i dont think i have reliezed how much i care about running until now. running is like my life. right now i didnt make it to state and my whole world is like cloudy and dull. my life isnt the same. thats all i looked forward too was achieving my goals in running and making my parents proud of me and doing what i can. but what i did wasnt enough and i feel like all i did was let me parents and my coachs down. i trained and trained but next year its gonna have to be harder training and more work to go to state cause it doesnt fall in ur lap and u have to work for things like that.

i reliezed after my mile that i was crying and i didnt know why. but i look around and see my family and coaches with their heads down...i cry now because i should of pushed harder to were to pain would stop becuase i would push through it but its part of life and i cry because i kno that god had something else for me to do. he wanted to show me that he had better plans and that this just is a slap in the face saying that it isnt easy and that i can start training now for next year so that when it comes im ready to take 1st but not for my coaches and not for my family and not for me. but for my #1 fan. which is the one and only JESUS CHRIST

jake

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