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| Love//Crush
My love for you is not written on paper,
for paper can be erased, Nor is my love for
you etched in stone, for stone can be broken.
But my love for you is inscribed in my heart
where it shall remain forever and ever ..
ALWAYS LiSTEN T0 Y0UR HEART
BECAUSE EVEN TH0UGH iT'S 0N
Y0UR LEFT SiDE..iT'S ALWAYS RiGHT
If you wanna see the rainbow, you gotta live through the rain. If you wanna see true love, you gotta live through the pain.
sometimes the h e a r t sees
what's invisible to the eye *
"Love is a word which so easily skims across our lips. Girls cut their wrists for it. Dudes try to kill for it. Notes professing devotion are passed in the hallways, dropped on desktops or placed discreetly inside school folders." -Luis Rodriguez
For all the times I never said the things I should have, I thank you for all the times you understood.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way, that some poems
don’t rhyme & some stories don’t have a clear beginning, middle & end. Life
is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment & making the best
of it, without knowing what’s to happen next. Hate is easy. Love takes time.
poets often describe love as an emotion that we cant control, one that overwhelms logic and common sense. thats what it was like for me. i didn't plan on falling in love with youu, and i doubt if youu planned on falling in love with me. but once we met, it was clear that neither of us could control what was happening to us. we fel in love, despite our differences, and once we did, something rare and beautiful was created. for me, love like that has happened only once, and that's why every minute we spend together was seared in memory. i`ll never forget a siingle moment of it.. -- THE N0TEB0OK.
Love is like an eternal flame,
once it is lit,
it will continue to burn for all time.
i want a boy that will stay with me for always He'll know you can never say I love you too many times But he knows not to say it if he doesn?t mean it with all his heart He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt He'll make me a Build-a-Bear And he wont care about how silly he looks being in a store full of 2nd graders Because he knows it would be special to me He?ll stay home with me and watch The Notebook And he'll tell me he loved it even though he didn't and the only person he would ever watch it with would be me .He'll.call.me.at.3am.and.ask.me.what.i'm.doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice He cant walk next to me without holding my hand And he always whispers something sweet in my ear He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends When I cry he'll tell me I'm too beautiful to and he'll kiss every tear He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them When we're walking together he'll stop and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear He'll tell me I'm a princess And treat me like one too He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect We always end up laughing about silly fights We wont get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me Every time he kisses me He'll tell me he'd die without me He'll surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day When we go out for ice cream, he'll put some on my nose?then I'll put some all over his face And we just never stop laughing He's interested in verything I say, and he always cares about it He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machine He wont stop playing until he's won me a stuffed animal He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch TsnowflakesT on our tongues He doesn't even like snow, but I love it Every time I even hear his name, it takes my breath away And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again He'll pay for me all the time even though I never want him to but I can never win But with him I could never lose either because everything about him is just so wonderful Perfect I'll be his everything And he'll be even more to me He will love me for always
People say hate is a strong word.. well so is love but people throw that around like it`s nothing.
pretending that feelings aren`t there ][ doesn`t make them go away..
for there to be pain there must
be happiness and for the darkness
to be true there has to be light to
tell the difference and for there to
be love there has to be two <//33
Life can be like a bird with a broken wing..
flightless, but still deserves to be loved <3
Blind to the eye
deaf to the ear
love is something
you cant see or hear
it`s the kind of crush where i just finished putting up my
away message & about to walk out then door ; when '
he signs on. & suddenly, whatever i was gonna do ..
doesn`t matter. talking to him does. <3
during the day at random times.. thoughts of you fill my mind. and i picture that smile you give me and i swear for that one second --» [ i can barely breathe ]
MY HEAD iS SAYiNG " WH0 CARES AB0UT;
HiM? " AND MY HEART iS SCREAMiNG.. i D0.
Love. We think about it, sing about it; dream about it, loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It's our constant source of pleasure and pain, but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It's a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without
i WANNA PUSH Y0U iNT0 0NC0MiNG TRAFFiC
.. BUT THEN i REALiZE i`D KiLL MYSELF TRYiN
T0 SAVE Y0U ..
you're the only one that makes me
draw stupid hearts in the margins
of my paper <3
as soon as you get online, whose
name do u look for first?
when a s l o w song comes on the radio..
whose face comes to your mind first?
when you hear your phone ringing..
who do u hope it is calling?
whose name makes your stomach
drop when u hear it?
