| alright, so things....are kind of becoming more stable. i'm not going to lie, i don't go a single minute without thinking about derrick. i miss him so much, but everything is going to go on eventually, it has to. i've made some new friends, they're great, and they're fun to be around. i've been having a genuinely good time around them. today was a boffia reunion, minus jeff&rc. it was pretty fun; alex picked me up from quakies and we went over to her house early. then eric showed up, then everyone else gradually got there. i was extremely surprised with the fact that me and eric actually got along; it felt good to know that we can be socially friendly, and it gave me some type of comfort. other than that, it was great to hang out with the old group for a bit, even if boffa had to leave early and we were missing two. we'll have another one, and it'll be even better. the other night me, meg, candice, rob, doug, and some other kid whose name i can't remember were at john's house; that was an interesting experience. his mom was waaay drunk, and kept talking to us about how "intention is everything!" because candice asked her her opinion on hickys. it was hilarious. overall, everythings really looking up. my main thing is still derrick; things are a lot different. even though he used to leave for long periods of time, he'd always call or message me. its getting increasingly difficult to realize that thats never happening again, and that i'm never going to see him again. fortunately, i still have pictures and messages and letters and voicemails; though its not the same, its something. so, this was a big update. bye[: EDITTTT---- i saved a puppy's life today[: |
