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i have no one to really talk to about all this shit..

i feel alone..

everything so fucked up..im such a fuck up..

my dad's sick again.

my weights fucking gay.

my comp class is so damn hard..

i hate scott.. hes fucked up my life enough as is..

i've thought about starting to cut again..shit..

i keep messing things up just in general with everything..

when does a huge lie just cover up your fucked up life?

keep smiling..right..

Ok so Today..

Had Work off went to Comp Class then worked on writing a paper for an hour and an half.

Gym=  500 - on treadmil and did tiny bit of weights.

Jordy came over which made me super happy. And we changed his tire because..it /broke =( haha. the night was pretty crazy regardless..idk about tomorrow..

im hoping the scales are in my favor..

I am Back..it's been forever. But I'm back and for good now. I have gotten fat again..

I need control and I'll do anything to get it.

Need to Lose at least 9 pounds.

but it would be nice to lose ..like..14ish..

fuck..

someone please shoot me..

and make sure i die.

im so tired and kinda feel sick.

ive been working a lot it seems. but blah..

im doing ok i guess but i could be doing better..

how are all of you doing?