i looked at him... talked to him... laughed with him... flirted with him... but i never got those **butterflies** i get whenever i see you
for the past hour, i`ve been s itting here typing,
backspacing, writing, erasing. editing, revising,
scratching. i just want you to know:
pouring your heart out isn’t very easy
It's your hello that keeps me hanging out to every single word and it's
your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice behind each corner. <3
A relationship is like a tree,
when its dying you can either
give up and throw it away
or you can water it and make it
better
would it be okay if .
i just sat next to you
&& watched you smile?
so many kids out there;;
but your the only one
who seems to make my life
make sense
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| Friendship
lets become little old ladies together ...
we'll stay up late looking at old pictures,
telling 'remember when' stories, and laughing
till our sides ache. lets become eccentric together ...
the kind of old ladies who take long walks,
wear silly hats, and get away with acting outrageous
in public places. and if anybody should ask how
long we've been friends, we'll say 'oh, forever -
since before you were even born!!' lets become
little old ladies together ... because a friendship
that's as special as ours can only grow better through the years ...
somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends, the i miss you`s, and the i love you`s, and what are we doing tonight`s? somewhere between all of the changed and growing and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, and the pretending to be studying for tests, and the downright not studying for tests, i forgot.. i forgot what it meant to cry. i forgot that pretending to be happy doesn`t make you happy. i forgot that pretending to be smart doesn`t make you smart. and that pretending to be okay doesn`t make you okay. i forgot that you can`t just forget the past in fear of our future.. i forgot that you can`t control falling in love.. and that you can`t make yourself fall in love. i learned.. i learned that i can love.. i learned that it`s okay to mess up. and it`s okay to ask for help.. and it`s okay to feel like crap.. i learned it`s okay to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day.. that somehow they'll make it all better. i learned that sometimes the things you want most you can`t have. i learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't going to be who is most popular or going to the parties.. or the drinking not even the hook ups.. it`s the friendships.. which means taking chances. i learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to talk out.. i learned that letters from friends are the most important thing.. and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better.. but basically, i just learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people to me in the world. <3
a true friend is a person who is there for you through thick and thin. They don’t judge you by the clothes you wear, or the size of your house. They l0ve you no matter what. They are a shoulder to cry on, or a partner to lauqh with. They stand by you in your times of need and listen when you are excited. They know every little thing about you. They stand up for you when others don’t.
No matter how serious life gets, you always have to have those people you can be completely stupid with.
doesn`t it suck when you lose your best friend and it hurts
you, yet she doesn't seem to care?
-- if you and a friend get in a fight, say sorry because the other might be hoping they'd say sorry to you also. who knows.. a simple apology never said could lead to the end of a friendship...forever.
Change.... people can't change you && you can hardly change yourself. you are who you are, and god made you that way. people always say they are "gonna change" but it most of the time doesn't work. they always end up going back to their old ways. you shouldn't have to change for your gf, bf, or friends. they should have to accept you as you are. i mean, aren't those real friends - - ones that accept you for you despite your differences and imperfections?
lose one friend... lose all friends...lose yourself --<<-- boy meets world
me without them is like »
a nerd without BRACES
a ( s h o e ) with no laces
asentencewithoutspaces
Thanks to those who hated me,
You made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me,
You made my heart grow fonder.
Thanks to those who envied me,
You made my self-esteem grow stronger.
Thanks to those who cared,
You made me feel important.
Thanks to those who entered my life,
You made me who I am today.
Thanks to those who left,
You showed me that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed,
You showed me the true
meaning of "friendship".
Twenty years from now, I am going to look back and remember that you were the one person who could turn every frown to a smile in a few simple words. That person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in myself. That one person who carried tears on her shoulders after every fight, ever break-up, every death. That one person who always knew what I was feeling by the look on my face. That one person who accepted who I was when everyone else laughed in my face. That one person that accepted every decision I made. That one person who knew who I really was. That one person that made the biggest difference in my life. My best friend.
10 years from now i wont remember
who went out with who , the people we
always hated , the resons why we laughed
so hard & all of our memories. But i know
ill always remember one thing ...
that Y0U were my BEST FRIEND
A SiMPLE FRiEND -- when visiting, acts like a guest. A BEST FRiEND -- opens your refrigerator & helps herself. A SiMPLE FRiEND -- has never seen youu cry. A BEST FRiEND -- has shoulders soggy from your tears. A SiMPLE FRiEND -- brings a bottle of wine to your party. A BEST FRiEND -- comes early to help youu cook and stays up late to help youu clean. A SiMPLE FRiEND -- hates it when youu call her after she`s gone to bed. A BEST FRiEND -- asks youu whyy youu took so long to call. A SiMPLE FRiEND -- thinks the friendship is over when youu have an argument. A BEST FRiEND -- calls youu after youu had a fight. A SiMPLE FRiEND -- expects youu to always be there for them. A REAL FRiEND -- expects to always be there for youu!!
