hey girls

bec and i decided to make our own xangas so that we can support eachother as well! and its easier to comment/post wutever lol so yeh,

becs xanga is http://www.xanga.com/xweightlessxbutterflyx

and mine (tash) is http://www.xanga.com/xpurexandxempty_angelx

lol but i havent started yet hehe anyways, stay strong girls :) xxx

hey girls

yesterday while shoppin wit bec, i bought like this little notebook thingy to write in all my intake... it motivates me not to eat as much so that it doesnt look as bad in the book.. which is good :) if ur ever bored n dont have a book like that already, u should get one :) me n bec have like this book that we share between us.. we put thinspo, and tips and tricks in there and its like our little ana diary we pass on back n forth to eachother. its heaps cool! but weve been slacking a bit on that lately.. only cuz its been hard with our friends keepin a close eye on us n all...

i went lookin for sme dressed for the yr 10 social today... wow, i really want to slim up for that! i was just wondering if anyone who read our posts is a model? id love to be a model... theyd encourage you to be thin so much! But i spose its the same with dancing..

well my cw is 48 (it keeps moving towards 49, then back to 48 so really, im not changing much ) and i have 5 kg to loose for my goal weight! i dont know how ill do it.

im on that site that u showed me bec, and it says in order for me to get to 43 by the social (1month) and heres wut showed up

Start Weight	End Weight	Weight Loss	Daily Calorie Loss	Time to Lose Weight
Warning:	Losing more than 1000 calories a day can be unhealthy. See How fast should I plan to lose weight? At this rate you will weigh NOTHING in 9 months and 18 days!
48 kg	43 kg	5 kg	1286	1 mo 0 dy

so i needa loose 1286 calories a day?? haha notice the lil warning above.. lol i can weigh nothing in 9 months.. haha :) nah.. i wont go that far. but its kinda cool thinking about it lol

well anyways.. i kno bec already did this, but i wanted to put my msn addy on here as well... colormyheart@hotmail.com and laughingdevil01 for AIM 

supporting eachother is the best way, really.. all the rest is up to your own control! but if u need anyone to talk to for help, bec and i would be more then happy to talk to you! :)

i gotta go to dinner now :(    its a game bec =)

much love girls xxx

stay strong

xx.. tash

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hello there popit

soo i just realised that the last three blogs were all from TASH haha im so slack. nothing has changed. i am still 52 kg and i'm not going down.

i guess it's good that i am maintaining my wieght, but it's so fat!! um i can do waay better, i think. i hope atleast. so i haven't really been trying and yup i'm a loser. iv'e been eating heaps lately! a 3 day binge with some throwing up but not after every meal. god dammit.

i want to be a model too tash

but yuck. yuck. yuck. i can never be one. unless i put my heart and soul into it. that's the plan.

oh social is in 1 month = 1 month to loose 7 kg haha possible? i'll make it possible!

i have to burn 1800 calories a day to be 45kg in one month.. can i do it?

im not quite sure.

my plan...

morning run. 30mins 360 cals

afternoon run. 30 mins 360 cals

jump rope morning: 30 mins non-stop, 290 cals

jump rope afternoon, 30 mins non-stop, 290 cals

walking home from school: 45 minutes. 195 cals.

+ 200 side crunches, 100 sit-ups, 40 push ups, and random arobics.

total cals burned if i succeed: 1495 cals

and i plan on eating nothing but diet coke and buttons.

i need all the support i can get... if anyone wants support aswell and u have msn. i so want ana contacts. just addd.. bexnotpuunk@hotmail.com i am desperate for support and i love giving it

thanx guys. love bec

Hey girls

Sorry about the post before... =| just had a bit of a bad day n things were really getting to me ...&& i had to let it out so sorry...

Anyways, Intake for the day so far:

B-some low cal salad thing (lettuce, carrots, some weird rice noodle thing? tomatoe)

L-nothing

D-hopefully nothing...

CW- 48 kilos / 106lbs

GW- 45 kilos / 99lbs

Okkk well here's some thinspo which i luuuvvvv <3

shopping list:

-belly chain

-buttons (smokes)

-diet coke :)

yes, that would be me *sigh* its getting better tho :)

Ready for my poetic skills?? hahaha i was evry bored...

Waking up with the same expectations

Look into the mirror and see yesterday’s results

Run my fingers down the imperfections

All the failure that I’m seeing just hurts

Step onto the scale and pray for a change

And no matter what it says it’s never good enough

Take a look at myself too see all the fat gained

Maintaining my body has never been so tough

I can’t go on pretending to be satisfied

Because all I see in myself is constant failure

From all the tears that I’ve cried at night

I should be at least 10 pounds lighter ;)

But nothing ever seems to work

No matter how hard I push myself to try

All the pain I put myself through hurts

But if I can’t be thin, then I’d rather die

haha yes i know its pathetic.. :( lol but at least i tried hahah

stay strong girls

xx tash

It feels like  h a l f  of me is missing.

I came home from school & just like any other day, I went to my folder on my computer with all my thinspo/ana pics & they were fucking GONE. Omg, I don't think I've ever felt so e m p t y when I saw it missing... & my dad was talking about how he was doing virus checks on the computer earlier... he must've seen them & deleted it all! & im so scared... he'll confront me with this! & just yesterday or something he confronted me with my mom about finding ciggarettes in my room.. actually, more like in my bag! I can't believe they go through my room, & through my account on the computer.. to them deleting all those pictures & documents might have been nothing, but to me it meant e v e r y t h i n g. I'm so broken right now, I don't know what to do! I'm scared & I need to get away from here! :(

I want all my thinspo/ana documents back... & i wish my dad never saw any of it! Now they'll always be watching me...& what I eat! :( I don't want to eat! I can't afford to! Eating makes me soo upset and so low, its not funny! I haven't felt this useless/hopeless before...

xx...tash