So I finally updated this shit.. haha.

Well, it's a new year, so that means new goals & change for the fuckin' better!

New years resolutions

• Pay off the ticket $405
• Get a fuckin' job!
• Lose 20 lbs. work out, run, exercise!
  
• Stop being a bitch work on my attitude! haha
  

Well, that's just for now. Top of my "to do list"


Maybe I'm just a silly bitch in love..
I've been thinking a lot lately.. and it's killing me. What if you feel like your more of his bitch than his girl? What if he's bossing you around and physically "abusing" you? What if he isn't giving you the attention anymore... and what if its all just a bunch of bullshit? What if I really need him, but he's not here for me. Nothing is the same anymore, I just miss the old him..........

Wow, I haven't used xanga in a long time ! Well lemme tell you what's happening now in my life.


I got a perfect boyfriend named Richard. He's so different from every other guy I've ever met. He actually cares about me. I never thought I'd find anybody like him. He calls me beautiful on a daily basis. Although I know we haven't been together for a long time, but I finally realized that I found true love. So let me tell you my story.


I met him during community service on June 17, 2006. First words? Aye, lemme see your ipod. Then we were on the bus, I was thinking 'wow, he's so nice giving me his ipod. I should go kick it with him' so then I told him I was gonna go with him to jambajuice. Yeah, he bought me one. So then we were hella bored, nothing to do. We decided to kick it for the rest of the day. Took the N to downtown, and we ended up going to Metreon. We went up to the 4th floor and sat there&talked. I was tellin' him about my relationship and such, and he said all this 'smart' stuff. I was like, ' wow. He's so caring. ' I started to feel something about him at that moment. For some reason I was like ' damn, I wanna be with this guy ' Yeah, I had a boyfriend at that time, but then we was falling apart already. So then we went to Serramonte, and he bought me the Ne-yo cd. We walked around for a while, then he said he'd take me home. No guy has ever done that for me, so I thought it was really sweet of him. We get to my house, I felt kind of bad cause I lived so damn far, so I asked him if he wanted to come inside. Yeah, he came in. We just chilled and talked. We got into these deep conversations. Yeah, so my dad dropped him off.
and that was that. later on that night, it's like I broke it off with my boyfriend cause its like I wasn't feelin' him. Yeah, been like that since I got locked up. I realized our relationship was all BULLSHIT. I ain't gon' lie, it was. but moving on..
June 18, 2006 (Sunday) - My ex was at Serramonte, and he seen us. So Richard&him had a 'talk'. It was very awkward, yeah. So Richard slept over at kuya Peter's house, So did ateh Alyssa.
June 19, 2006 (Monday) - I was hella sprung off Richard. Hella fast, I know. He told me he had to drop this girl for me, I was really suprised. I feel so bad for her, but if she wanna hate, she could go and do that. I ain't even trippin'. So Peter, Alyssa, Richard, and I were just kickin' it at my house around 5 pm. Richard was lookin' at me all.. I don't know? but seemed like he wanted to ask me something. So he held my hand and asked me ' Will you be my girlfriend? ' I was thinking for a sec, then I said yeah. So that's like how we hooked up.


' In the 2 years I've known you, I haven't seen you any happier ' - Ateh Alyssa.

gone for japan. be back on june 27 (: