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So, I'm thinking a lot about the mistakes I made this year. I messed up too badly. Way too badly. 2005 was a suckfest. I swear.

I'll give like major reasons.

1. I lost more friends then I made.
2. I messed up really really badly in school.
3. I don't go to school.
4. I became a bitch.
5. I stopped writing.
6. I got too wrapped up in boys and being cool.
7. I became less intelligent.
8. I never go out.
9. I'm too lazy to fix it all.

So, yeah. I messed up. Badly. It started at the end of 2004. November to be exact. Then in 2005 it just progressed. I hate myself more then I ever did. I've become a horrible person with no friends. I can even name the people I still consider friends(don't get upset if I don't put you, I probably have a reason).

1. Riley
2. Michelle
3. Zach
4. Liz

Not exactly a lot. Four friends. Wow. A few people that I "lost" I didn't even consider friends. But oh well, I still lost potential friends.

What's sad is that there's only one person that I see a lot on that list. Michelle. My sister. So, duh.

I really need to fix my life. To be cheesy, I'm going to quote from the movie Mean Girls.

"When you get bit by a snake, you need to suck all the poison out. That's what I had to. I had to suck all the poison out of my life."

It may not be exact, but I'm not a freakin' genious.

I need to "suck all the poison out of my life". Starting this week. It's not going to be easy. I know it's not. I'm welcoming the challenge. My life is pretty hard right now, it sucks, actually. I don't hate it. I accept that I'm going through a hard time and I need to help it get better. Ugh.

This sucks.

Tomorrow I'm going to school[hopefully] and cleaning my room. I'm throwing out stuff that promotes a time that made me feel this way, hopefully. I know it's a "memory box" but how pathetic is it that I kept the rose that Peter bought me for this long? Pathetic. So hopefully stuff to him goes bye bye. Wow, I'm pathetic.

I also need to get over Zach. Like seriously, I'm more pathetic then ever with this guy.

Tomorrow starts a new me. Hopefully. And I'm gonna eat healthier and try to lose weight, too. Wow, Pre-NewYearsResolution, much?

Ok, so I honestly have to say I had an amazing day. It was just great.

Riley's mom drove her to my house around 3:30-4:00, and we chilled at my house until Michelle was ready. Then we were waiting at the bus stop and omg, you have no idea how much fun we have. I'll post pictures at the end. :] Anyway, then we took the Q38 to the mall and went straight to the food court. Ate chicken teriyaki and then took the elevator to the third floor. We then went to the parking lot and took that elevator to the seventh floor. AKA; Roof. We chilled up there for like twenty minutes. Just Michelle, Riley, me, and a couple of stoges. It was beautiful up there<3. Then we went back into the mall and went to the bathroom. Since my ass was freezing, I used the hand dryers to warm it up. Some lady was laughing at me, but I don't care. Then back up to the third floor to PacSun. I love that store. Michelle tried on two pairs of pants & a tee-shirt. The guy that worked there, Jason, was like listening to Riley and mine conversation and idk. It seemed like he was flirting with the two of us. But it's all good cause he was cute. :] We chilled in Pacsun for a little while more and then left. We stood by Pacsun for like fifteen minutes waiting for Jason to go on break cause we heard him talking about it. We got fed up with waiting so we went back in and he wasn't in there. :\ So Riley and I(after Michelle told us to) went to the parking lot to see if he was smoking and he was. Then we called Michelle to tell her(cause she was kinda interested) and then he came inside. Riley started walking and then I followed and then she started running so I did, too. I didn't wanna feel alone. Then we met up with Michelle and she grabbed my arm so I bit her. Then he walked over and Michelle told him I bit her while Riley and I went to check out if we used our own camera if we can take a picture with Santa for free. We couldn't. Bummerstatusmuch? Then we chilled with Michelle and then I was gonna go talk to Jason but right at Fossil I started freaking out so Riley and I sat down and talked for a few minutes. Then we started back to the roof for a ciggerette. Once we hit the 7th floor I had to pee so I pressed the three to go back down and Riley and Michelle ran off the elevator. :( So I went to the potty by myself. My hands weren't drying fast enough so I used up too heaters. :] Then I went back up to the roof and then we came back down and had to leave. On the way out I stopped at Victoria's Secret cause they had applications out and I asked how old you had to be to work there. Eighteen.  :\ It'd be so awesome if Michelle worked at Victoria's Secret. Then we walked to the bus stop. The 38 line was enormous so we took the 29 instead. Got off by Juniper and Riley had to take it the rest of the way home. :[ On the walk home Michelle and I started fighting. Then Riley called me and I talked to her on the way home and silently Michelle and I made up. Got home and got lectured like crazy by Steven. Not for being out, though. I don't care to tell you, however. Then yeah. Just chilled the rest of the night. I found another reason why Anthony and I are best friends. We're too freaking cool! We're seriously as cool as it gets.

Anyway, tomorrow is another fun day at the mall with Anthony, Amanda, and hopefully Michelle and Zach. I'm excited. :]

Okay, well picture time. But first, a link to a video. You don't have to watch it but it's funny. Then pictures.

Video:]

Picture time. :] They might be humungo when you click on them.

K, new layout site again. I partnered with Liz. The hottie<3.

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Oh, and a Christmas survey.

1. Hot Chocolate or apple cider? Hot chocolate.
2. Turkey or Ham? Ham
3. Do you get a Fake or Real you cut it yourself christmas tree? Fake.
4. Decorations on the outside of your house? Not yet.
5. Snowball fights or sledding? Snowball fights. Fun fun fun.
6. Do you like hanging around the fireplace because it's warm? I don't have one.
7. do you enjoy Going downtown shopping? Mmhmm. I<3Downtown Shopping.
8. Favorite Christmas song? All I Want For Christmas Is You-Mariah Carey and Yule Shoot Your Eye Out-Fall Out Boy
10. How do you feel about Christmas movies? I love Christmas movies.
11. when is it to early to start listening to Christmas music? Before Thanksgiving.
12. Stockings before or after presents? Before.
13. Carolers, do you or do you not watch and listen to them? New York doesn't have carolers. They'd get shot, yo.
14. Go to someone elses house or they come to you? My family doesn't visit each other for Holidays.
15. Do you read the Christmas Story? What Christmas story?
16. What do you do after presents and dinner? Nothing. I open my presents at 5 in the morning. lol
17. What is your favorite holiday smell? Cinnamon and pine.
18. Ice skating or walking around the mall? Walking around the mall.
19. Favorite Christmas memory? Hmm, idk. Sleeping in my dad's bed and waking up at 4 in the morning and asking Michelle if it was time to get up yet.
20. Favorite Part about winter? The cold weather and days off.
21. Ever been kissed under mistletoe? Nope.

And I'm switching my layout to Christmas along with the playlist to Christmas songs. Fershur.

edit:// I got a new layout site. :] secondhandpoisonlyts

I took this from Riley's friend Tara because I'm good like that. Hehe.

NAME: Samantha Marie Schroder

HOW DO YOU LOOK?

Without make-up

With make-up

YOUR PARTNERS IN CRIME:

Riley

Michelle

Anna

Liz

Joey

FAVORITE COLOR:

YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOWS:

WHAT'S YOUR SIGN?

FAVORITE BAND:

The Used

Panic! At The Disco

Fall Out Boy

FAVORITE MOVIE:

WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?

My friends, silly!

&My Family

& a lot more.

=]

Time consuming and A LOT of pictures. Sorry about that, got caught up.