Merry Christmas!!!!  Hope Christmas was good. Mine was alright.  .. we did everything on xmas eve...I didn't even really get any good gifts.  i got family guy...and slippers...that you put in the microwave to warm your feet.  lol. yayy.  I got lotsa money though. i like that. i'm not greedy or anything, but that means i can buy what i like.  ummm.    i had to work. it was crap. i had to close....i didn't get out of there until 7.  busy busy busy.  you figure people would have everything done by christmas eve...but noooo. oh well.  umm i'm really tired...its 2:00 am.  i  miss dylan really bad.  we didn't really talk much..because he was at his dads...then he had christmas stuff going on, and i had to work. then i had to come home and do christmas stuff.  and he had to go to bed early cuz 'santa' was coming for his little brother and sister. thats cute.  i'm still sad. i miss him lots. i wanna talk to him. ohhh well. nothing i can do. umm well i'm tired. i'm going to finish watching this last episode on the 1st disc....and then go to beddd... yesss.  have a good night everyone. sweet dreams

Hiii everyone.  things have been pretty good lately.  umm. yeh. my christmas break has been pretty boring. haven't done much...  They called me into work and completely forgot to give me my break after i had been there for 4 hours. it was insane.  Umm. well, yeah not much to say here....Things have been great with Dylan.  I'm ready to be with him for goooood (because wheter you know it and i know it and he knows it...i'll be with him for good and he'll be with me for good too. soo..yayyy) (well i really really hope)  Anyways, i'm ready for christmas. I have absotlutley no idea what i'm getting.   The only thing i told my parents I wanted was a pair of shoes that had polka dots on them. i hope i get them yayy.  umm My mom is getting my dad this freaking huge Flat screen T.V.  its like the size of her windshield in her car. and she has a pretty big car.  a nice one toooo.  umm yeah. i'm tired.  i think i've had a bit to much silverstein. Oh well, its a really good CD.  Me and amanda and kelsey and mykael and her boyfriend...umm cody i think...yyeeeah we went to the mall this weekend..it was fun. lol we took pictures. yayy. 

Yeah... Santa was happppy in that picture....trust me...kelsey and i know he was. lol.   and that last one...i think we all pretty much look like crap but we had fun. yeah. wellll. i don't know.  um i'm kind of bored. i smell i think. i need to take a shower. joy.  hah my neck looks all effed up in that picture. thats great.  welllll. i'm gonna go be bored. maybe take a shower...if you're lucky. laters

well...i'm officially pissed off and scared ....  and kind of sad. but hey whatever...

nooo....scratch that

i'm really sad.

i think i might have just...screwed up the only thing i really had going for me....

Dylan...

i love him...a lot.

but he read my blogs.

and he didn't like them to much.

but hey, they weren't that good. i know

omg. i just wish things were like they were before.

before i ever even screwed up one freakin bit.

ahh...why me. i always screw up.

blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I love you Dylan......

bye for now

melissa

nooo i'm happy now yayayayayay boy made me happy . yaya hes not mad yay. umm alright wellll. bye

blahh. i dont really feel like posting tonight...but i need to.  well. lets see.  I suppose its officially over with Jordan and I.  As long as he's happy, I'm happy.  Well, I'm happy either way.  Dylan and I might be getting back together.  I've missed him sooo much. Its insane. It feels soooo good to talk to him...to fall asleep on the phone with him...for him to call me back at 3 in the morning just to tell me good night.  i've missed it. i really have.  I dont know what i was thinking. i did have a great time with jordan though. i really did. but..he's in love with Stephanie.  He's gotta be happy. Thats all i want. ...I just wish he wouldn't avoid me.  thats the thing that hurts the most now at this point.  after all that...he's just avoiding me.  but theres nothing i can do.  well. Things have been good with dylan.  I happy..really happy.  this is the happiest i've been in...well....a little bit.  umm.. I love him...i never stopped.  ahh my eye keeps twitching. anyways.  things have been really good.  except for the fact that i failed my math final.. thats never good. but oh well, i'm going to see if i can retake it. but yeah. i'm tired. i'm waiting for dylan to get home from his first show.  i'm sure things went good.  but yeah. i'll post later. :)  

good night everyone. sweet dreams

melissa