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| what do you do when you cant trust nobody???????????? | | |
| just an old part of a poem i wrote..just found it, since im looking through my moms comp...
My escape is my mind,
sometimes its not right,
sometimes it makes lies,
sometimes i lose sight,....
but its always been this way,
cuz i guess i cant change,
ive tried many differnt things and they get rearranged...
but i kep on dreaming
cuz i can make this right,
gotta see past the struggle,
gotta see past the fights
bcause nothing will get solved when you avoid the problems...
but when theres so many puzzles
its gets so hard to solve them...
so sometimes i let go,
and i fall back to my place.....
i scream into my mirror
and go back to my escape.
....guess it explains alot.
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| a beautiful baby girl,only a true gift from god can come along with losing the one you love........................................ | | |
| well, i dont really got much to say but im bored and decied to update
even though everyone is on fuckin myspace now....but neways,
so, ive been working alot lately, over 40 hours a week at
Creekstone...make a 2 week full time Sonic paycheck in 1 week
there...so its so much fucking better...im still waiting to move
out...it dont really help that my fucking p.o. has been gone for over a
month now so i cant exactly ask her if i can...im really fucking ready
too though since my bro is moving back in and shit...well, the other
thing i really wanted to post on here was that i finally got to feel my
daughter kick the other night...and let me tell you, she can fucking
kick too....i almost was brought to tears...but only 3 months more to
wait till i can see her beautiful face....almost there....so thats it
for now...peace out bitches.
I've been meaning to say sorry,
for what i did to you.
But I know anything I say
wouldn't make it up to you.
Im sorry that I lied,
and put up a front.
I'm sorry that I gave up
for some little cunt.
I know it wasn't worth it,
and I know it hurt you too.
But I've been scared from the beginning
of what I'd do to you.
I'm sorry that I hold back,
I know you are the one.
I'm sorry that I fucked up,
cuz the guilt weighs a ton.
I know you mean the best
and expect it in return.
I know you lit the candles
not expecting to get burned.
Im sorry that I love you
but I can't seem to tell
that heavens right in front of me,
but I still burn in hell.
So Im sorry for the last time,
I can't say it with more heart.
But I know that I loved you
right from the start.
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| so to finally update for you guys...since i havent been on here in years...
So I've been working out at Creekstone now for the past week...its an easy ass job with good pay, but damn does it make your body hurt...80 lb. boxes for 8-11 hours straight can do that to you i guess....this is the last week i will be working at sonic too...and i have been scheduled 6 out of the 7 days too....2 fucking jobs really blows ass,...but atleast i get paid every friday at creekstone...and this saturday at sonic....
well neways, ive been keeping out of trouble lately until...........yesterday when i was on my way home for my curfue, i drive by a cop, he doesnt turn my way....so i get home, change my clothes, and start making something to eat...when i was told Officer Nation and Officer Frank Owens were outside for me...to fucking cite me for driving on a suspended license....what fucking bitches for real.....i mean dont they have to pull you over to give you a ticket???instead of waiting like 10 minuteas then deciding "hey lets go over to his house and give him a fucking ticket!".........isnt there some kind of robo cop law they are breaking????????
I'm gonna fight it.
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