Life's not always gonna go your way. Yeah, it's gonna knock you down and leave some scars and some memories- good and bad. You may start off on the wrong track, but you can always get back on the right. Your footprints may lead, but your angel will guide you. And God will always be by your side. You're gonna live, laugh, and love. And if life hits you too hard, remember that you can always lean on me.
best friends understands when youu say forget it.
waits forever when youu say just a minute //
stays when youu say leave me alone. and openss
the door even before youu say come on in. <3
now thats when youu say best friendss forever ;]
A mirror reflects your inner emotions...
not your outer layer. your friends show
who you are and smiles beautify the soul
i`ll be there when no one is ther for youu and youu think no one cares. when the world walks out on youu, and youu think youu`re alone. i`ll be there when the one youu care about the most could care less about youu, when the one youu gave your heart throws it in your face. i`ll be there when the person youu trusted betrays youu. when the person youu share all your memories with can`t ever remember your birthday. i`ll be there when all youu need is a friend to listen to youu while when all youu need is someone to catch your tears. i`ll be there when your heart hurts so bad youu can`t even breathe, when youu just want to crawl up and die. i`ll be there when youu start to cry after hearing that sad song, when the tears just won`t stop falling down. i`ll be there so youu see i`ll be there until the end. this is a promise i can make if youu ever need me just call and i`ll be there.
Sometimesz, at the hardest timesz of your life .. friends are the only things that make sense .. nd` sometimesz, when they don`t make sense at all .. it`sz because your trying to hard to look for what is there .. instead of just taking it as it comes to youu.
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| Written By Me!
its so hard for me to hold back the tears
i know its only fair
well shes been in pain for years
why do i even care?
but the way he talks about her
it tears right through my heart
well i guess they are perfect for eachother
but it's tearing me apart.
wasted phone calls and saved IM conversations... saying "i love you" with only me meaning it. so many hugs and kiss, all the hand-holding and smiles... it all dissapeared when you told the truth
she looks in her mirror every morning... when she gets home after school... and when she goes to bed... but ever time she feels the dissapointment .... that burning pain of being everything she never wanted to be...
guys::: if you like a girl... dont play it the old way and act like you hate her... because if she likes you back... you'll only break her heart.
look inside my eyes...
do you see the happiness i seem to have?
hold my hand...
is it as warm as you imagined?
dont assume my smile is the truth...
dont pretend that tonight im not crying myself to sleep.
these 2 years we spent together
laughs and tears we'll probably never remember
silly fights and stupid lies
starry nights laying under summer skies
crushes, love, heartbreaks and everything inbetween
the pain and joy of being "a teen"
these days are the snapshots to put in our scrapbooks
to look back and laugh at all our different "looks"
going seperate ways i'll have a tear falling from my eye
but smile when i remember the fun we had in junior high
like a lost piece of a puzzle... there is always something missing
words they may make me cry
but i have the strength to carry on and hold my head up high
your holding me now... and i've never felt so complete
i'll admit to you... "you swept me off my feet"
now you glare at me...
behind my back
and i hear what you whisper...
and i hear you when you laugh...
you're expecting me to play your game...
but i wont because you see
unlike you...
i'm not a fake
so i'll pretend that i believe you
when you look me in the eye and say "i love you too"
but when i get home i'll just break down and cry
because i know it was another stupid lie
are you expecting me to make a scene when you break my heart? well dont expect me to cry...
because darling... i've dealt with this enough
i cant stand the way i have to repeatedly tell myself i hate you... i say it over and over again... thinking maybe i'll forget how much i truly love you.
i see your screen name pop up... i dont want to IM you right away, i dont want to seem desperate, i wait a few minutes but after a while i lose the courage i need to talk to you... please do me a favor IM me first.
i walk by your house, looking at everything on the block but your bedroom window... the same window we snuck out of that night to go to the park just to be together. you held me tight as we layed under the stars and you told me you'd love me forever. and just like in all the classic movies we said our vows under the tree at only 14... do you even think of me now? because i think of you all the time. can you even picture my face? well i see yours everytime i close my eyes... forever ended so fast... i thought we we're meant to last...
how can you look in my eyes... and not see my love shining for you?
