loves me as much as he does. but it all works out. this is the only reason i hate the fact i'm going away. but i'm glad he's so supportive.

i wish my family got along.
so we could have reunions and such.
but we can't even figure out christmas grab bags.

college in a month,  holllller.

what the fuckkkkkkk!
i'm going to graduate in less than 12 hours.

i just peed my pants.

xanga ..what the fuck.
i cannot believe that high school is completely done and over with, for good. it hasn't even hit me yet. i feel so, grown up ? i don't know how to feel. this is so exciting, but so very scary. looking back on high school, it has help form me into who i am today. i'm glad i went to penn hills. seriously, it makes you somewhat of a hard ass. but, i believe that's a good quality now adays. i really have had the greatest time seeing who i really am, and growing up. it seems like i just stepped out of linton. damn. i have enjoyed high school ..believe it or not. i have made so many wonderful friends, and it's a shame you won't even see any of them anymore. it's so depressing. 12 years of meeting, and getting to know people who you won't even be friends with (most of them) in the next two years and so on ..i guess it's like that for a reason. this world is soooo big, and people are here to help make you, even if they break you. it all makes us stronger in the end. high school was one big ball of emotions, but i'm glad i made it out the way i did.

prom was worth everything, even though it went entirely too quick. especially for all the time and effort you end up putting into it. oh well, i'm used to it. i'm geeked my brother came to see me. it was really nice, and i'm pretty sure it made my night. it's so nice to be seeing him again. even if it's every once in awhile. i really miss him, on a daily basis.

i cannot wait to walk across that stage.
class of 2008, baby<3.

what it do assholes :)