welp im bored so i thought i would upate...

school is out and summer is here! so far it has been awesome! hangin out with mah girl *Lamer*. we have had so much fun its been great. i start work on saturday! im pretty excited! okay well i think im just gonna put some quotes on here!

if ya wanna hang out this summer let me know!

you have to live your life not caring
shake off the drama just to prove
you're better than they think

the worst thing a guy could do
is make a girl fall for him with
no intentions of catching her

best friends dont have to tell each other
they're best friends . . . they just know

sometimes, you think you've gotten over a person
but when you see them smile you suddenly realize
you were just pretending all along to hide the pain

i got bored...

 < me and mah girl *Lamer*!!

Well okay im tired of seeing my update..yeah...well im better now. its been a week and im getting over it..yeah i wish it didnt happen but its not like im gonna worry bout it anymore...maybe soon we can just be friends and then i'll be happy..but yeah this is what he wants and what i want is for him to be happy. but okay im done with that topic

more stuff is going on now, but i just rather not talk about it...not sure who to talk about it to anyway so its not like it really matters. so besides me being sick since saturday everything has been good.

*Lamer & Laramie, i want to thank you guys for everything! you guys have been so great the past week, im so glad we are all getting closer as friends. you always know how to put me in a good mood. love ya guys!

well league track meet tomorrow, and community service day..then regionals next week and only 8 days of school left! im so ready for summer!

well okay this is a good update!

shes taking her time making up the reasons to justify
all the hurt inside. Guess she knows from the smiles
& the looks in their eyes everyones just thinks she
was a stupid little girl with her hopes way to high

youu know youu really love someone
when youu don`t hate them for `-----
b r e a k ii n q __ your heart. <3 xo0x

she knows she could
never be good enough
for you but for some reason,
but she tries anyway.

sometimes you [gotta] s.m.i.l.e
and | w | a | l | k | a w a y hold your
t e a r s in and p r e t e n d
Y O U R  O K A Y

I don't know where I stand with you and
I don't know what I mean to you.
All I know is that every time I see you
all I want to do is be with you

i miss him..

so i've decided i might just give up on everything...i guess i just need to leave him alone so he can have this break and forget about me...maybe i can just concentrate on the last 12 days of school and the track meet tomorrow..and cheerleading this summer..and start getting in shape for cross country cuz i think im doin that next year..it kinda sucks that i dont have a best friend anymore cuz she only wants to talk to one person now cuz i guess that person knows what she's goin threw..but o well..idk anymore. summer's coming up and im pretty sure thats gonna be boring cuz i always lose touch with my friends..so i probably wont do anything this summer..o well..nothin new there. i guess im not really sad anymore cuz i've realized this is what needs to happen i guess..so im okay with it..but o well..im done updating for now..not much else to say

im done updating though cuz xanga is gay. i might possibly update if i get bored..and actually get comments. and idk if anyone reads this anyway..i just had to say all that and vent i guess..but o well..

did you ever wonder if dreams came true,
if love songs & fairy tales were ever meant for you?
did you ever wonder what's at the rainbows end,
or if Romeo & Juliet could ever happen again

she wipes off the black rivers
running down her un-made cheeks.
she takes a deep breath in and
steadies herself. she can do
this, keep going, pull through;;
t h e-s h o w-m u s t-g o-o n

he looked at me & said,
"do you ever feel like you're working
for something you're never going to get?
you shoot-&-miss kind of deal.
like, no matter what, you can't have it,
but that makes you fight for it just a little bit more?"
i looked at him, stared at him for a second,
& replied, "everyday…"

And I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that I might never talk to you again.
And I won't feel the same about anyone the way
I feel when I'm with you. I'm afraid that you'll
find someone else and feel different for some
other girl. And I'll just be an old school memory

well here's an update for everyone...

colton and me broke up...yeah i dont really understand the reason but okay...it happens i guess...and everyone keeps telling me im strong but ya know what...i dont think i can be strong this time..just hurts to much..o well..nothin else worth updating about..