an day or two went by... i was so mad at you i wouldnt care if you were to die... but then you smiled at me... and now im right back where i used to be... in love with you
how is it that one second i cant stand thinking about you... and the next i love the fact that you're always on my mind??
you and i together... speeding down that deserted rode... my hair flying out behind me... the way you held my hand... every precious moment we have... reminds me of how much i love you.
shes staring at the clock... counting the seconds till the class is over then suddenly she hears his laugh, and it makes it all worth the wait.
looking in her mirror... clueless to what shes crying about now... she wants to dissappear... and she would forget everything only if she knew how
dont tell me not to cry
dont pretend like it's not hard to say goodbye
dont walk away while im still crying
dont act like the whole time you werent lying.
these days without you... they break me down... i need to see your smile... just to remember that things are going to be alright.
it hurts her to look in the mirror... it hurts her to laugh with her friends... the pain has gotten too far... and now she's just another stranger lost in the darkness...
another bad morning... dont want to get up, but i see the picture of us in the frame on my desk... and who cares if i'm not wearing any make-up, nothing matters to me, but getting to you as fast as i can
we've had some pretty tough times... but dont you realize that saying goodbye will be the hardest thing we'll ever have to do?
i can be laughing and talking but you look in my eyes... you see my pain... you see through my lies... because no matter what i do i cant hide what i feel from my best friends...
i woke up to a gloomy day, and burnt my hand on the straightener... my make up smeared and my cereal spilled... the not so perfect way to start a day. missed the bus had to walk to school in the pouring rain, late to class and lost my homework. then i see you in the hall, and for a split second nothing else in the world matters.
--if love is a rollercoaster ... well then...
i'm just addicted to the rush of ---Adreniline
it's been raining for so long and now i dont expect it to
ever stop.
she lets them talk... fastens her walk... they can say whatever she doesnt care... shes figured out by now that:: life just isn't fair
how do we keep playing this game, saying these words we just dont mean i know we once loved eachother:: sometime long ago... but now we need to just let eachother go
i've been calling 911... but the ambulance has never come. i guess i'll just have to live with this broken heart.
those times you looked at me...
i could have sworn there was something special in your eyes...
but maybe all of those feelings you said you had were just careless lies
---another version by my friend:::
those times you looked at me...
i could have sworn there was something special in your eyes...
but maybe you were just looking at her...
it kills me the most just to know
that it isnt even hard for you to let go.
when we stood at the park and you looked in her eyes,
I knew right then that your feelings were lies,
And you kissed her while throwing my heart away,
On that cold cold autumn day.
her fragile soul his blood red veins
broke each time the silence came
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| Break-Ups//Crushes//Hopeless Romantics
some people are easy to get over
they only take a week or two,
but sooner or later you’ll find the one
who has changed everything about you,
and no matter how hard you try,
you can’t find the words to say goodbye
you hug him goodbye like its nothing ..
while all you wanna do is hold on forever.
But you let go .. smile .. and walk away..
then cry all the way home
because it will never be the same
try as you might ..
you can't make someone love you
>> i want someone to cry their eyes out if they hear me say g o o d b y e i guess g.o.o.d.b.y.e is the only way to truly figure out who really cares.
& her heart finally told her to give up <//3
They say holding on makes you stronger, but I swear letting go takes all my strength.
He's the guy that i so desperately try to push out of my head while at the same time cling to our memories with all my might... he's the guy that i hate because i love him and i love him because i hate him... he's the guy that no matter what he does to himself or to me, i'll always love him... i knew him really well at one point, then he got lost, i tried finding him, but i realize he's got to --find his own way back--... back to me? maybe?... i keep hoping that this will be my romantic love story, happy ending and all... but sadly i'm preparing myself, my heart, for yet again another disappointment
It has to be hard to watch someone you love change before your eyes,
and know you can't do anything about it.
but it's heartbreaking to remember them how they once were </3
nothing is really 0VER until the moment you decide to stop trying.
ever now & then can youu just do me a little favor..
& remind me if how much youu care.
little things like that, mean the W0RLD to a girl.
Some people believe that the best cure for a broken heart is to find someone else, I think that if the person meaned so much to you that they had the power to hurt you, you shouldnt give up on them
the other day i prayed that when you lied to me that the sky would change colors and when you said you loved me i saw a rainbow ...
so you held my hand while we stood in the rain, you looked at me as i felt this pain. you said it was over and i just wanted to hide, you couldnt even tell i stood there and cried.
when will my heart finally realize it's not going to work out... when my mind knew all along.
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