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Saturday, January 27, 2007

Sat, 27 Jan 2007 02:53:57 GMT

::sigh:: i wish i could make everybody happy. it's sad that the world should be full of so many depressed people, all just waiting for their deaths to ease their misery and pain... what's worse is that i'm one of them.
i don't know if i helped you, but i really hope i did. i won't be able to live without you, so please don't leave me.
you're not worthless and unimportant. nobody thinks badly of you, it's sad that you and i both, as well as god knows how many other people have to think so lowly of ourselves, without sensible cause. it's so hard not to give up..

It's hard to get rejected
By the one you most expected to be by your side
Your first thought being you should run and hide
I don't think you're to blame
I'll get you on your toes
I'll dream of you while I'm asleep at night
So nobody will know
So don't leave me

Don't leave, don't leave me here
I can't breathe without you
Don't leave, don't leave me here
I don't want to be without you
I don't want to live without you
I don't want to breathe without you (You're my oxygen)
-New Found Glory

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 11:52:16 GMT

i could kill my mother. because of her, i am probably late for my interview(they'll never hire meeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!).. THANKS SO MUCH TO JEN FOR THE LAST MINUTE RIDE.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 21:49:12 GMT

i haven't updated since january, and all i have to say is, I HATE RAIN. at least, when it also involves marching band..

actually, that's not all i have to say, i'm just too tired to post a real band camp entry. hahaha

job interview at EB shoprite tomorrow! wish me luck!(i'll need it)

silly band camp quotes to come..

musician's theory of relativity? E=Fb
^the trombone freshman had a shirt like that and i thought it was great XD.

Monday, January 30, 2006

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 21:49:01 GMT

good luck on midterms everyone.. i think i won't do so well in math.. >.<

in months, this is all i've had to say. kind of strange... does anyone else feel like their life is full of mediocrity, to the point where it's almost of waste of time?.. blahh

Friday, November 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 21:44:03 GMT

hehehe who's that weird looking band geek? =p

i seem to be everybody's victim..so..

8 Things I wanna do before I die :

1. visit countries in europe and asia

2. learn to play more musical instruments(yeah i really am a band geek.. haha)

3. go to college and graduate

4. actually make some new friends for once xD

5. find a good job that i like

6. figure some stuff out

7. come up with some goals/dreams

8. then try and achieve them

7 things I can do :(wellthis could be an endless category..)

1. play clarinet/flute

2. procrastinate

3. listen without making too many judgements

4. give advice

5. cook.. kind of.. haha

6. be serious(it's hard to find me not so serious lol)

7. uhm..stare into space? haha

7 often repeated words :

1.haha

2. lol

3. what?

4. uhmm.. okay then

5. right

6. yeah

7. no?

11 traits I look for in the opposite sex(why am i bothering to fill this out?) :

1. nice

2. caring

3. sweet

4. tries to understand you

5. have a sense of humor

6. is there for you

7. listens/helps you

8. not too judgemental

9. not angered easily

10. doesn't hold grudges

11. makes you feel safe

7 victims :

1. anybody who hasn't already done this

Monday, October 17, 2005

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 22:51:32 GMT

am i really that boring as a person? somebody please tell me..

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 19:53:41 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
KIMMIE!!!!!!!

hehe

Friday, September 16, 2005

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 23:00:10 GMT

so, the highlight of my evening..

we get to sayreville, and we start walking down to the stands. on the side of the parking lot is this little, 6-7 year old girl with her mom sitting on the back of a car. as i walk past, the girl points at me and says to her mother, "mommy look at that little girl!" the mother says, "that's not a little girl, that's a high school girl." so, after hearing this, i get about 10 feet away and start cracking up, meanwhile the mother is calling after me, "SORRY!" then eric robertshaw turns around and ask what happened, so i explain, and he starts laughing at me too lol. it was pretty funny stuff..

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 15:05:41 GMT

well, i would bitch some more about how bad school has become, but i think it suffices to say, that

SCHOOL TOTALLY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is all

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 13:41:19 GMT

bleh school tomorrow. i'm actually going to miss this summer for once. for me, it was only good right before it ended. 2/3's of my summer was horrible though, so boring. there's really not much to say about it.

i really don't want to start school though. even though i know what to expect (sort of), i guess i just don't want this year to go by as fast as last year did. it feels like too soon i'll be going off to college, which i'm afraid to do. eh. what does it matter. i suppose it's going to happen sooner or later, so there's kinda no point worrying about it. i'd just rather it not be too soon.

anyway. i barely have any idea where my locker is. i think it's on the second floor, and it's a crappy one. haha. why do sophomores always get the crappy lockers? my history room is in a closet.. lol not really, but it IS a tiny, pathetic excuse for a classroom. i hope i have a small class then, or we'll never fit x.x. at least keriann is in gym with me, and krystal's in my french class. of course, my french class is in the new wing, and the new wings are not on the old maps, so i don't know WHERE my french class IS right now.. damn why are they so stupid? they didn't give us new maps this year. they better give us one in homeroom tomorrow, or i'm going to end up pissing off a few teachers by being incredibly late, or worse, having to cut their class because i can't find it. x.x stupid school.. i've also heard that there aren't enough classrooms, which is WHY my history room is in a closet. and that they still haven't finished the construction. i sorta knew they wouldn't finish. haha idiots..