Im done with this shit for awhile... you can leave comments if u want.. but im not posting...

I love those of you that dont hurt me.. Arielle .. I wish i knew what to say to you.. but is obvious im a fuck up and shouldve known from the start... maybe we could have really had something this last time if iwasnt so stupid...

Im soorry.... Trisha

<< Mii Mood

* Going Crazy - Natalie * << song playing.. I like the song.. but then again i dont like the song.. i have mii reasons...

                                                        How mii daii went

Woke up.. sick.. I really didn't want to go to school but I have midterms tomorrow so I needed to be at school.. Im so loyal to school.. lol.. Soo i went to school sick.. School was iight. First hour sucked balls like usual.. gosh i almost jack slapped this fuckin guy in that class.. i got up to talk to the teacher and i come back and he is in mii seat.. so im like hello get up... he just looks at me.. so im like whii da hell you all up on mii stuff.. and the dumbass just lefts up mii bag and hands it to me.. Im like dude dont touch mii shit and get up.. he's like dont command say please.. so with an attitude i say would u please get up.. and he's like no dont say it with attitude.. so i get loud and say your not my fucking father so dont tell me what to do and get the fuck up... the teacher heard me and guess who won?? I DID... hahaha. anyways.. saw tracy after first hour... she said something to me.. i dunt remember wat but it caught my attention.. and then was like just give me a hug... so i did and then i think she said I love you duckie.... I just went on to my second hour and didn't put much thought into it.. Then i txted mii suga * sigh.. i wish * and then went on to third hour and thats when i got a txt back from her... I was soooooooooooo smiling big after that.. her txt's are always sweet.. hehehe.. Then i went to lunch.. and then fourth hour and then home... I showed mii bus driver the txts.. and she's like who is that... i didn't answer her.. and she kept buggin me.. when i got off the bus she was like.. so who's your sweetie? lol.. i said dont worry about it miss.. lol.. and then i came home.. sigh.. she was still at school so i took a shower and than ate something cuz i aint ate all day.. and then she txted me .. Im so glad its raining there... It brought her home quicker to me .. So im talkin to her now... well after i get done wit hthis... and since i can't quite tell you mii self.. imma try and sum up what i want to say here...

Babes.. I know we've had our long past.. to be honest I never thought we'd end up where we are now. I'm just glad that we're here and that things are still there.. I have messed up before with you.. and I regret it all the way.. But whii regret it when I can do mii best to make it up to you? I know you've messed up to.. But I believe this can work.. You and I. Mii love for you has never died down.. it has never left me. And you have never left mii heart. You have never left mii side. I love you more everyday. I don't know what i have been doing for the last couple of months but i must've been blinded to not see that you and I really have something real. I felt it.. I did.. I was just scared and thought you really didn't want this so I tried being with someone else.. That didn't work.. I was alittle happy.. but i felt weird at times.. There was always someone else i was running to when i was down or if i just needed someone to talk to.. and that was always you.. And it has always been you.. I know you hate hearing me cry because of others.. But baby there isn't going to be any others if You just give me this chance. I know it can work.. I will do everything i can to make it work. You were mii first and you'll always have mii heart.. no other girl will ever be able to take mii heart like you. I tried lieing about that saying she had mii heart but deep down i didn't feel it.. I just wanted something to be real for once.. and i couldn't see that what is really has always been at mii side. I Love You and I mean it with everything i am. She doesn't matter.. They dont matter.. Its just me and you.. and the decision for you to make.. Is this really what u want?? if so.. Lets make it work...

Well she's waitin for me.. and now imma wait for her to read this.. Peace out everyone else.. and Babes.. I Love You!

Trisha

^^ Posted around 630ish...

...:: EdIt ::...

wow.. what a day.. Turned out pretty awesome.. Her And I got together :)... Im a slut eh?? no not really.. If you guys knew the whole thing with her and I than you'd know how i was able to get with her.. being that something told me to get with her when she asked me to leave kristi... but i couldn't do that.. i couldn't hurt kristi.. so therefore i guess i allowed miiself to get hurt.. but now im allowin myself to be happy. anyways.. yeah.. i can't exactly explain it all.. so yeah..

anyways! mii night was good.. I meet one of Kristi's exs tonight, Kim. She's pretty cool.. we aint talked alot thou.. so yeah.. I called her thou.. and uhhhhh... she sounds similar to kristi  i guess. anyways.. imma holla atcha later...

Im on the phone with Arielle . hehe.. so Peace out! I Love You- Trisha

This sorta sucks... im on the phone with Arielle.. and theres like so much i wanna say.. but at the same time i can't quite say yet.. I'll admit im alittle afraid.. but who isn't?.. Things with me and kristi are done.. if she comes to her senses about use.. to bad.. imma have to move on.. I can't keep hurting for her.. ANYWAYS..  im having fun on the phone.. except the fact i cant say what i want... i know she'll read this.. i guess thats why im typing it.. lol.. she just asked what im talking about.. i cant straight up tell her.. jeez she doesnt understand that... for once im shy with someone... REALIZE that please... it'd make things alot easier for us.. Imma go and tlak to her.. before she gets mad.. Goodnight all..

<3 Trisha  s S.O.S