fun weekend.  today is gonna suck.  i have tons of stuff to do..
-work
-write story for honors english
-wash my car
-clean my room

all in 4 hours time.. well except for the work part

new xanga time!!  help me get some ideas for the name please!
ideas:
XXyour__old_routine
im_the1__yourAFTER
ART___is_life

new xanga coming soon.  comment if you wanted to be subscribed to.

im not going to give up on my promise to myself.
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i dont want someone holding me

i dont want someone kissing me

i want to be alone.

im feel so alone.........

now guess which of those statements is true
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edit: some random thoughts...
---tomorrow my premium runs out =(
---honors english is a really big pain in the butt
---i really love my car
---i really hate my job
---im really liking the people im meeting and becoming friends w/ this year
---i want a new job
---i need to clean my room

worked sucked.  and i was feeling sick the whole time but I didn't want to say anything or complain because I know what its all about.  being nervous.. There is just too much new things going on for me to really handle it right now.. so since I don't have to work till sunday hopefully that will help a lot.  And then I can be ready Sunday to kick butt.. I hope..   of course then there is the whole brent = gone thing.  and thats not helping at all.. 

to brent - i miss you...  and I know you have to go.  but I can wish as much as I want that you didnt have to.. it will all be for the better in 4 years.  but right now it just sucks really bad and I'm sorry that I'm being so bad about handling this...  i love you

so general thought.. today sucked.. alot.  worst day in awhile

so work tonight.. was alright.  good moments, bad moments..  etc.  i learned to carhop kind of.  doing more of that tomorrow

this is the tattoo im getting the day i turn 18