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o wow! its been a very long time! jk no it hasnt

Monday--woke up n went on a flight to PA! hehe so the flight was jam packed but that was ok---so i got picked up by my uncle john n aunt ellen...so we went around philly for a little bit n then back to their house n chilled!!!! ahh i was soo happy to see my cousins! hadnt seen them in freakin a year n 1/2 or 2! yikes!

Tuesday--woke up really early//drove through new jersey, n new york to connecticut...we saw my great aunt grace in her nursing home-shes so cute! hehe then i got some freakin Duchess! ahhh sooo good! went to my grandpas n saw him n ugh....anne...she was soo freakin mean to me! i dont like my step gma at all! ha thats bad to say maybe but its true! so i was glad to see my gpa though! i got to go see john mayors old job at a gas station in my mom's hometown of fairfield, CT!! ahh it was awesome kool to be there where a famous star used to work!! then we drove to dare i say it....MANHATTAN!!! THE BIG NYC!!! i freakin love it in new york city! the big apple! we went to chinatown n i got some new york city shirts n a sweet green silky messenger bag! its soo freakin sweet! then we ate at this awesome chinese resturant...yummy! they had some sweet tea with green leafs in it...it was wicked awesome! then we walked around littly italy too! soo kool! i cant wait until i got to NYU up there...ahh my dream school since forever!!! then we drove back to the house n i was pooped from all that traveling! ah

Wednesday--i woke up n went to the mall with my aunt ellen n my mom...we went to my new favorite store H&M! ahh too bad its only up in the northeast states! so i got this really cute military jacket like,,, boho dress,, white n black striped shirt,, a cute tee & a white n red flowy like shirt.. then i went to the gap n got a cute chain/pearl/silky black belt! its soo awesome!! then we drove home n ate some rice balls(yummy italian food)....then we went bowling at a bowling alley--but i just watched bc my back hurt! so us women got dunkin donuts! ahhh soo good! vinalla chai tea! YUMM! then we went home n just chilled the rest of our time in PA! : [!

Today--i woke up early to go on a flight....ahh it was ehh alright...then i came home unpacked..slept...cleaned...n went to the mall with natalie...i got a cute grey messenger bag from Aero--a reversable tee from Hollister n a brown belt from there too--n a cute blue newspaper boy hat from American Eagle! it was fun with natalie....haha my moms checkin me out....lol insider! funny stuff with that gal! i love her to death

<SPREAD!

heres some pictures now of my trip n some other stuff!

< thats my cousin matt n my aunt ellen--n thats a hilarious picture of my cousin luke when he was a baby! haha

< thats my mom n my great aunt grace n then thats a picture of my real grandmas grave(mom's mom) that died when my mom was 18...

< thats my gpa n my uncle john//then thats anne-ugh n my gpa! ugh anne---i was about to slap her bc she was being bitchy to me! GAY!

<thats john mayer's old workplace at a gas station in Fairfield, CT! yeah u should be jealous! haha jk n thats a taxi in the good old big apple!

< that was a sign for DKNY in nyc///the tea in this chinese place that had green leafs in it! SOO KOOL! n good!

<thats rob n renee on christmas day//then my cool daddio! hehe hes funny!

BAREFOOT!!! oh i love this band! best band ever!

 the lead singer is sooo cute! ahhhhh

Alive by Barefoot

show me where your secrets hide
iwas told they live inside
the Tears in your eyes

Do you walk on empty streets
With noone there to guide your feet
Dont You realize, there's not a place that you can hide

Its never perfect when your near me
You've no idea whats deep inside
But the way you live each moment
Makes me feel that I'm, Alive

I was sure you would begin
To open up and let me in
Behind your lonely eyes

I fear we're running out of time,
I have to get inside your mind
To see through your disguise
And there is not a place that you can hide

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oh man.. its CHRISTMAS EVE!!! yay!

well yesterday i got my eyebrows waxed...then i went to a dermatologist appt....then i ate at La Madelines!! oooo yummyy! then me n my mom went to old navy n i got some gray gloves, a red/maroon v-neck sweater,, n a cream scarf tahts sofft!! heeheh then i chilled at home!

