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Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 1/9/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: all american rejects, dancing, eminem, guys, hanging out with friends, instant messaging, money, parties, pickles, reading, riding around, shopping, talking on the phone, sexing, making out, surfing the web, mayonaise, riding around, writing, reading, pissing people off, Justin Timberlake <3, hotties, writing, chatting, talking, freaking people out, religion, school, American Eagle, Pacsun, Abercrombie and Fitch, blogging, typing random shit that doesn't matter, cussing, falling in love, liers
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
1/3/2004
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| Omg! My ex-boyfriend called yesterday and told me that he broke up with his new girlfriend and still loved me and wanted me back and asked if he could come over. And, of course, after him begging for about 10 minutes, ME, being the pathetic person that I am, decided that he really did care about me and felt bad about what he did to me. So, he comes over and after talking and "cuddling" for about an hour we err... get down to business. THAN, after we're finished he gets up to leave and starts laughing. I asked him what he was laughing at and he said well, um I think I lied to you. I asked him about what. He then preceeds to tell me that he didn't really break up with his girlfriend, and he was lying about the whole thing! I have never felt so used and pathetic in my life. I'm wasting my life over this. He is ALL I ever think about. I stayed up until like 6:00 am just thinking about this whole thing. I don't know what to do. :/ | | |
| OMG! Blogging three days in a row. How awesome ;) lmao... I changed the look of my xanga around a bit. I like it. It's really simple. Took me like 5 minutes to do :P.
I feel like I have so many different identies. When I'm around my girl friends I'm this bossy, bitchy person. Sometimes, if I'm just meeting someone I can be shy and sensitive. If I'm around guys that I'm attracted to I'm flirty, "slutty" (as my so called friends say), and sweet. I'm really insecure about the way I look so I have to practically throw myself on a guy to feel good about myself. On the internet I'm a good understanding, nice, and NOTHING like what I am offline. I used to be so painfully shy I wouldn't talk to anyone, so everyone thought that I was stuck up. I don't know. I try to put on a front when I'm around different people. I don't think anyone actually knows the REAL me. I've never been secure enough around a person to actually let it show through. I don't know :/. I feel like I change personalities like every week lol.
Hmm.. comments will be plugged and returned ;) Bye! <33 | | |
| I don't really have much to blog about. Today is a lazy day. Spring break starts next week! *HOPEFULLY* I'm going shopping Wednesday with my mom. I haven't been shopping since before Christmas sooo I'm kind of excited.
I hope to get some kind of writing done today. I don't think I've written anything in like two weeks. Writing is the only kind of outlet I have so if I don't do it for a while I literally go insane. There's already bits and peices of a poem I think I'm going to call "Mommy Dearest". It's good so far but I haven't written any of it down. It's strange... I can be just like walking down the street and all of the sudden stanzas of a poem will pop up into my head. Hmm.. :/
I've been downloading songs all day. Almost every song on my playlist has to do with breaking up. I really need to get over him! Part of me doesn't want him. I'm still wishing that one day he'll realize how much he really did love me and come back. It hurts SO bad. I need him! I don't understand it anymore. All of my friends say I'm stupid and I seriously need to move on... but it's just so hard to do.
I just realized that today's date is 04/04/04. LMAO! I'm such a dork sometimes. Welp, I'm out! | | |
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