today i woke up n went to the 3'o'clock christmas eve mass at my catholic church that i sometimes go to...it was super pretty n soo nice to go back there--it was gorgeous! now im just chillen at home with my family on christmas eve!

the day after christmas-im goin to Pennsylvania for 3 days n ill be back Thursday afternoonish! so leave me tons n tons of comments while im gone or ill never update again! ha

 this or that: holiday edition

01. santa or frosty? santa
02. rudolph or any other reindeer? VIXEN!
03. snow storm or a flurry? snow storm..
04. winter or summer? ehhh...winter
05. giving or getting? giving..i love the feeling 
06. egg nog or hot chocolate? hot chocolate
07. sugar cookies or gingerbread men? both ha
08. reall tree or fake tree? real
09. colorful lights or white lights? white
10. hanukah or christmas? christmas
11. wrapping or unwrapping presents? unwrapping
12. a lot of small gifts or a major present? either
13. family or friends? both
14. candy canes or gum drops? candy canes
15. snowmen or snow angels? umm.. snow angels
16. jolly or happy? happy
17. snowboarding or skiing? skiing
18. icicles or snowballs? hmm.. both
19. baby it's cold outside or all i want for christmas is you? baby its cold outside
20. elves or reindeer? elves
21. red or green? red
22. egg nog or apple cider? apple cider 
23. christmas shopping or decorating? shopping
24. writing cards or receiving cards? both
25. naughty or nice? uhh nice 

<<got that from mollie!

 <<LOVE THAT MOVIE!

<<me lookin hawt n what not! haha jk
<< sry if u cant see harley but hes curled up on his chair! haha n thats coco by our christmas tree! i love my babies!! <33

& if i could hold on through the tears
and the laughter, would it be beautiful?
or just a beautiful disaster ?

nothing comes as easy as you.
can i lay in your bed all day?
i'll be your best kept secret 
& your biggest mistake.

sarcasm keeps you from telling
people what you really think of them *

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! <33

COMMENT!

morgan benz's party was sooo much fun! YA NASTY! haha jordan! ahh i fell SO HARD on both of my thigh sides in the gym of RHS! ahh it sucked but was hardcore fun!! ahhh everyone ganged up on me in dodgeball since i was the last person n i stayed like that--dodging balls for like a couple of minutes! it was wicked awesome! haha n then elaina benton got me out! darn you! haha jk n carroling was fun of course bc we were singing although i was the only first soprano which def. sucked! haha i was goin all over the place in weird keys haha oh well! haha jordan nally is my new best friend! haha n i got to dance alot with my dancing bud--alissa of course! that was awesome! LETS GET THIS ROAD ON THE SHOW! hahaha im soo stupid jordan! lol it was hilarious though! push it real good! hahaha my new favorite song!

heres a fun little survey

+ Basics +
Are you emotional : hmm i can be but not really.
Do songs make you cry? nope unless they are like super sad.
What about movies :: Cold Mountain + Star wars(haha nolan n jaime--i thought OBI1KNOBE died! gee n hes my favorite soo sryyy!) n 13 going on 30(ok i thought in her dream they werent gonna get together).
What emotion do you usually feel :: happy unless my family is bein gay.

+ Sadness +
What does it take to make you cry your heart out :: nothin really just sad things idk death.
How many times have you done that :: recently--i havent cried recently.
Where do you cry :: uhh idk wherever i am.
Do you hate crying :: yeah but it kinda is good relieving that sadness.
Do you like it when others cry :: uhh no lol.
Do you think tears make eyes look pretty :: ehh idk.
Who looks good when they cry :: umm pete pete of course! hes eyes look pretty! ha.
How else do you express sadness :: i write--listen to music--sing maybe idk.
Are you sad all the time :: No.

+ Anger +
What does it take to make you mad :: anything relaly i get pissed easily.
What do you do when you're angry :: i vent it out by telling someone or maybe go run or listen to heavy music( not like metal lol) but P.O.D. sometimes ha.
How short is your temper :: not short haha.
How long does it take you to calm down :: ohh man.....takes me a while not gonna lie like a couple of days possibly.
Do you freak out when others are angry :: ehh if they are at me.
Has anyone ever recommended anger management to you :: noo.
What's the worst thing someone's done to make you mad :: ehh idk ill think of it later probably like idk makin fun of me or my friends def. pisses me off.
Do you anger people :: Yehhhh.

+ Joy +
How often are you happy :: alot.
What makes you happy :: tons of things but mostly my amazing friends :)..
What do you do when you're happy :: laugh my head off.
How optimistic are you :: ehh idk.
Do happy people make you mad :: noo.
What's the worst thing someone can do while they're happy :: I don't know.
Ever been so happy you were dying to tell everyone :: Yes.
Ever been so happy you cried :: Yes. That's sheer happiness.
Do you smile a lot :: yes.
Kiss people a lot:: No.
Who really makes you happy :: idk happy things like love haha or laughing.
Do you like doing things for people when you're happy :: yeah.

+ Fear +
What do you do when you're scared :: I don't know.
What scares you :: death n other stuff.
Do you like scaring people :: hahaha yeah.
Do you like the thrill of being frightened :: yeah.
Does fear accompany anger in your case :: sometimes.
Ever been so scared you couldn't breathe :: haha yeah.
How often do you panic :: lots.
What's the one thing that scared you more than anything else EVER :: idk maybe like a scary movie?.
What do you do to calm your nerves :: breathe in and out lol or music.
Do rollercoasters scare you :: Oh, that's thrill.

+ The strongest emotion +
What song never fails to get your strongest emotions going :: ummm i really dont have a clue--Cry n Bittersweet Symphony n Title&Registration.
Movie :: Cold Mountain is amazing.
Commericial :: idk.
Person :: i really dont know.
Thing :: idk cancer...death..
Sight :: death.
Sound :: idk.
Food :: i have no idea.
Thing you're looking forward to/want :: uhh i really want to have just a boy to like....haha not that hard but i never can pick the right one.

+ What do you do +
When the emotion suck :: listen to music.
When the emotion rocks :: laugh.laugh.laugh.
When there's no emotion :: A mix of those two things.

+ Would you rather +
Never feel again :: No.
Feel loneliness or anger for the rest of your life :: anger.
Be happy forever and never experience bad times :: never experience bad times .
Cause misery :: No.
Feel misery :: no.
Be alone :: No!!!!!.
Be with everyone you know :: of course.

+ Who +
Cheers you up more than anyone else :: emorie & summer&natalie&jordan nally(ya nasty!) n abbie n erika n pete pete n other amazing ppl
Angers you more than anyone else :: uhh rude ppl.
Scares you more than anyone else :: idk.
Makes you think about your emotions more than anyone else :: idk guys i like.
Makes you really care about how they feel and what they think :: my friends<3 i love them to death.

<omfg! HAWTIES!

youu remember that game telephone when one person would say something and by the end of the game it was totally different? WELCOME TO HiGH SCHOOL

love is like standing on wet cement --
the longer you stay ;; the harder it is to
leave && you can never let go with out
leaving your foot prints behind

if he takes the time to argue with you;
then he cares more than you know <3

and i really thought he was the one that was going to save me from my self. but it turned out that he was a low-life loser .

Merry Christmas

I HATE FINALSSSSSSSS!

studyin sucks

ill edit this hoe later ha

edit;;;

studied like crazy...not i could barely concentrate bc my bro n his gf were makin a gingerbread house so i was helpin them out! its hilarious! but neways so i took my choir, spanish n preap biology final today--they were alright!

<<<ahh theres renee n my brother! ahh u gotta love them--they crack me up!

<<n theres the backyard! haha the middle guy is renee's dad! he was a texas ranger!! hahaa pretty wicked stuff!

so tonight im goin to El Paceo with emmi n summer! yessss! n then we are chillin at summers! ooh man! this is gonna be a wicked awesome night! very very fun! haha but ill edit more later!

there's always a wild side to an innocent face <3<<haha thats me

he watched her take off her
makeup. and wondered why
she even put it on <3 I WISH! ha

oo ok this is weird.. typing in Q33 NY .. (the flight that hit the twin towers first's number.) put in wingdings.. is   

Q33 NY. <<wow! got that from shannon! holy crap! scaryyy!

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